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Tuesday 26th June 2007...
Finally!!!!! Today's weigh in saw me back to the 105's at last. I feel a bit cheated with such a small loss after this week's effort but at least I lost something I guess?
Now I need to crack that invisible barrier at 104.9kg and I'll be on my way back to the 90's once more.
I tracked every day this week as planned and for the first time in a long time got through the weekend high risk periods under points.
Exercise this week went as follows.
Thursday: 1hr Spin Class
Friday: Rest
Saturday: 1hr Spin Class
Sunday: 1hr social tennis
Monday: 1hr walk
Tuesday: 1hr Spin Class.
Total: 5hrs
I had to get up at 5.15am this morning to make it to the 6am spin class but since I was up giving Talyn a bottle at 4.45am anyway that wasn't so hard. I tell you I am hooked on these spin classes. Today was the tough instructor again and she is by far my favourite. I love knowing that it is working my worst areas....thighs, butt and middle area. Just were I need it!
This morning I also faced a fear. Since gaining weight I've always dreaded running into anyone from school. At high school we had what we all called the "yuppy group" who were the uber popular people. Well today the queen of that group and one of her side kicks walked into my spin class. I almost died on the spot and so wished I could become invisible. Both these girls are slim and just as gorgeous as they were in high school so I felt ultra fat and drab at that hour of the morning. But guess what? One of them had to get off her bike after only 10-15min's as she said she was too unfit to continue!! Boy did that feel great - in a god what a bitch am I sort of way *wink*. It just helped me to see that even though I may have been the fattest in the room I was certainly not the unfittest and that felt great :)
So it's is now only 3 sleeps until my birthday!! My best mate Julie, Caleb's godmother, is coming to stay on Friday and I can't wait. We are going shopping that day while Simon stays home with the boys and then we are all going out with friends that night to our usual pub for dinner and a big one on the drinks. Granny is staying here with the boys. I think I'll probably skip next week's weigh in and give myself an extra week to get things back on track scales wise after the weekend bender....but never say never. I'll just see how things are looking next Tuesday and decide then.
I can't tell you how much I am looking forward to Friday! I think I may be getting new gym shoes from Simon which I so desperately need as my current pair are about 18months old and I'm starting to have pain in my arches when I wear them now. I've got some new clothes to wear out that night (will take a pic and post if for you on the weekend) and I'm pumped. I was NOT happy to wake this morning with what seems like the start of a cold/flu so I hope that does not dampen my weekend? I'll just have to drink the pain away *wink*
Oh my god....I can't believe I'm going to be 32!!!!!!!!!
TFTD: "Your attitude is everything!!!"
Cheers P
Saturday 23rd June 2007...
Well my plan for a perfect week is on track and going full steam ahead!
I have tracked everyday and come in under points overall since I began this mission Thursday morning. I'm not counting my bonus points of food for exercise as I'd rather avoid eating them and thus speed up my weight loss results.
Speaking of exercise....I did another spin class today - Wahoo! I went with my mother in law but there was only one bike spare so she insisted I use it while she went and had her gym program made up. Incidentally...I learnt today that a spin bike costs about $1500 each....holy cow!!!
The instructor was different today from Thursday's spin class and boy was the session different. I finished the other one thinking..."Well that wasn't quite as hard as I remembered it to be"....today... It Was!!! hehehe
I know I am going to be in a world of pain tomorrow but it felt so good when I was going hard at it....sweat dripping everywhere but I felt my fat jiggle and imagined it melting away as I pedalled and went even harder at it :) I'm going back to a 6am spin class again Tuesday morning....I told you I was hooked!
Tomorrow I plan a gentle 1hr walk to let my muscles recover then Monday arvo I'll do my 1hr weights program, spin on Tuesday then I may even try another class on Wednesday if I can beg more baby sitting, if not I'll just do some cardio in the arvo.
Come weigh-in on Wednesday night I should be sitting pretty!
I am having 3 people around for a roast pork dinner tonight...yummy! I cook all my vege's without oil so as long as I go easy on the crackling I should be good. Then I'm doing meringue nests (0.5pt's each) with Nestle Diet white choc mousse and fresh fruit for dessert too so all up I should be fine to get through the night.
It's such a huge accomplishment for me to survive a weekend with my diet intact so I'm really giving it everything I've got this weekend. Tomorrow we have planned a game of tennis and lunch down the Esplanade with friends so that's even more bonus exercise :)
Oh and last night....I found the most divine, tasty low point snack. A tub of Nestle Diet chocolate mousse (1pt) and a small banana (1pt) and a 1/2 punnet of strawberries (0.5pt's) all served together....HEAVEN ON A SPOON!! :)
TFTD: "The sooner you exert the discipline, the sooner you will be enjoying the results!!!"
Cheers P
Thursday 21st June 2007...
I did a spin class today and it was fantastic - on so many levels!
For one thing I've always thought of spin classes as only for the really fit. Prior to Talyn, when I was going to my old gym, they only introduced spin classes at the very end of my time there. At that point I'd heard so much about them that as soon as they started I signed up to try one. I didn't know it then but I was in the early stages of Talyn's pregnancy at the time. Boy was it hard work!! But I loved it and I knew I wanted to do more of them...then I found out I was pregnant and so ended that phase of my gym going life.
Fast forward to now. I'm back at a new gym, I'm slowly increasing my fitness once more and I was looking forward to one day doing a spin class again. I held off because I know hard it was the first time when my fitness levels were pretty high and I shuddered to think of how much harder I would find it this time around.
But this week I'm pulling out all stops. I'm tracking 100%, I'm exercising every day and I'm working my ass off to see how low I can get those scales by next week's weigh-in (the last before my birthday). So I figured what better week to put my fears aside and try a spin class again.
I was so nervous but it was great. The 45min's flew by in no time and while I was red faced, dripping sweat and very tired....I survived! And now I'm hooked! *wink* I've already organised with my mother in law (who just joined my gym) to go back again for another class on Saturday morning while Simon takes the boys swimming.. I'm also going to ask her about making today a regular thing as she has offered to do. And I want to try other classes when I can. Most are mornings which make childcare hard but I'll do my best.
I'm done with this body, this wardrobe, this self hatred, this life. The time to create the me I want is right now!
TFTD: "Only I can make the difference - what am I waiting for?!!!"
Cheers P
Tuesday 19th June 2007...
Another day closer to weigh-in and still a gain is showing on the scales. I have nothing good to say about that though so I am choosing to say nothing. :(
I have updated Caleb and Talyn's pages this morning. Big news for Talyn!!
Nothing much else to say right now that will come out positive so it's best I leave it here for today.
TFTD: "Add a little to a little and soon the little will become a lot!!!"
Cheers P
Monday 18th June 2007...
Beware....big whinge coming! Leave now if you'd rather not hear it :)
Aaargh! I just feel so damned frustrated. Frustrated with myself, with the scales, with how hard weight loss is...with it all!!
I've really kicked ass with the exercise this week. 4hrs done already and another 2-3hrs planned before my WW week ends. So you'd think I'd be looking at a good loss at last this week right? Wrong!
Those damn scales are showing a gain this morning! Now I know I'm not totally faultless in all of this. I keep going off track over the weekend nearly every week....Grrrr! Weekend have always been hard for me. During the day I'm fine but after dinner on weekends I stay up later then usual and that's when the munchies strike. Particularly after a few drinkies.
However I wasn't that bad this weekend I don't think and yet the scales seem to disagree this morning. I've wracked my brains for other explanations and these are the only possibilities I can come up with as contributing factors:
-The Implanon contraceptive implant I have often causes weight gain in many women. Please god don't let me be one of those!
-Because of first the pregnancy and breastfeeding and then the Implanon I've not had a period since about May last year. However I've had some breakthrough bleeding over the last week (sorry for Eww details!) and I'm wondering if perhaps my body is also holding some fluid at this time as it normally would if I were to have a normal period?
-I've also gone from 30 points on the WW lactation plan to only 24 points now. I guess that's a big overnight drop in points to adjust to.
-Then of course there is the cessation of the breastfeeding. Of course my body was burning fuel more efficiently when it was making milk etc so things are bound to slow down for a while.
In fact that's when things started to go off track...since the breastfeeding stopped and this challenge began. I'm wondering if also it's because I can drink alcohol on weekends again now and I can eat what I want without regard for my milk etc?? It seems that this time frame and my plateau have corresponded??
But who knows?? I'm so pissed off with my slack efforts in any case! I so want to be like so many others who quit the challenges when the scales go bad...but I'm taking my inspiration from those of you who do not. Who post your gains and keep on plugging on. Because after all....we never fail until we quit trying!!
I'm certainly trying with my workouts now that's for sure. Before I was getting the eating right but activity wrong and now I seem to have swapped?? Oh well here it is for this week so far in any case:
Thursday: None
Friday: 1hr gym weights program with cardio warmup
Saturday: 1hr beach session as outlined below.
Sunday: I got up early and went for a 1hr walk. Then later in the morning I took Simon to the open day at the gym and we did my weights program again together for an hour, so 2hrs all up for Sunday. Simon's decided not to join the gym by the way but may go as a casual visitor once a week.
So that's 4hrs so far and 3hrs more cardio planned between now and Wednesday nights weigh in. If that can't get a loss on those damned scales then I don't know what else to do. Surely all my hard work has to pay off soon?????
TFTD: "Get back to basics and make excellence the result!!!"
Cheers P
Saturday 16th June 2007...
Well I did get some great pants when I went shopping as I mentioned last entry. It's great to have some more choices again but 2 out of the 4 pairs I bought were too big. I'm bought 20 but should have bought 18. I just so wanted to avoid the dreaded muffin top that I went for a looser fit but when they were worn a bit they became looser still and I had to keep hitching them up. Oh well....I guess I'll just use a belt. They'll get me through for now at least :)
I didn't end up going to the gym on Thursday as I'd hoped but I did go Friday and today. Yesterday I did 12minutes on the cross trainer, my new PB - and I knew I could have done longer if not for my desire to get to the weights room while it was still pretty empty. Then once I was nice and warmed up I did my weights program.
