My Journal... (Apr 2009 - Jun 2009)
Email: slimming4health@dodo.com.au
Curent Weight Loss Progress
Weight Watcher's Starting Weight : 119.2kg
Lowest Weight Achieved: 89.5kg (Lost 29.7kg)
Immediate Pre-Pregnant Weight: 94kg
Pregnancy Gain: Up 27kg to 121kg
Restart Weight: 111.4kg (2wks post birth)
Weight Watcher's Goal Weight: 76kg
Personal Goal Weight: Pending
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Next Goals!!!
- Back to 100.x on the scales
- Return to 3 exercise sessions a week minimum.
Full list of goals here
Love my boys!!
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Tuesday 30th June, 2009...
Yesterday was my 34th *gulp* birthday and I had THE BEST day!!
It started with cuddles and gifts in bed with my favourite boys. I got some candles from Talyn, the 4th Twilight book from Simon and a book from Talyn called '101 thing to do before you diet'. I'd actually ripped out the review on it from a magazine months ago as it sounded really good and basically focused on how to feel good about yourself while you are still working at losing the weight. It sounded humorous yet hopefully helpful. Turns out Simon snavelled away that piece of paper so that he could buy it for me for my birthday....how sweet is that man??
Then my Dad got me a top shelf bottle of Vodka (Go Dad!!!!) and my sister got me a lovely necklace and earring set from Avon. My other sister (a hairdresser) is going to straighten my hair for me for my party this weekend - yey! All up I was very spoilt :)
After we opened gifts Simon took the boys with him on a work errand that left me alone in the house for a blissful hour or so. I had a leisurely shower, answered a gazillion birthday messages on Facebook and generally just enjoyed some quiet time alone.
Then after they got home Simon cooked me a DELISH birthday breakfast. Lean bacon, mushrooms, an egg, baked beans and a slice of french toast. Not really the best WW choice breakfast but hell you only have a birthday once a year and he did try with the lean bacon and fat free cooking methods :)
Then we all got dressed and went out to a bar/bistro with the boys in tow. We had some drinks while the boys tucked into a plate of hot chips and gravy then when we got home they napped while Simon and I enjoyed an hour or two to ourself.
Then when they woke we'd pulled some lounges up in the shade outside and the boys climbed all over me and snuggled in for an hour or so or mummy cuddles and good old fashioned family time while I enjoyed yet more drinks.
Then it was time for me to get dressed and go round to visit a good friend for the afternoon for some drinkies etc and chill out time. then as if my day hadn't been good enough, Simon then picked me up and I showered again then got ready to go out on our first date in over a a year!!!!
We trialled a new babysitter for the very first time (our neighbor) and nerves aplenty we headed out. As it turned out they didn't wake at all in the 90min's or so we were out and we had a LOVLEY LOVLEY dinner together. It was SO nice just to be alone and be able to talk, drink and eat together. We even shared a half dozen gorgeous Oyster Kilpatrick for an entree....-Yummy!!! Oh how we've missed being able to be alone together with someone to watch our boys!
After we got home we settled in together for a few laughs and good company before falling into an exhausted sleep about 10.30pm. It was a long day but was soooo good!!!
This Friday we are having the big party at my new favourite bar. About a dozen friends coming to help me celebrate, mostly new or recently reconnected friends, and I can't wait!!!!!! My sister is even traveling all the way from NSW to join us - double yey!!!! :)
Bring it on!!!!!
I'll be back to update tomorrow with some New Challenge idea's. I want to judge the interest in running a new challenge. Drop me a line if you keen :)
TFTD: "Happy Birthday to me....tee-he-he!!"
Cheers P
Wednesday 24th June, 2009...
Honestly.
What is it going to take?
When am I going to slam the brakes on this backwards slide I'm in and start actually LOSING weight again???