Today I repeated an early session I had with the Enforcer back at the start of my original WHO challenge and when I was at a similar weight to now. I walked along the beach to a massive staircase going up from the beach. It was ancient, concrete, closely spaced and numbering 37 in total. I did five laps up and down that, so 185 steps. Then I did 40 dips on the park bench at the base of the stairs. Then on my return up the beach I did a jogging portion of about 150m and 25 step ups on some massive concrete pipes on the beach. The session only lasted about 40minutes all up but I know I worked hard and it felt good to do something different.
Tomorrow is Open Day at my gym. I get to bring a friend for free so I am taking Simon. We are considering if he will join up. I'd love him to go but sometimes it's hard enough for me to find the time let alone us finding another 3hrs every week for his sessions. Still...the end decision is up to him so we'll see what we can work out. In any case I'm loving my gym and selfishly hope it does not become too busy following the Open Day....it's nice to have almost free rain on everything :)
I'm having a few drinks tonight but I'm trying the 'Pure Blonde' low carb beers that I have calculated to be 1.5pt's per full strength stubbie of 355ml. I used the nutritional panel and my WW electronic calculator to be sure. They taste good but I'm going to try to be restrained *wink*
Caleb is having a sleep over with Granny tonight and Talyn is all tucked up in bed and we have our mate here so I'd best be off. A good Saturday night wish to you all!
TFTD: "You can do it if you believe you can!!!"
Cheers P
Thursday 14th June 2007...
I'm off to the shops today to buy myself a new pair of long pants. I can no longer kid myself that I'll be shrinking back into my smaller sizes in time and I can no longer stand the limited choices I have at this stage. I don't want to get more then one or two pairs and a shirt, just to get me by, as I really want to get back into all the wonderful clothes I have waiting for me.
I also hope to hit the gym this arvo. Traditionally I really hit the gym in the 3 days prior to weigh in but perhaps if I could keep up the momentum all week long this week I just may pull of a decent sized loss for a change!
Sure can't hurt!!
TFTD: "You need courage, faith and perseverance to survive!!"
Cheers P
Wednesday 13th June 2007...
Woah so busy of late and apologies for sparse entries this last week....it's been 'one of those weeks'. Tonight however is a chance to catch up while kids are in bed and Simon is engrossed in footy on TV.
I weighed in tonight. I gained. 0.1kg. I can live with it :)
I have no chance of getting to my birthday goals and right now I don't care, all I want it to be at 99kg...by July 22nd for a family get together if I can manage it...but even not who cares...I just want to be there!
I was looking over my stats and I cannot believe how I have dawdled in the last 10 weeks since I first hit the 106kg's again :(
So as I'm sure you couldn't have missed *wink* you can see my countdown to it above. I'm in the 106's now (barely) and as soon as I can manage it I want to be in the 99's!! Be it 99.9kg or lower... I just want to be double digits once more!!
I've added it to my goals page to make it official.
Didn't get to the gym more than twice this week. I went there Saturday only to find they'd closed early do to a family illness. I can understand these things happen but the amount of timing, planning and organising kids etc that went into that visit only to find it shut...Aargh! Then they close Sunday and Monday was a public holiday so I didn't get there until Tuesday. On that visit I did my weights program plus my new standard of 11minutes on the cross trainer (I'm adding a minute every few visits until I build up to my goal of 30). I also did 15min's on the treadmill and 10 of these minutes was at an incline of 5).
Today I went again and did 34minutes on the treadmill. I alternated 5min's of walking at 5.5km/hr with 5min's of walking the same speed but with level 5 incline. After the second or third incline session I was really working up a sweat! Then I did my 11minutes on the crosstrainer and that racked up 45minutes of cardio all up. I cooled down with some stretching and was out of there.
I've had to find an alternative to the jogging for now as it seemed to aggravate an old site of tendonitis. It's settled down for now but I'm dropping the hints for a new pair of gym shoes for my birthday next week *wink*
I'm really happy with how the gym's going and I'm working each week to improve on my fitness and push myself a bit harder. With the cross trainer it's the minutes, with the treadmill it's the inclines and speeds, and with the weights it's the ....err weights :) Hehehe
Most machines I have increased what weights I am using by 2.5kg to 5kg for most. I'm looking forward to having the program reviewed in a few weeks time.
But anyway....enough for now. I'd really love to be back here this time next week sharing a big loss with you all. God knows you've waited a long time for it!!! *wink*
In the meantime I want to be more talkative this week. Daily entries if I can manage it so I'll sign off for now and talk to you all tomorrow :)
TFTD: "You never fail until you quite trying!!!"
Cheers P
Sunday 10th June 2007...
Ladies and Gentleman....please be upstanding for our latest entry into the Success Stories page...Suze!!!!!
As many of you are aware I have a successful slimmer's page and whenever I can I chose one of my readers to approach and ask if they would like to feature on the page.
Suze is a women who has made a marvelous transformation to her body and her health and so much more and as such I felt she really deserved to be recognised and rejoiced!
Please feel free to visit the page to read Suze's story and see her before and after pic's. It is truly motivating and inspiring!
TFTD: "All accomplishment comes from daring to begin!!!"
Cheers P
Thursday 7th June 2007...
I did it!!!!
I pulled back from the brink of a massive gain (108.5kg on Sunday morning) to manage a 0.1kg loss (105.9kg). Not a big loss by any standards but given the gain I could have been facing I'm thrilled with it all the same.
Not only did I get a loss, I also got back to the 105's again and I am once more looking at less then 30kg left to lose (29.9kg...but still less then 30 *wink*).
Hoorah!!!!
It made all the hard work of the last 4 days worth it :)
Yesterday I hit the gym again in the arvo for some last minute fat burning. I did 10min's on the cross trainer, which by the way is getting much easier since I've been doing it more often. When I first went back to the gym I was stuffed after doing only 3min's on it for some reason? It has always been my worst piece of equipment to use but since I've now done 10min's the last few days I'm going to try to better that for the coming week and keep doing that each week until I've built up to 30min sessions on it. I know it's definitely a good workout as it really get's my heart rate up high and the sweat dripping.
Anyhoo...where was I? Oh yes....10min's on the cross trainer then 10min's on the treadmill, alternating walking and jogging as usual each minute. I then finished up by doing my weights program for the next 30min's or so.
Now if I can just keep my good momentum going I can hope for a much better, and by better I mean bigger, result this week :) Keep you posted!
TFTD: "The only thing that comes easily is failure!!!"
Cheers P
Wednesday 6th June 2007...
D-day has arrived!
Tonight I must go to WW and face those scales. Funny thing is I'm not actually too stressed about it at all. I'm resigned to facing whatever they may say and moving on.
Looking at my scales this morning (naked) and adding in clothing and the days food intake, then taking out whatever this arvo's gym session burns off ... well I think I'll be pretty close to breaking even. I predict somewhere between a 0.5kg loss and a 0.5kg gain. Whatever will be will be!
I certainly did my best to burn off some fat yesterday at the gym. I did another cardio session of 40min's and will do another one again this afternoon. Yesterday I did 10 min's on the cross trainer + 15min's on the treadmill (alternating jogging and walking each minute) + 15min's on the recumbent cycle. By the time I was finished I was absolutely exhausted, dripping sweat and with a heart rate of 140bpm.
I was thinking last night about how my workouts have changed. Before the Enforcer and the original WHO challenge, I now know, I was not working nearly half as hard as I should have been at the gym. The Enforcer showed me how to really push myself and get the most out of my time spent there. Then going back to it after the birth I really noticed the drop in my fitness and my capabilities. But already I am feeling stronger again. Just getting back to it and working until I fear I may actually feint if I pushed any harder is very satisfying. Physically shattering, but satisfying :)
For any one who has ever considered joining a gym but are too scared for whatever reason....DO IT!!! You'll never regret that you did :)
TFTD: "Make the mistakes of yesterday your lessons for today!!!"
Cheers P
Tuesday 5th June 2007...
Well those scales are (not surprisingly) still up this morning so I'm fairly certain of that gain tomorrow night now. Unless my body pulls off a minor miracle between now and 6pm tomorrow I think I'll gain around 1-1.5kg....D'oh!
I am doing my best to reverse it though. Yesterday was a perfect day food wise until the very end when I had a few too many rice cakes while watching Big Brother. I am addicted to the sun-dried tomato and basil (thin) rice cakes....yummy. I only had 1.5pt's over after having them and let's face it - I guess there were worse things I could have munched on :)
Exercise wise, yesterday was a great day. As planned I did my 30min pram walk with Talyn after his morning nap. He fussed most of the way which really kept me walking fast to get home but it also reminded me why I don't often exercise with the pram. For me, exercise is my time out where I can focus on my own goals and dreams and that's hard to do with a screaming baby *wink*
When Simon got home from work I headed off to the gym. I didn't feel like it I can tell you! I didn't get on my bike yesterday arvo as I had hoped as Talyn barely slept all day yesterday and instead screamed and fussed for most of it. It was a very draining day and by the time Simon got home all I wanted to do was sit down and rest for a bit. However Simon, bless him, insisted I stick to my plan and hit the gym...so I did.
I did 10minutes on my nemesis the cross trainer which was double my previous best since I've been back at the gym so that was good (ps have set a goal re this too). I then did 20minutes on the treadmill. For the first 10min's I alternated walking at 6km/hr with jogging at 7.5km/hr, doing two minutes walk then 1 minute jog each time. Then for the last 10 minutes I substituted the jogging minute's with walking on a steep (10) incline. Boy was that hard work!! Even though I had only done 30min's cardio I felt totally exhausted, I was red faced and sweaty so called it a day.
This arvo I will be returning to the gym again when Simon get's home to do another cardio session, mixed with weights. Then tomorrow afternoon I'll do one final cardio session prior to weigh-in.
Fingers crossed for some movement on those scales for all this hard work! :)
TFTD: "Let each day be your masterpiece!!!"