It's driving me crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I know, more than any of you do, how crazy stressful my life has been of late. I've been going through one of the hardest times of my life (second only to losing my mom)...and I guess I have to cut myself a bit of slack. It's all I can do to keep my head above water these last three months or so and so ... I guess it's hardly surprising I lost my focus on this whole side of my life for a while.
I have not been to a WW meeting for 5 wk's. 5wk's!!!!
But I went yesterday :)
I gained....1.6kg actually....but all things considered over the last 5wk's....I'm friggin' shocked it's not a hell of a lot more!!
And you know what....it felt great anyway. You know why??
Because if there is one thing I've learn in the years and years that I have journeyed this weight loss road - it's that no matter how bad you've been, no matter how big the gain, no matter how embarrassed you know you'll feel....avoiding it DOES NOTHING!!!!
It only makes it easier to continue to slack off - thinking next week, next week. But next week never comes and the slide continues.
So for me...I got off that slide this morning. I dusted myself off. And I'm ready to have yet another bash at it :)
TFTD: "The only place success comes before work is in the dictionary!!"
Cheers P
Tuesday 23rd June, 2009...
Here's a great email that I got that really got me thinking. Enjoy....
Written By Regina Brett, 90 years old,
Who wrote the 45 lessons life taught me.
1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents 
will. Stay in touch.
will. Stay in touch. 5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie.
Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25 No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five years, will this matter?'
27 Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.
41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42. The best is yet to come.
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield.
45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.
I think there is something in that for all of us ;)
TFTD: "In the waste is better than on the waist!!"
Cheers P
Sunday 21st June, 2009...
Ahhh Sundays....the most relaxing day of the week.
It's been a busy week as always....and my weekend has been quite social. As you may recall both Simon and I are making a strong effort to introduce new friends into our life after the recent departure of a friend who we spent all our time with in the past. Having always lived in the same town, never having to change schools etc...combined with my crippling low self esteem as an adult means I never was very good at making new friends. But I'm breaking out of my comfort zone as much as I can now and just getting on with it, accepting invitations, inviting others to hang out etc.
A few months back I reconnected with an old friend and now visit her to catch up most weeks. A couple of weeks back I went to the house of a girl I went to school with and had drinks just the two of us. We'd never really been friends as such and being just the two of us could have been really awkward but it went great. On Friday I finally reconnected with another old and once very close friend and went to his place for birthday drinks and I hope that will be the beginning of many more catch ups for us. Then last night the cool chick who does my nails invited me out to the movies so I said yes. And had a fantastic night!!
All these things may seem so simple for many people but for me each and every meeting was a psychological mountain for me....but I scaled every one of them :)
This morning my lovely man made us breakfast in bed then we took the boys down to the beach and walked for an hour. They had a total blast and now Simon has taken them out to another beach to go crabbing in the rock pools while I have some time at home alone - a rare treasure for me. How great is he huh?
Weight wise....I wish I could get back on track? My weight is going up, up, up. and it's making my mood/confidence/self esteem go down, down, down. :(
I really wanted to be feeling a little better about myself by my birthday in a week's time but I just can't seem to get my mojo back??
Yesterday was at least a pretty much perfect diet day and today I've got that nice long beach walk under my belt already and I'll probably mow the lawns this afternoon too for another hours exercise.
I just want to feel good about myself again. I've been so low for so long now that I think I forgot how?? :(
TFTD: "You don't ever have to be the same again after today, only by choice!!"
Cheers P
Monday 15th June, 2009...
It's birthday blitz time for me!!
I'm feeling FAT FAT FAT!! I've been doing a lot of emotional eating and drinking way too much alcohol of late. The incredible stress in our life of late has been my undoing but today I've made a decision. Eating crap and getting no exercise does not do one dam thing to help the stress in my life. In fact it only makes it worse because then I have a lot of dieter's anxiety and self hatred on top of everything else.
So there's only one way to fix this situation. STOP IT!
As of today I'm back to tracking. It's been far too long since I have so it's high time. Today I am working 12-9pm so exercise is a bit of a slim chance today with all I already have to do this morning. But tomorrow is a daycare day for me so I'll have plenty of time to get something done in that regard.
It's only two weeks today to my birthday but that's enough time to at least get things moving in the right direction again and that will make me feel a whole lot better.
We all had a fantastic time on our family getaway this weekend just gone and Simon and I had a chance to discuss a lot of things we want to change about our life/lifestyle/health etc. Better eating, more exercise, no cigs, less partying. We decided what better day to begin all this than today. :)
Day one begins.....
TFTD: "Success if getting up one more time than you fall!!"
Cheers P
ps...Simon got a matching tattoo to my own last week. Now we are untited in faith :)
Tuesday 9th June, 2009...
Today is a good day :) My favorite day of the week...boys at school/daycare, no work for me, just a whole day stretching ahead to do as I please :) My one day off a week. This week Simon is working for soemone else but from next week on Tuesday lunch is going to be our weekly 'date' time also :) :)
I'm super excited about our weekend away this weekend! The boys, Simon and I are going back to Forest Glen for the weekend and also spending a day at Australia Zoo again with the boys. Both my sisters and their partners and kids are meeting us there for the weekend and even our best mate/Godmother to the boys is coming too! Yeah!! All our loved one's in one place :) :)
Life's been challenging of late to say the least and we seem to be attacked from all sides of late but strangely enough it's only made us stronger. We are united against those who try to weaken us and we both think so long as we have the boys and each other we don't need nor do we give a flying f*ck about anyone else!
Amen to that!! :)
We also have another exciting trip planned for August. My sister is turning 40 and having a big birthday bash at Dracula's theatre restaurant on the Gold Coast. My whole family will be there again and we are all going to stay at the Casino for the night. My dear friend has kindly offered to come with us for the night and stay in the rooms with the boys while we go celebrate my sister's birthday and actually get to enjoy a night out together at dinner. I can't wait!! Now that's a real friend I say - thank you!!!!
Meanwhile we are planning my birthday for the end of this month (hopefully our first attempt at leaving the boys for an evening with our neighbour for the first time) and we are also planning a trip to Dreamworld/MovieWorld in September. After that we won't be having any more holidays this year as my family are all coming here for Xmas so planning that will keep us busy (and broke) until into the New Year.
It's lovely to have little weekend breaks to look forward to. We so love our trips away with the boys, good family time surrounded by those who matter :)
Have a great Tuesday everyone! :)
TFTD: "What lies behind us and what lies before us is insignificant compared to what lies within us!!"
Cheers P
Friday 5th June, 2009...
For those of you who read along....I've just done a new update on Caleb's page and a new update on Talyn's page.
Enjoy :)
TFTD: "You NEVER fail until you stop trying. Believe and succeed. Make it happen!!"
Cheers P
Thursday 4th June, 2009...
Well so much for getting back for an update on Tuesday huh?
I've been really slack lately with regularly updating but that's only because my personal life has been in complete freefall for the last 3 months or so. But....I have faith it will get back to normal, well in fact better than normal I hope!!
Until then all I can really do is cut myself some slack and at least try to maintain for a little while at least if I cannot lose. Then when I am stronger once more I can continue to cut those kilo's :)
I have been seeing a psychologist for a few months now (paid for by my work thank god seeing as it would have cost me $135 an hour!!!!) and yesterday we had an interesting discussion on self esteem and body image. It's not usually what we discuss but somehow the topic turned to my non existent self esteem and the effect that has on my entire life.
We talked first about compliments. I was telling her how I literally roll my eye's when my gorgeous husband tells me I am beautiful every single day. I've always been shit at taking a compliment :( Even when I had lost 30kg and people would compliment me on that - the first thing out of my mouth was always "Oh but I still have 15kg to lose". So my 'homework' until my next session is simply to say "Thank you". Easier said than done but worth a shot I guess? What about you? How do you take a compliment??