Cheers P
Monday 4th June 2007...
Ho-hum :(
Another Monday dawns and yet again I am faced with my weekend excesses when I stand on the scales...Dammit!!
But you know what - screw it *wink*
I'm done beating myself up over this challenge. So I'm going to have a big fat whopping gain again this week! So I'm gaining overall ... after a quick look at the challenge page I see that 12 out of 27 of us are - not to mention those who have quit and presumably gained also. (More of that topic can be read at the forum)
We are human. Sometimes we make bad decisions. Sometimes we eat what we know we should not. Sometimes we blow off an exercise session when we shouldn't. But I'm through apologising for it! I'm going to live along this journey and I'm going to strive to do so with a healthy attitude. Some weeks I may gain, yes, but it's what I do afterwards that matters.
I had a fantastic weekend. I had an impromptu night out at the pub with our mate Scotty on Friday night and then I had way too many drinks here with him and Simon on Saturday night (hangover central on Sunday - my first one in over a year!). I don't think it was the drinks that damaged the scales so much as the post pub food-a-thon on Friday night....*snicker* But so be it. That was my first weekend like that since before falling pregnant with Talyn so I feel like I deserved a bit of a blowout.
I of course regret the effect it will have on this week's weigh-in. If I were to weigh today I think I'd gain anywhere from 1-2kg but by my actual weigh-in I may be able to bring that down closer to the 1kg mark ... but then again I may not.
In any case I'm going to weigh-in, face the consequences of my actions and move on into a new week!
I have however realised that my birthday blitz challenge is a lost cause! No way can I get under the 100kg mark in another 3wk's now. That's what disappoints me the most as I really, really wanted that. But I have decided to modify my goal.
On my 30th birthday in 2005 (last birthday I was pregnant) I weighed in at 103.4kg. I would like to celebrate this birthday knowing I was lighter then that and had even had a baby in between. So I have modified my birthday goal to 103kg. At this point just getting to that will be a struggle given how the challenge has gone so far for me. Also if I can get there it will mean I'm finally past this hovering around the 106kg mark that has plagued me for about 8wk's! I still want to try really hard for 90's but as it seems so unrealistic I want to set a better goal that I can achieve. If I pass it - bonus!
Ok...well I best keep moving. I want to catch up on the forum myself and also update the boys pages while Talyn is napping. It's Grandparents day at Kindy today so Granny took Caleb so for once poor Talyn doesn't have to be woken up to drive Caleb somewhere or pick him up today. When he wakes soon we are going to go for a 30min walk with the pram, then during his arvo nap I'm going to get on my exercise bike for one or two 10min sprints...then when Simon get's home I'm off to the gym for an hour of cardio. I may not be able to save myself from a gain this week but I'm going to give it my best shot!! :)
A special thanks to all of you who continue to read and follow my journey. I'm sure my recent lack of success must be off putting for some to read about but hey - a girl can only do the best she can and if you'll stick with me a bit longer I really think you are finally going to see me achieve some results in the coming weeks :)
TFTD: "As you sow, so shall you reap!!!"
Cheers P
Thursday 31st May 2007...
I didn't get to my weigh-in last night :(
The whole afternoon was a series of delayed and unplanned diversions and not only did I not get to my meeting I also did not get to the gym.
And to be honest - I really wasn't too sad about missing the meeting. I should be I know. And today I'm angry with myself for not finding a way to make it there but you know what....life happens. Life with two young boys get's chaotic and what's done is done so no use wishing I'd done anything different.
The scales at home this morning showed me at 106kg so I'm just going to leave my weeks result as 0.0kg and be done with it.
Gee at this rate I'm hardly rocketing off towards my birthday goal :( But I have no one to blame for it but myself. I now need to loose an average of 1.5kg a week - yeah like that's going to happen!!!!!
Oh well....I'll just keep putting one foot in front of the other and hope for the best. :) One thing I aint is a quitter!!
TFTD: "Success doesn't come to you, you go to it!!!"
Cheers P
Wednesday 30th May 2007...
Well today's the day I must face those dreaded scales at WW tonight....Gulp!
They are not looking favourable and I can't believe it!! After week's of no exercise while life went to hell around here....this week I finally get back into it in a big way, I eat well, and what do I get for my troubles?? Probably a big fat gain!
But then again never say never I say. Often I expect a gain and manage a loss so who know's? I'm sitting a bit up this morning and once I add the days eating minus this arvo's cardio at the gym....? Well we'll just have to wait and see the result I guess.
In any case I'm not going to let it get me down. I know I've worked hard this week so what doesn't show this week must catch up next week...I hope! I'm also suffering with a cold this week too so that could be a factor I guess??
Yesterday I went to the gym and did my program. I'm starting to feel a lot less sore afterwards so I guess my body is adjusting to being back at it again. I even increased the weight on the leg press and pulldowns yesterday as I felt I could do more then the program suggested. I look forward to having it reviewed in a month and seeing what progress I can make :)
I've noticed on the challenge page that many others are struggling like I am at the moment. 4 weeks into it and we are struggling to add up to 5kg of losses all together!! Any thoughts on the reasons? It is a winter thing? With the cooler weather comes more comfort food and less exercise??
Ok...well I'll let you know tomorrow how the scales go tonight. But don't expect miracles!
TFTD: "Destiny is not a matter of chance, it is a matter of choice!!!"
Cheers P
Tuesday 29th May 2007...
Those scales have finally started to drop today - about time too! I'm still sitting at a gain overall (???) but I really hope that will drop down to a loss by tomorrow night's weigh-in.
Yesterday arvo I hit the gym for some cardio.....Ugh! I really look forward to going to do weights etc but I dread cardio - I guess because it's such hard work?
Anyway yesterday I did 5 minutes on the cross trainer to start with. For some reason I've always found the cross trainer really hard work so I really need to build up my time on this machine again over the coming weeks.
Then I did a 20 minutes session on the treadmill. I warmed up with 5 min's of walking at 6km/hr then alternated 1 minute jogging at 7.5km/hr with 1 minute walking at 5.5km/hr for the remaining 15 minutes. Not only does this interval work really get my heart pumping but it also helps to pass the time much quicker.
I finished up with 15min's on the recumbent cycle then 100 crunches of varying styles/sides etc. I was red faced and sweaty when I left but I felt good!!
I had a perfect days eating yesterday too so I guess that and the workout accounts for the scales getting more into line today. I'm doing a cardio/weights session this arvo at the gym then tomorrow I will do one final cardio session prior to my evening weigh-in.
If all that can't get me a decent loss then so be it - I've done all I could this week so whatever doesn't show this week must catch up next week I would hope :)
TFTD: "If you have enough reasons you can do incredible things!!!"
Cheers P
Monday 28th May 2007...
Not really a great deal to say today. Just popping in as I know that many of you enjoy regular updates and I don't like to let more then a day go by without an update if I can help it :)
I'm feeling really bummed about my scales - tool of torture that they are!!! *wink*
My eating has been mostly good this week, I've done 3 gym sessions as well as a quick 10min session on my bike yesterday yet the scales are showing a gain - a big gain!!!
What the hell is with that?? I know that my body does weird things and perhaps it could (and better) drop down to a loss by this week's weigh in but time is not exactly on my side and I just feel so bummed about it all :(
With getting back to the gym and all I thought for sure I'd be looking at a good loss this week, especially following last week's gain! What if I gain again!!!! What sort of a challenge example is that to others?
And it's not all about others perceptions....I am fed up with being 105-110kg and really want to get under that 100kg mark by my birthday. None of my clothes fit and mirrors are just so depressing.
Ho-hum! Nothing to do about it all now though but eat careful today and hit the gym again this arvo for an hour's cardio and hope for the best......?
Please let the scale god's smile down on me this week :)
TFTD: "Don't be foolish, please be wise, get up, get going and exercise!!!"
Cheers P
Saturday 26th May 2007...
Phew what a busy few days it's been.
Thursday afternoon I finally got to go and do my first full run through of my gym program and I loved it!!! It felt so good to be back at it, sweating it out and making those lazy old muscles burn again *wink*
I have created a new page called my Gym Program so that anyone who is interested in exactly what I am doing at the gym can see it there. It will also save me having to type it out all the time in my journal entries and I can simply update it on it's page as it changes.
Thursday I did the full weights program plus 10minute treadmill warm up and a 5 min cross trainer cool down. I was expecting to be really sore around my chest/arms etc on Friday but I was suprisingly pain free :)
Friday was a public holiday here for show day. We took the boys for the day at the show, ate some show type junk food like waffels and fairy floss, went on rides such as the jumping castles, ferris wheel, ghost train, fun house and super slide, looked at award winning animals and also baby animals in the petting zoo and even a snake display. Simon won some toys on the sideshow alley games for the kids and we walked and walked and walked. By the time we got home we were all exhausted and quite a bit poorer but a great time was had by all so it was worth it.
Today was the usual busy Saturday. We had swimming lessons this morning and I had to run my mother in law to a Dr appt after that. She had a skin cancer cut out of her foot on Thursday and a skin graft taken from her hip to repair it and spent Thursday night and Friday here being looked after while on her crutches.
As soon as I'd finished dropping her home I headed straight for the gym again. I was not looking forward to it so much as I'd planned to do cadio (which I dread) and also I expected it would be so much busier on a Saturday - and I'm happiest working out alone as I'm so self concious. But joy - I had the place to myself for the first half and only two others were there for the last half. I love my new gym!!! hehehe
Today I did 30mins of hard cardio work, 10mins each on the treadmill, cross trainer and recumbant cycle. I did some interval jogging on the treadmill which was good to push the old heartrate up there! Then I thought I may as well do some weights so I did my lower body program. Then I thought...ahh what the hell...keep going! So I did my upper body workout too!
Boy did I feel good when I walked out of there. So that's already 2.5hrs at the gym done this week. I'm going to use my bike at home tomorrow then head back to the gym again on Monday. I'm so happy being back at it!!!!
Birthday Blitz (see below) - 32 and 90's here I come!!!!!!
TFTD: "What you eat in private shows in public!!!"
Cheers P
Wednesday 23rd May 2007...
Aww sweet!
Simon is in the lounge watching his much anticipated State of Origin match on TV and tonight he has let Caleb stay up to watch it with him. I can hear him out there....a 32yr old trying to teach a 4yr old how a game of Rugby League is played. I don't even understand it and I'm 31 (for only 5 more short weeks - but more on that soon).
Talyn is all tucked up in bed so I have some much needed time to myself to catch up on updates here, at Caleb's site and Talyn's site, as well as answer some emails and enter some stats.
So the 10 day 10 step plan I had....hehehe....what a fizzer!! :)
I did abysmally with it but I can live with it. Life's been tough of late so I'm officially cutting myself some slack *wink*
But tonight I launch my new plan...cause every gal's gotta have a plan right??
This is a short burst focus that I can really power hard for to achieve some solid movement on the scales.
This week I gained 1.1kg so I am now back to sitting at an even 106.0kg. My highest weight was 120kg, (121kg pregnant), and it's time I started getting back to knocking on the door of 30kg lost again as I was before the pregnancy.
So here's the plan.
My 32nd birthday is a little over 5 weeks away (5 weigh-in's anyway). Last birthday I was pregnant and the birthday before I had just cracked under the 105kg mark. I intend to reach the 90s once more by this birthday. I think to be 5kg slimmer then I was two years ago, and with having a child in between, is not too shabby *wink*
So there you have it....**The Birthday Blitz**
5 weeks to drop 6.1kg. That requires an average loss of 1.22kg per week. Tough but not impossible.
Especially since I joined my new gym today!! I went and got a program done by a trainer who took me through each of their machines and got me to try everything out. I was also given a fitness assessment that included wearing heart monitors and doing as many km's on the treadmill walking as I could do comfortably in 12min's. I did 1.7km walking at 6km/hr. I could definitely have covered more distance doing some jogging but I think I was meant to walk??
In any case it made me really look forward to the first time I can go back for a solo workout (at this stage it looks like Saturday morning) and do some jogging. Because the building used to be a cinema there are lot's of staircases and separate rooms. When I was on the treadmill today I was the only one in a large room of machines and I got to walk while looking out through the floor to ceiling open glass doors in front of me. It was lovely!
I look forward to having all my measurements and fitness assessments done again in 3 months time when I have my program review to see how I am going. I'll fill you in more about the gym as I get back into it but for now I'm just so glad I made the commitment and got over my initial shyness and apprehension of a new gym and just went and jumped in with both feet! :)
So stick with me in the next 5wk's because I'm hoping the reinjection of dedicated exercise back into my life is going to get me some much needed movement on the scales. Team that with good tracking and WW discipline and I could be looking at those 90's again in just a few short weeks.
Many of you will remember what a big deal cracking the 100kg mark was when I did it for the first time in 10yrs....but this time means a lot to me too! It's a return. A return to the new person I became as the weight melted off me and the person I want to find again! 90s is just one step of many but it's one I really intend to put my foot down on!
TFTD: "The optimist sees the doughnut, the pessimist sees the hole!!!"
Cheers P
Monday 21st May 2007...
Well I think I've found my new gym!
I haven't been to the Contours one but I think I've found one that's even better! I went to the one my friend told me about and it's fantastic! While it is mixed gender (which doesn't worry me at all) it was primarily filled with women. And the fact that it has a women's hair salon inside and a dainty little cafe also makes me think it would be mostly women most times. I did see one guy come out as I arrived but as I know he's gay I'll count him towards the female quota *wink*. At least it's not full of the buff muscle boys my last gym was geared toward so that's great.
The thing that really sold me on it was the opening hours. It is open a half hour earlier then Contours and my old gym, stays open an hour later at night and is open all day Saturday instead of only half a day.
It has a cardio room filled with treadmills, recumbent cycles, crosstrainers etc and a weights room with all brand new pin weighted equipment that looks really swish. Everything my old gym had but this is all new and the layout is great. Because the building was once a cinema the rooms are all divided by carpeted hallways and staircases etc...the rooms are freshly decorated and they have the biggest plasma screen up on the wall that I've ever seen!
They run various classes included in the membership fee and these include powerbar, aerobics, spin classes, yoga, pilates etc etc. And they even have a spa and sauna inside!!!!
The prices are the same as my old gym....actually a smidgen cheaper. One month is $90 but if I sign up for 12months (as I intended to do wherever I went) the price comes down to only $48 a month direct debited so that's great.
And because they open at 6am I think I could do some morning sessions before Simon went to work which is something I've always wished I could do!! He leaves about 6.45am or so but I'm sure he'd gladly hang around until 7am some mornings to enable me to go. I wouldn't go Mon-Wed as being Kindy days those mornings are already too busy to have to fit showers in as well. But I think I could go those afternoons when he gets home then do a morning session Thursday and maybe Friday then a session on Saturday arvo when the boys are napping.
It all seems just perfect!!!
Yep....I've decided right now....I'm going to go back and join up this afternoon! Then I can do my first session tomorrow arvo and I'm away and back into gyming again!!!! Woo-hoo!
This week I am going to gain...BIG time! My home scales are showing a gain of around 2kg at this stage but I'm hardly fussed at all about it. I just feel eager to weigh it in and put it behind me.....get back to the gym...and launch my personal birthday challenge (more about that in tomorrow's entry).
Score for yesterday...7/10.
TFTD: "You never know what lies ahead if you keep on looking back!!!"
Cheers P
Sunday 20th May 2007...
Well I wish I could say my absence of entries the last two days was due to the fact I was outside, exercising heaps and busy tracking, planning and cooking my meals.
But I cannot :) (hehehe Sorry Jacki!!)
Friday night I had my first night out at the pub since pre-Talyn days and it was fantastic!! Simon decided I would be going at the start of the week. He said he wanted to give me a break and that he would be watching the boys while he sent me out with his mom and our mate Scotty for a big night.
It was a very big night. I began the night by drinking red bull and vodka's (about 5 of those) then I moved on to Crown Lager's (about 3-4 I think??) before I stumbled off the taxi rank and home at about 11pm.
As a result Saturday was a bit of a lost day. Simon left me sleeping until 9am (!!!!) then he took the boys to Caleb's swimming lesson while I got up and blitzed some housework. The rest of the day was spent lazing around home, watching TV, playing with the kids etc.
Today I've been busy with grocery shopping, visiting my Dad and going to Bunnings for some new plants for our pond area. Already it's 2pm and I still have a HUGE pile of washing to put away - like about 6 loads - that's taunting me every time I walk past it. Then I've got lunches to make for tomorrow, tea to cook, kids to wrangle, a planned visit to a park and the list goes on. Gotta love weekends!
I've not tracked the last two days either so I'll be working out my daily 10 score from memory but the end result is....Friday 3/10, Saturday 2/10 - Oh my god! I knew it was bad but that's ridiculous!! So my progressive total for 22.5/60. How pathetic is that??? Abysmal :(
Yesterday, while pondering my lack of focus of late I got to thinking about my gym membership. It has been suspended during my pregnancy and I had decided to go back and start it up again tomorrow. I have to do something to get moving again and now that Talyn is on the bottle there is no reason I can't get to the gym some days of an afternoon when Simon get's home from work and also maybe a session on Saturday mornings.
A new gym has opened up in town called 'Contours' but I assumed it was similar to 'Curves' that I did for 12months at the start of this journey. While the 30min circuit session was what I needed in those early days I soon grew bored and unchallenged there and made the big move to a 'real' gym. This Contours is above the indoor play centre I take Caleb too and so they offer free child minding I believe but I don't' want to go back to a boring circuit again. I want to get fit and toned and work really hard and I found I could not achieve those goals while I was at Curves.
Then I had a change of mind. While I was at Bunnings I ran into 'The Enforcer' for the first time since I did my last session with her in early pregnancy. For those of you who may be new readers, 'The Enforcer' was what I called the personal trainer I had during my 12week WHO magazine challenge and for some time after. This women was awesome. I totally respect her knowledge and skills when it comes to training and I made sure I never once said no to anything she asked me to do and in return she never told me to do anything that she knew I could not do. She really knows her stuff and was all about getting the max benefits out of our sessions.
So when she told me that she was working at the new Contours I changed my mind about the place. I mean I cannot see her working somewhere that she didn't believe could really work and she assures me that the machines are the type you can increase the weights on and that the cardio stations truly are tough cardio workouts. I could also really do with a 30minute workout right now rather then the 1hr I used to spend at my regular gym. She invited me to come down for a free trial session tomorrow afternoon and by gosh I think I'm going to do it!
If I sign up for a year or so I can always go back to my other gym after that once my fitness is back up again. This can just be for 6months or so while I get back into the swing of things. Having said that, if I find it really is benefiting me then I'll stick with it. In the meantime I can always go to the odd class session at my old gym to supplement Contours if I feel I need to??
I just need to start back somewhere and between Contours, my bike, step and weights at home and walking/jogging with or without the pram and using the Esplanade exercise equipment....well heck I should be set!
However I'll have to go and see how I find the place tomorrow anyway. I honestly would not have even looked at it until I found out The Enforcer was there. If she says it's a good workout then it must be. Will let you know what happens.
We've FINALLY had some breakthroughs with Talyn and Caleb's health drama's too over the weekend - Hallelujah!!! I see a glimmer of hope for the future again.
Something tells me things are going to be looking up real soon!
TFTD: "Nothing will change unless you do!!!"
Cheers P
Thursday 17th May 2007...
Damn that Mojo!!
It pulled a sicky on me yesterday when it was almost quitting time. Hehehe
I'd done perfect all day....and then on the way home from some afternoon errands Simon asked me to grab him a tally (375ml) of beer. Suddenly I thought how nice a beer would be for me too. Given that I've only had my first drink in 12months last weekend it's still a novelty for me to be able to have a drink on impulse like that. I'd had a crap day too so a drink sounded like just the thing. I grabbed a tally for me too (I got a full strength beer though - not the Gold/Light variety that Simon drinks *wink*)
However after having the two glasses that I had from it ... temptation struck. My friend Mojo decided that afternoon drinks meant early quitting time and with it's departure my resolve crumbled. I caved into take away for dinner. Dammit!!!
I had a chicken roll, 6 nuggets and a half a small chips. Plus a 600ml regular Coke. Damn, damn, damn. The nuggets weren't intended for me but I just nibbled a couple on the way home then picked at Caleb's leftover's - boy how do they add up! A while after tea I bemoaned the lack of chocolate in the house but thankfully did not dash to the shop to get any. Instead I had a fat free chocolate mousse and that was it. But sadly the damage was already done with dinner.
So my abysmal score for yesterday was as follows:
Did: Avoid scales for the day, tracked (which is probably the first time I've ever truly tracked a take away night like that. I'm now sitting 11.5pt's over for the week - Ugh!), ate no chocolate, and did my journal entry.
Didn't: Do cardio or toning exercises, drink 1L of water, avoid full sugar softdrink, eat my fruit and veg requirements or stuck to points allowance.
Score for day 3: 4/10
(Progressive total: 17.5/30)
Crikey the progressive total shows just how slack I am doing with this 10 day mini challenge huh? Still I feel good. I didn't let a slip up flow into a total binge session...I tracked it all faithfully and I feel like it was just a blip on the path...not a total derailment! I'm not going to let this stop me.
Today has been good. I did have a bit of chocolate after lunch so there goes that point for today but I tracked it and it fits into my daily allowance so live and let live I say :)
Oh and as for those sore body bits I was talking about. I think I know what it is. It's Talyn's fault!!! hehehe My arms are sore from carrying him around for hours every day and my back is sore for arching it awkwardly to do so at times. My hips are sore from swinging and swaying with him in my arms and my legs and feet ache from pacing the tile floors with him for hours every day/night. Oh the joys of a reflux baby huh? :) Still I tell myself it's incidental exercise at it's best and if it's robbing me of my time from organised exercise these days at least it's movement. And I get to cuddle my baby at the same time so we all win *wink*
TFTD: "A quitter never wins and a winner never quits!!!"
Cheers P
Wednesday 16th May 2007...
Well yesterday was a slightly better day then the day before as far as my 10 day challenge goes :)
Did: Avoid scales for the day, tracked, finished on 21.5pt's, stuck to diet softdrink only, ate no chocolate, ate 5 serves of vege's and two fruit and did my journal entry.
Didn't: Do cardio or toning exercises, or drink 1L of water
Score for day 2: 7/10
(Progressive total: 13.5/20)
Now all I need to do is fit in some time on the exercise bike and some toning exercises while watching TV tonight and I'll do even better tomorrow.
I'm feeling better overall. Just knowing I'm doing what it takes to undo the temporary damage I did and get me heading back towards those 90's again is helping.
I think too that I'm finding the exercise so hard to fit in because of all the boy's drama's of late and the minimal sleep I'm getting. Was up several times to Talyn last night (probably 2hrs in total) and that leaves me feeling drained come morning. I know exercise helps you get energy but that's still hard to face when you have none to begin with.
Still I'm going to keep working towards my 10 goals.
I'm already hoping for a nice loss next week. Hell at this point I'll be happy with any loss :)
TFTD: "The only place success comes before work is in the dictionary!!!"
Cheers P
Tuesday 15th May 2007...
Well day one down....9 more to go!
I didn't get a perfect score yesterday....far from it when unexpected hospital trips with Caleb threw out my workout plans. But so long as I work hard to improve on my score each day then I'm happy.
Ok so Monday went like this....
Did: Avoid scales for rest of day, tracked, reduced points (finished on 20pt's), stuck to diet softdrink only, ate no chocolate, ate 5 serves of vege's and did my journal entry.
Didn't: Do cardio or toning exercises, drink 1L of water, or eat 2 pieces of fruit
Score for day 1: 6.5/10
Hoping to improve on that today.
One other thing I meant to mention yesterday was how bad my body actually felt from all the bad eating and inactivity. All my flesh hurt when pressed...like my arms, hips, thighs etc. It was like all the toxic crap and fluid retention etc were actually causing my body to be bruised/ache?? How weird is that huh? I still feel a bit that way today so I'll see if it improves as I drag things back into line over the coming week.
See ya tomorrow!
TFTD: "If it is to be - it is up to me!!!"
Cheers P
Monday 14th May 2007...
Can anyone help me?
I've lost my Mojo - my diet Mojo :(
It was my faithful friend during the time I shed almost 30kg. It kept me motivated to work out 2hrs every day. It helped me to make wise and healthy food choices every day. It reminded me to always take the active option. Most importantly it helped me to become the happy, confident, healthy person I'd always dreamt of being.
But then my Mojo left me.
Well truth be told I sent it away on a 9 month vacation while I focused my efforts on creating my beautiful baby boy Talyn. Since his birth I tried to tell Mojo that the holiday was over and it was time to get back to work. Which it did ... for a while. But in recent months it's been absent without leave more often then it's been working for me!
Come to think of it though, maybe it was the crazy work conditions that scared it off?? A boss who had a very complicated recovery from major surgery, an infant who arrived and turned the normal order of things to absolute chaos, a 4yr old who won't poo, a 4 month old who won't eat or any number of medical and specialist appointments to try to sort them both out? Not to mention the mother who is teary and depressed over her premature completion of breastfeeding or simply the mayhem her life has descended into and who is too tired to exercise and too apathetic to care what she eats now that her body is no longer producing milk for another?
Hmmm when you look at it like that who could blame my Mojo for leaving?
So I've come up with a plan!
A 10 day, 10 step plan to get my Mojo back.
It's going to go like this....
Step 1: Try to forget the hideous numbers I saw on the scales this morning and not step on another set of scales for 10 whole days. I've never done this before and to be honest I don't know if I can do it? I've enlisted Simon to hide them from me but I've found them before so who know's if I'll resist? But how exciting would it be to go to next week;s WW weigh-in with no idea what will show!!!!!
Step 2: Track, track track. Record EVERYTHING that passes my lips.
Step 3: Reduce my points from lactation plan (30) to normal plan again (?21-23..must check this)
Step 4: Do minimum of 30min's cardio each day. 45-60min's even better!
Step 5: Do some toning/strength training every day.
Step 6: Drink no softdrink other then the diet variety and even then limit that to 2 cans max per day.
Step 7: Drink a minimum of 1L water per day. 1.5-2L even better!
Step 8: Eat no chocolate bars/blocks etc. Instead sooth sweet tooth with fat free choc puddings and hot choc drinks etc when needed.
Step 9: Eat two serves of fruit and five serves of vegetables every day.
Step 10: Do a journal report here every day to be accountable for my progress.
So here goes. The hunt for my Mojo started today. I miss my old friend and look forward to being reunited with them once more! *wink*
Keep you posted tomorrow!!
TFTD: "Only I have the power to make the difference!!!"
Cheers P
Wednesday 9th May 2007...
Well I'll be!!!!
You all know I'm a compulsive home weigher so a weigh-in result at WW is never really a surprise to me....until this week! I weighed in at home Monday night and saw that I was way up and so expected a sizable gain come Tuesday morning.
I was just hoping it would be less than 1kg. However, unlike usual I did not hop on and off the scales a dozen times that morning...I just went along accepting of a gain and ready to put it behind me.
So you can imagine my surprise when I lost!!! And to see 104's on the scales again was awesome as it feels just that much closer to the 90's that I am inching back to again little by little!
So I did manage to register a loss for week 1 of the challenge after all - no matter how small - and I'm stoked with that!!! :)
TFTD: "Change your thoughts and you can change your world!!!"
Cheers P
Monday 7th May 2007...
I have decided I'll have to go with a 0.0kg for myself for week 1 of the challenge. As I was sick last week I didn't weigh in to get my start weight. Therefor this week will have to be my start weight but in order to keep up with everyone else on the challenge schedule I'll have to register a 0.0kg for this week and begin week 2 immediately instead. Not that it matters I guess.
I am expecting a gain this week after two weeks away. I did initially loose big when I was sick and not eating for a few days but as usual, when you go back to eating it all comes back and then some.
Add to that the fact that my poor breasts are terribly engorged and I'm bound to be carrying a good kilo extra in each one *wink*
TFTD: "In the waste is better than on the waist!!!"
Cheers P
Sunday 6th May 2007...
Sorry for the lack of action around here of late. I'm only just now beginning to feel human once more and now I'm busting my ass trying to catch up on updates, forums, challenge stats and emails etc. Almost there though so thankfully all should be back to normal by tomorrow :) Thanks so much for your patience and for those of you who asked of me or sent their best wishes - thank you!
The antibiotics have worked wonders on the tonsillitis and now I pretty much only have lingering cold likes symptoms and a constant headache. After how things were earlier in the week I can live with that.
Big changes with Talyn....but you can read that here.
I've closed off the New Year Challenge and anyone who had outstanding stats just got a 0.0kg for the last week. If you want to change that just drop me an email with what your result was but to be honest I got sick of waiting and simply had to finish things off there before the new challenge begins tomorrow!!!
Unfortunately when I was so unwell I missed my weigh-in this week so I've used my last week's result as my start weight. The scales did drop down to the 103's (!!!!) while I was not eating from the illness etc but sadly now they have gone back up to 106's!!! Yikes I hope that's just a fluid/breast thing and not a gain in my first week!! Still a few days to go yet though so we'll see how they settle down now that I'm am getting back to normal.
Ok well I still have the forum to catch up on yet so I'd best keep it short for today. Just wanted to let you all know I'm alive, I'm all caught up on emails etc and ready to begin the new challenge tomorrow with you all. I'd love to smash the 1000kg mark for our challenges this time so let's all give it everything we've got!!!! Good luck!
TFTD: "Even if you are on the right track you will get run over if you just sit there!!!"
Cheers P
Wednesday 2nd May 2007...
Sorry I've not been around of late ... but it's been a NIGHTMARE week here!
First pop into Talyn's page here to catch up on what happened with him to save me repeating it all again.
Caleb's poo drama's continue...he is holding so long his tummy is as distended as a little Ethiopian child and I'm scared he's going to rupture a bowel or give himself hemorrhoids or something?? He screams like he is giving birth when he absolutely cannot hold it any more. I rang re the Occupational Therapist appointment yesterday and apparently it will still be another week or two away. Great!
Then to add insult to injury I got sick. Really sick! I had fever's of 40+ yet I was under a blanket shivering uncontrollably. My joints ached and my limbs were week. I'd be sweating one moment then shivering the next. Simon even had to stay home yesterday as I could only leave my bed to feed. Then today I woke to find my tonsils very swollen and infected....so much so I actually had a paracetamol tablet get stuck behind them overnight for almost 30min's before I managed to get it down. Went to the Dr today - Tonsillitis!!! I tell you what when it rains it pours around here!
So basically I just wanted to pop in and say I have been receiving your emails, the challenge will go ahead and I will catch up on stats and registrations over the coming days as I am able. Hang in there....I'll be back :)
Cheers P
Thursday 27th April 2007...
God give me strength as I think I am slowly going insane!!!
Rather then repeat what I have already written this morning....pop over and catch up on the latest entries at Caleb's site and Talyn's site to bring you up to speed on the latest of both their drama's. Then read on below......
What's a girl to do?? I am so sleep deprived that I struggle to have the patience to deal with Caleb's poo drama's or even consider much in the way of exercise!
Add to that the fact that my healthy eating has now taken a serious challenge to the norm as I can no longer rely on cereal for breaky and yoghurt for morning and afternoon tea due to Talyn's dairy issues. Both of which were convenient, low points choices and satisfying. So now I've got to find alternatives for things I would normally eat automatically and I feel guilt every day that I do not manage to fit some exercise in!
This morning I had a banana on a piece of toast with a drizzle of honey for breakfast. It was low point and filling I guess but I really wanted my cereal instead :( As a bonus though I guess now I know that I cannot have any chocolate so that little addiction will clear itself up *wink*
I'm so tired I can't even find the energy to tell you just how tired I am. I've let my one day a week off (after weigh-in) run into two days this week and now I need to be extra vigilant for the rest of the week to have any hope of a loss next week. I have a 3yr old's party to go to tonight and a Kindy disco tomorrow night, both of which run into tea time so that present's a challenge also. So this morning I went out and stocked up on some Weight Watchers and Lean Cuisine frozen dinners to have on hand for both nights while the boys can have something easy like sausages etc.
Ho-hum. Life is never boring here these days that's for sure *wink*
TFTD: "Obstacles are what you see when you take your eye's off the goal!!!"
Cheers P
Tuesday 24th April 2007...
Well another loss...hoorah!
Only a small 0.2kg but I'm happy....slow and steady wins the race :)
I let my exercise slip a bit this week, only doing 2hrs overall so I hope to increase that again next week to get those numbers moving in a bigger way. Next stop the 104kg's which is only a hop skip and a jump away from the 90s again!!! **Squeel**
Only 0.9kg to go to get back to my 15kg lost - I'd love to hit that next week!!
Best of luck to all those signing up for the new Autumn 07 challenge starting soon!
And thanks for all those of you who are helping to revive the forum :)
Love today's thought....
TFTD: "Success is getting up one more time than you fall!!!"
Cheers P
ps...Exercise page is up and running here.
Friday 20th April 2007...
Well I already have 10 contenders for the new challenge and the page has only been open a few days....hoorah! I hope we can get a big enough crowd to ensure we can smash the 1000kg mark this time around! How cool would it be to be a part of that huh?
I've been going great food wise of late. I've had some very low point days yet ate heaps and felt very satisfied?? I've been having lunches of tomato and basil rice cakes with extra light Philadelphia cream cheese, tomato and teriyaki tuna - yum! So filling and full of flavour yet low on points :)
Hoping to get into the 104kg's this week. Now that I am nearly in the 90s again I'm feeling excited and more able to see positives when I look in the mirror instead of just negatives - which is always nice *wink*
Just a note re the forum...I had considered closing it down as I wondered if it was of any benefit to anyone? Some have asked that I don't though, and it's no hassle to me to keep it going, so continue it shall. Just a note to those who do like to keep up with it....you can go to 'edit membership' and sign up for an 'email digest' of the forum. This means that each day you get one email with all the posts of the last 24hrs in it to read. You can then reply to them if you chose too ('via web post' will add it to the main forum) or just read along in silence. This way not only do you not miss anything and not have to check in all the time but also if there are no new messages then you get no annoying emails to worry about either? Just a thought anyway.
Things going along ok here with boys. Talyn's feeding has improved greatly and .... touch wood... I think we MAY have turned a corner with Caleb's bowel drama's - though that remains to be seen just yet so I dare not jinx it.
Have a great weekend everyone!!!
TFTD: "If you fail to plan you can plan to fail!!"
Cheers P
Wednesday 18th April 2007...
New challenge time!!!!
See new challenge page here.
To join in just send me an email with 'Autumn 07 CHALLENGE' in the subject line and what screen name you wish to use as well as your goal weight that you wish to reach by the challenge end. Challenge begins April 31st so you need to give me your start weight in the week April 31st - May 6th. Then whatever day you normally weigh from May 7th - May 13th is your week 1 result.
I love the excitement and motivation of a new challenge!!!
Good luck to all those you come along for the ride :)
TFTD: "TEAM = Together Everyone Accomplishes More!!"
Cheers P
Tuesday 17th April 2007...
Thank the stars!!! Something is going right in my life right now :)
A decent loss at last. 1.3kg gone this week....bringing my final total for the NY Challenge to 6.1kg - I'm happy with that!! I know I did not reach my goal of the 90s by the challenge end but overall I have averaged 0.5kg loss a week which is just what's recommended for long term weight loss - Hoorah!
I also hit the 105s which was a personal goal of mine for this week. I've come under the 35 BMI well and truly now and I notice that I have now come under the 30kg left to lose in total. When I began this journey I had 40+kg to lose....I got down to under 20kg to go before my pregnancy but then came back in at over 30kg to lose after giving birth to Talyn. Now I'm back in the under 30kg's again to lose and that seems a whole lot nicer :)
Quick update on home drama's I've spoken of in the last two entries....
Talyn's troubles with feeding continue off and on. We noticed yesterday that he kicked up hell every second feed which meant only on the left side?? But today has gone with no protests at all so far? We've had good starts to days like this before too so I won't get my hopes up that it's all passed but for now I'm just thankful for the short reprieve.
Caleb....well we went to the Dr again yesterday and as suspected he had no real solution. He said continue the lactulose (but at night not in the morning as we had been doing), continue the pear/prune juice and lot's of fluids etc. He reassured us that using the microlax daily for even up to two more weeks would do no harm and basically he said give a reward chart a go and otherwise just persevere. I'd already started the reward chart but last night he got his first sticker on it - hoorah a break through. He began jumping around holding his bum saying he had to go again (we almost passed out on the spot as he'd already gone yesterday morning and neither of us were ready for another battle over it after the day we'd had). However it was no battle as he'd already done some in his pants!!! So he then rushed to the toilet with no choice but to go - and he went *SIGH* Once again he said it did not hurt and that he would do it himself again with no drama next time now. However he said that after going on Sunday too yet Monday was the worse day ever for it so I won't believe it until I see it. He was thrilled with his sticker on the reward chart though (for doing poo's himself) and knows that the next sticker will bring his first reward....so finger's crossed!!
I'm feeling a bit better today. Still a little fragile but I feel much more able to cope with Talyn and anything else when Caleb isn't crying about poo's for 3-4hrs a day. God help me if Kindy rings up this morning asking me to come and get him due to poo drama's. I think they'll have to get me a straight jacket while they are at it!!!
On a final note....while I have now finished the 12wk New Year challenge I know there are still a week or two left for some of you. Anyone owing stats, please get them to me ASAP so I can finalise this challenge before beginning the new one. For those looking forward to the next challenge. I think we will begin it May 1st...but I'll keep you posted on that as the time approaches.
TFTD: "The greatest thing in the world is not so much where we are - but in what direction we are moving!!"
Cheers P
Monday 16th April 2007...
Well it would seem the joy of yesterday's entry was a little pre-emptive.
Caleb's bowel drama's continue!! Last night he started again with his non stop wining of "I need to do poo-poo....I'm scared to do poo-poo....I don't need to do poo-poo....I need to do poo-poo". Ugh!!!! It even got so that he didn't want to wee for fear he'd do poo's too!
It started up again first thing this morning and it got so bad Simon had to come home to help me out as I was ready to really lose it. Nothing helps!!! Not comfort and support, not threats of nappies or losing priveleges, not bribery with toys etc, not reward charts, not rational talking it out....NOTHING!!! It got so bad for him that in the end we had to give him another Microlax enema/suppository to help him empty his painfully full bowels as he's just too scared to do it until the medication absolutely forces him to do so. As with yesterday he said it didn't hurt but still I know he wont' do it tomorrow either.
There was blood and even some clots this morning when we wiped so we are off to the Dr again this arvo to demand another alternative. The stool softener medication and all the pear juice etc we are giving him is useless if he actually refuses to go despite how soft it may be?? What on earth are you meant to do with this situation?
We try to be calm and comforting to him but after 2-3hrs of it you really start to lose your mind. Add to the mix Talyn screaming at me at feed times and refusing feeds still etc and I was a sobbing wreck. :(
Simon came home, sorted out Caleb and took him to Kindy (where he promptly told the teacher "Daddy had to put something up my bottom"!!!!! *gulp* - god love him but all we need is child services investigating that claim!!! hehehe) then he came home and ordered me out to the beach for a 1hr walk to settle down and relax while he looked after Talyn. Thank god for Simon!
I don't think it's just me that's not coping as Simon said he was close to losing his cool with Caleb after 20min's of being home with it going on and he said god knows how I've managed the last week with it all???
*Big sigh*
So I did my walk.....and it helped.....but then I got home and Talyn really kicked up hell at the next feed...and I know Caleb's toilet drama's will continue and I rather suspect we'll get no solution from the Dr today so I can feel all the tension just there waiting to engulf me again. I mean what can the Dr do? Short of giving the boy suppositories every day to get it out...how do we convince him to do it naturally again I do not know?
I just hope I can get through this with my sanity intact. I am so close to making the decision to wean Talyn from the breast as I'm sure lying him down to feed makes it worse and at least with a bottle I have more positional options and less personal guilt/frustration at each feed that I'm not giving him what he needs....plus I just feel so on the verge of breakdown right now that I know my milk supply will soon be effected and then where will we be???? I'm just trying to hold out until Caleb's drama is ended before making any rash decisions on the breastfeeding issue as maybe then it won't seem so overwhelming? At least that's what I'm telling myself to survive for now.
Aaargh!!!!!!
TFTD: "Survive one day at a time!!"
Cheers P
Sunday 15th April 2007...
Well we've had some improvement here since last entry. This morning....thank the lords - Caleb did a poo!!! For those who read his site you'll know we've struggled with his bowels all week. First it got sore...then he started holding it for fear of pain on passing number 2's....then he got constipated.....then he held it even more and so it went on until it was a nightmare. We've not left the house for 4 days so he could stay near a toilet and all day was a chorus of whinging "I need to do poo"....but then saying "I'm scared to do poo" and refusing to try. This morning after several more hours of screaming/crying/whinging I finally coaxed him to go (honestly I've spent hours in the loo with him over recent days!!!). He realised it didn't hurt this time and just like that I think it's all over! I won't relax totally until he does he first one drama free but I'm hoping it's all good now as he is back to Kindy tomorrow and god knows the last thing I need right now is them sending him home because of it :)
As for Talyn. Well things got much worse before they got better. On Friday evening I ended up going out and buying formula...resigned somewhat to the fact I'd have to wean him as he simply refused the breast no matter what I tried. I was distraught at the very thought of being forced to give it up under those circumstances but I knew he had to be fed one way or the other. Then something happened and it just got better? He fed twice that night and then fine yesterday too. The odd little fuss but nothing too severe. Today has been hit and miss. He's refused two feeds so far but has taken them well when I've tried again an hour later? I have cut out dairy and chocolate since Friday lunchtime so I'm not sure if that's helped but I hope that what ever it is does not come back entirely? I guess I just have to also try to let him tell me when he is really hungry rather then feed him every 3hrs or so also. If he's hungry he'll let me know and if not I need to just chill for a while and see how we go?? It so stressful to have your little one screaming and contorting in your arms and not know how to fix it? Especially when booby used to be the great fixer of all things! *wink*
On a brighter note...I tried out my new exercise equipment last night and it was awesome!!
Last night my workout was:
-15min's cycle (8.04km in total)
-100 step ups
-100 crunches (sides and straight)
-10 dips
-25 push-ups
-Arm work with weights while on bike
Total: 30min's.
I was dripping with sweat afterwards so I know
it had to be doing something good :) My plan is
to work on bettering the distance I can cover during a 15min ride (and in doing so increase the intensity) then start to increase the overall time on the bike also. Given that I do end up so sweaty I know I'll tend to leave workouts to a time when I can shower afterward and not have to feed right away so I guess that will tend to be in the evenings or perhaps very early morning while Simon is still here so I can shower in peace?? I'll have to see how I go along?
Two new food/drinks I'm loving now....Schweppe's Sugar Free lemonade is so nice and refreshing and a great alternative to diet coke that has caffeine and god knows what else in it. Don't get me wrong...I love my diet coke but I'm wary of drinking too much of it while breastfeeding - even the decaf variety. And Sunrice thin rice cakes with sundried tomato and basil flavouring...Yummy!! 2 for 0.5pts so bonus!!
Tonight I have the Easy Glazed chicken cooking in the crockpot to have with rice and vege's. I've used skinless chicken thigh cutlets for lower points and it smells so divine wafting through the house! The recipe for it is here towards bottom of page.
I finally uploaded my pic's to my computer last night so I'll be able to transfer some to my online albums soon.
TFTD: "Make it happen!!"
Cheers P
Friday 13th April 2007...
This week has really gotten hard for me. With Caleb's problems (see here) and Talyn becoming a feeding nightmare (see here) I've become a bit of a weepy mess :(
Hence I've fallen behind a bit on the site work and challenge stats but I'm endeavoring to catch up today. It's nothing major I know but it's all adding up to leave me stressed, strained and teary - which only makes things worse.
On a brighter note...yesterday was our 10th wedding anniversary (15yrs as a couple). We always follow the traditional gifts and this year was tin/aluminum or some say diamond. However as finances were stretched right now we decided not to buy gifts this year.
I did however duck out in the arvo to get myself something. I have wanted an aerobics step ever since I used to work out with the Enforcer and I noticed them at Aldi supermarket this week for the bargain cost of $25. So I got one and it's awesome!!! I want to use it for step-ups, dips, lunges and push-ups. However when I got home something was going on.
Caleb told me I had to stay out of the bedroom were Simon was and I guessed that he must have been running a spa for me to try to de-stress me a bit. When I was finally let into the room I was wondering how I was going to juggle a spa, getting tea cooked and Talyn fed all at once. But it wasn't a spa.....
It was an AWESOME exercise bike!!!! (aluminum). Simon talked some owners into a paint upgrade and used the extra cash to buy it for me as a surprise. Of course he got a ribbing about doing so when I had nothing for him but he said I had given him 15yrs of my life and two beautiful boys and he needed nothing else...aww shucks!!!
It rocks!! It's got a pulse sensor and also measures time, distance and speed and because it has no wheel it's silent. Simon knows I'm finding it hard to get time to get out to exercise out of the home so he thought this would be ideal. Boy was he ever right!!!!! What a man!! (will post pic of bike later today)
TFTD: "Believe and succeed!!"
Cheers P
Tuesday 10th April 2007...
A loss of 0.6kg....Hoorah!
No where near what I thought I could expect or that I felt I deserved for my efforts but a loss all the same so I'm still happy.
I was pleased to see I got back under the 35 BMI today so that was great too!!
This week's exercise was as follows:
Wed: Nil
Thurs: 30min walk with boys/pram
Fri: 1hr walk
Sat: 1hr walk
Sun: Nil
Mon: 1hr walk (with 3 x 100m jogs) + 30min walk
Tues: 30min walk (with 2 x 100m jogs)
Total: 4.5hrs
As far as exercise goes my goal each week is to at least equal or even better my total time from the week before. I figure that way I'll slowly be able to build back up to the 8-10hrs a week I was doing pre-pregnancy.
Anyhoo....enough for now. A new week begins anew tomorrow and I'd love to finally get back to the 105kg's next week so .... it's more tracking and exercise again for me!!
TFTD: "You never fail until you stop trying!!"
Cheers P
Monday 9th April 2007...
It's a quite Easter Monday here today. Talyn is having a nap and Caleb and Simon are out watching Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles movie at the cinema. I bet they are having a blast as Caleb absolutely loves TMNT. I'm a bit sad that I'm not there as I've always taken him to the movies alone or with Simon but I guess it's a good boys time while I am at home with Talyn. Also two of Caleb's friends and their Dad and Uncle are going so it's a real boys day out all round :)
I hope the Easter bunny was kind to you all? Caleb was thrilled with his Easter but I'll leave the details of that for the update at his site later today (finally going to get around to doing his birthday update at last and Easter together *wink*)
I didn't manage to totally avoid chocolate myself as I'd hoped. Simon/Easter Bunny took on my hints very well and all I got was my absolute fave chocolate....red Lindor Lindt....yummy!!! So of course I had to have some (as you do!). However I tracked and counted all my points for it so I feel ok about my decision. I don't think I've ever honestly tracked Easter Eggs before in all my years of WW so that was a first. I also got this divine chocolate creation from my dad which is a big half shell of choc filled with chopped up mars bar then coated in melted chocolate! Oh my god does it look like heaven in a half shell!! However I am making myself wait until after Tuesday mornings weigh-in to taste that one.
Speaking of weigh-in....I'm still super pissed with my scales!! Still no movement at all for the week despite my best efforts. I've tracked religiously, I'm 4.5pt's under overall for the week so far, I've done 3.5hrs of exercise....and still nothing!!!!! Grrrr! But I refuse to give up. I'll keep at it knowing that sooner or later something has to shift.
I'm just a bit worried that I could be one of those 40% or so of people who gain weight on the Implanon contraceptive implant?? I really hope that's not the case as it has been great for me with no other probs....but??? I'll just keep working at it for another month or so and if I continue to get no success I may consider changing it for another form of contraception. Of course the very idea still gives me the giggles after not having to use any form for 10yrs....who'd of thought little infertile old me would have to take such precautions!! *wink*
I was looking at the challenge page today and I noticed that over all my challenges we are now up to about 890kg lost overall!!!!! I really hope to make the 900kg mark by this challenge's end and then I hope to hit the magical 1000kg lost next challenge! It totally blows my mind to think that I have had even the smallest part to play in ridding 900kg of fat from the world :) *beams*
I'd still love some more 5minute exercise suggestions from you all over at the forum. Even if you can't think of any why not pop in to say hi anyway?
Ok....well I'd best make a start of Caleb's update or I'll never get it finished. I'll let you all know next update when it is complete for those who wish to read. I'll also update photo's later today too so stay tuned here for more details on that too.
TFTD: "Some succeed because they are destined to. Most succeed because they are determined to!!"
Cheers P
Saturday, 7th April 2007...
Well that kick from last entry has worked wonders!
Since then I've been on fire *wink*. I've planned and tracked my food intake and exercised daily. Thursday I finished 2 points under, yesterday I finished 7 points under - while still having 3 good meals and 2-3 snacks a day also.
I've walked 2.5hrs in the last 3 days and have a hour a day planned for the next 3 days also. Thursday was the pier walk, yesterday I hit the roads with Talyn in the pram for an hours walk while Simon and Caleb went fishing. Today there was an Easter festival on our Esplanade but the two sections of it were a 30min walk apart so we walked from one to the other then back to the car again. I plan on solo morning walks for the next 2 days when Simon is home with both boys (and Tues morning Caleb will be at Granny's so I'll just have the pram on that day).
Today I went grocery shopping on an empty stomach. NEVER a good move. It's funny how it effected me because from the minute I entered the store I was thinking what could I eat on the way around. I considered chocolate, little mini hotdog's from the deli, juice, chocolate milk (notice they are all bad choices we crave when hungry like that?). I just kept telling myself I'd be better off waiting for lunch and that's what I did. I even treated myself to KFC for lunch as a reward - but all I got was a large potato and gravy and a can of pepsi-max. I even had the potato with a slice of bread when I got home because I didn't want to waste any extra points on a KFC dinner roll...yummy!
I've been fighting and beating the chocolate demons the last 3 days also. I've had a Boost chocolate bar in the fridge since Tuesday that was calling my name. I'd see it a couple times a day and consider it but knowing it was 4.5 points (half a twin pack) I knew it wasn't worth it. Today it got the better of me so I hid it behind some jars so I couldn't see it any more....hehehe Instead while at the registers today I got a better chocolate substitute for it. I weighed up a large freddo frog and a milky way which were the best two options there. I checked out the nutritional panel of both and settled on the milky way (2pt's). I ate it very slowly on the way home instead of devouring it as I usually would after going 3 days without chocolate. I ate it in small bites and actually focused on savoring the taste, consistency and flavour of every bit....so I really experienced eating it rather then just swallowing it down. And you know what? It was great! I felt satisfied afterward and proud of my decision.
Another treat I got while shopping (like I said...I was starving *wink*) was some fresh prawns. I had 200g of them once they were peeled and that is only 2pt's!!! So I've nibbled on them over the arvo and tonight I'll be having some on top of my BBQ steak. It really fills me up to nibble on protein like that but also they taste so darn good that it's almost unbelievable how low in points fresh prawns are with no dressing. Heaven!!!!
So there you have it. Like I said...I'm on fire. The scales at this stage don't show much difference. They always go up a bit after weigh-in as that is my treat day. However it usually takes me most of the week to get them to go down again. At this point though they are already showing a teeny loss and I still have several days to go. So all things considered I'm really hoping for a great loss this week. I'd love a decent kilo or more...in fact 1.3kg would put me into the 105kg's and that would be Awesome!!
Of course there is still Easter to content with tomorrow......Eeek! We are making the Easter Bunny nest with Caleb this afternoon. As he can't have dairy we have some soy chocolate eggs, candy and jelly types for him as well as a book, some paintable plaster eggs and little plastic eggs with fluffy chick toys inside them. Talyn will have a big soft bunny toy for his first Easter. As for my Easter eggs....I'm hoping to either have none or just one chocolate tomorrow and Monday night and not touch the rest until after weigh-in at least. However having said that.....????? *wink-wink*
Happy Easter Everyone!
TFTD: "I cannot change yesterday, I can make the most of today and look with hope toward tomorrow. It takes both rain and sunshine to make a rainbow"
Cheers P
Thursday, 5th April 2007...
**KICK**
Did everyone hear that?
That was me giving myself a great big kick up the backside!!!
I'm feeling a bit annoyed with myself today (as if you can't tell). I was just updating some stats on the challenge page and took the time to look at my stats. I was thinking that I was in the top percentage of weight loss for the group so I must be doing ok. But then I looked at it more closely. I have lost 4.2kg in 10wk's...ok that doesn't sound TOO bad right? But...I lost 2.2kg in the first week. So that means I have spent the last 8 wk's (2months!!!) just losing a further 2kg! It feels like such a waste of time!
I can't help but look back on the original WHO challenge when I lost 13.7kg in 12wk's and wonder why I can't do that again. I mean, granted I was working out with a personal trainer 5 days a week (god bless the mighty Enforcer!)...and I guess I hadn't just had a baby nor was I breastfeeding?? But oh how I crave to see those sort of results again.
Hell right now I'd settle for even a steady 0.5kg a week that's recommended instead of my recent pattern of teeny loss, gain, teeny loss, gain etc. I've just got to get tougher with myself. When I am tempted by poor food choices I've just got to stop and ask myself...."Will that taste as good as a good loss on the scales this week will feel?" "Will the guilt that will come after it be worth it?" I know that one bad food choice puts me on a collision course of failure for the rest of the day so I just need to be more focused.
I feel like I am slowly but surely getting back into the swing of exercise. Even when I don't workout as such I still move more. Like this morning I took the boys for a 30min walk on a local pier. Exercising with Caleb dawdling and looking at everything etc is near impossible but I figure it's still got to be better to walk for 30min's with him then not at all. Then this afternoon I may be able to get out for a good brisk walk alone after Simon get's home?
I've tracked and planned today which has made me feel more in control too. I've had Sultana bran and skim milk for breaky....A Lean Cuisine risotto, fruit and yoghurt for lunch and for tea I have a BBQ and salad planned with delish oven baked sweet potato (?kumera for some of you?) chips.
Having said all that....Easter is coming!!!! Eeek! God help us all when the chocolate silly season hits us *wink*
TFTD: "Some people dream of worthy accomplishments while others stay awake and do them!!"
Cheers P
Wednesday, 4th April 2007...
Just thought I would bring to your attention a little project I have going on at our forum.
I am gathering everyone's ideas on 5 minute workouts. Let's face it...who could honestly say they couldn't find at least 5 minutes a day for a brief workout? I defy anyone to say they could not!
I'm asking everyone for their input and when we have enough I'll create a new page on this site for them all and anyone in need of some idea's can click on and find something to do in just a few minutes :)
We've already had some really good suggestions and Kylie, a personal trainer, has given us some great one's too. So pop in, check them out for yourself and add whatever you can think of!
Chat to your more on the forum....
TFTD: "The race is not always to the swift but to those who keep on running!!"
Cheers P
ps...new guestbook links coming later today. For now please use my email link above or the guestbook link on last months journal page :)
Tuesday, 3rd April 2007...
Well I be dammed!
My body pulled it off! I have no idea how mind you but I lost at weigh-in today! Only 0.2kg but given that my scales were up 1kg just yesterday I am not looking this gift horse in the mouth!
I'm just so pleased that the water retention or whatever it was settled in time for a successful weigh-in. And it didn't take starving or excessive exercise to do it as I even enjoyed the most delish Lindor Lindt (my absolute fave chocolate) Easter egg last night *blush*
Last week's exercise went like this:
Thursday: 1hr 15min walk + 20 rows + 5 incline sit ups + 10 dips + 20 butterfly chest presses.
Friday: Rest
Saturday: 1hr walk including 2 x 100m jogs, + 20 rows + 20 steps + 20 pull downs + 20 butterfly chest presses.
Sunday: 1hr walk
Monday: 30 min walk.
I was most pleased with yesterdays walk even though it was only 30min's. Yesterday was a crazy busy day as it was Caleb's Easter hat parade at Kindy and I also had to get my car to the dealership for a new stereo late in the afternoon. This left no time to exercise. I had thought of doing it at 5am after a feed but I was surprised to find it still dark at that hour and I didn't feel safe going out in the dark alone. So I dropped my car off, was told it would be 45min wait...so I walked 15min's each way to the shops and got some Easter shopping done. It felt great to use that time productively and make it active. It was a perfect example of how we can fit exercise into our day if we really make it a priority.
I also just noticed that I hit another goal this week. I have now lost 10% of my starting body weight (again). I didn't make my goal of the 106s this week though so I've reset that for next week. I'm hoping all this extra exercise catches up and I have a great week next week.
I'm also going to try to avoid the scales until then. Unlikely but worth a shot *wink*
TFTD: "Attitude is the little thing that makes a big difference!!!"
Cheers P
ps...guestbook link is on last journal page (here) for now until I find out how to move it to a new page without creating a new guestbook each time?? In the meantime you can also use my email link at the top of this page to contact me instead :)
Monday, 2nd April 2007...
New page for the next 3 months....hoorah! It's almost like a new year beginning.
However I can't say I'm feeling to fresh and new myself - in fact I'd say I'm feeling rather pissed!! And I don't mean in the alcohol way either!
I'm so annoyed with my body and my scales right now. I have tried really hard this week. I've been tracking, making great food choices, drinking plenty of water and cutting back on diet coke. I've also done 3.5hrs exercise in the last 4 days.
So I could be forgiven for thinking this would be a great week on the scales. I hop on this morning at home for a peak and what do I see? A gain!! Not just any gain but like a kilo!
Aargh! I am so incredibly annoyed!
I've wracked my brains to come up with an explanation of why but I have no idea?? The only thing I can guess is fluid retention? Although I've not had a lot of salt or anything recently to cause this but I can think of no other good reason for it.
I've ate well, I've finally got back to exercising for an hour most days and I get a gain!!
Grrrrr!
All I can say is that whatever is causing it had better be darn well gone by weigh-in this week (Tues morning or Wed evening) or I'll be one unhappy girl.
I know I have to weigh regardless since I missed it this week. And I guess by at least looking at the scales today I've had time to adjust to the idea of a gain. Not that I like it but I guess they are a bit easier to take on some level when you know you don't deserve it?? I guess that sounds weird but what I mean is an undeserved gain makes you mad but it doesn't make you feel guilty as well so I guess that's something.
Here's hoping I see a BIG change by tomorrow or I know some scales that will be getting a darn good kicking!!! *wink*
TFTD: "Persistence prevails when all else fails!!!"
Cheers P
ps...New update on Talyn's page is done here