She then went on to discuss how we hold ourselves in public, what that projects to others about us and how they in turn treat us as a direct result of that. When I enter a room I hope to be invisible, I hope no one even looks at me, let alone talks to me and if they do happen to look my way I assume they are thinking the worst. So I'm told that if I hold my head high and enter a room/conversation/situation as though I too have the right to be there as much as anyone then I will be surprised with the response I get. Hmmm???? I've never been confident like this but I'm assured that if I basically 'fake it until I make it' the confidence will come.
Interesting.......??? :)
TFTD: "Some succeed because they are destined to. Most succeed because they are determined to!!"
Cheers P
Monday 1st June, 2009...
Yikes!!!!
Once again my daily updates got away from me.
Because once again my crazy messed up life turned upside down on me again :(
But....I'm still alive, still battling on and so long as Simon, the boys and myself are alive, healthy and together - nothing else matters!
I'll have some more time tomorrow while Talyn is at daycare so I'll be back then with a more decent update...for now just wanted to reassure you all I'm alive and well and keeping.up the good fight :)
Pinch and a punch for the first day of the month everyone!!! June is my favourite month because it's my birthday month :)
TFTD: "It takes both rain and sunshine to make a rainbow!!"
Cheers P
Tuesday 19th May, 2009...
Another weigh-in, another loss. 0.7kg down for me which is a loss now of 3.2kg in two weeks - not too shabby!! :)
I did finally get my butt moving more this week. I had a 30minute and a 50minute session on the Wii Fit and also 1hr and 10min's of lawn mowing, pruning and chopping back wild gardens. Not much in total I guess but sure is better than nothing :)
Another highlight of my week - a new music release. I am a HUGE Eminem fan and was stoked to get my hands on his brand spanking new album 'Relapse' yesterday. It was due to come out today but Sanity released it a day early so I was there waiting when they opened. Love my Em :) Best part is he is releasing a second album in a months time too!!!!
Busy with housework today. Talyn is at daycare but Caleb is home due to the teachers strikes so I'm staying busy with washing, folding, floors, toilets and even giving my patio a good clean.
I was meant to work last night but ended up being sent home due to the death of a patient who also happened to be related to me (by marriage). Was all very sad, such a young life taken too early :(
Am struggling with my own low mood today. Still under an immense amount of stress and pressure at home but doing the best I can to get through it. Reminding myself that that which does not kill us only makes us stronger!!
I have a 6yr old birthday party for one of Caleb's school friends at McDonalds tonight so that will get me out of the house at least and give me an hour and a half of alone time while Caleb is at the party. I think I'll get a hot chocolate, a magazine and just chill inside while it goes on :)
TFTD: "I cannot change yesterday, I can make the most of today and look with hope toward tomorrow!!"
Cheers P
Saturday 16th May, 2009...
Once again the weekend rolls around - and how sweet it is :)
I went out last night with friends from work for dinner and drinks and had a great night. As usual most people who put their name down to come don't actually arrive so there was only me flying solo and two guys from work who each brought their wife's with them. It was nice to meet a couple new ladies and while I did only have one small slice of thin pizza as far as dinner went I more than made up for it when it came to the drinks. About 10 vodka and red bull was the count at the end I believe and that was in 3 hours so not too shabby ;)
Woke up feeling a bit ordinary today as although I was home at just after 9pm Simon and I were enjoying time together without the boys until almost 1am. I've had 11hrs sleep in total over the last two nights so here's hoping I can catch up on a little tonight.
Yet, like every other day, we were up at 6.30am ready to tackle another day. We had Talyn's swimming lessons early this morning, as we do every Saturday, and then we went grocery shopping. We do it straight after swimming each week now so that the rest of the weekend is free. I always used to shop alone on a Sunday afternoon but now we go all together as a family. Simon has the boys in one trolley and I have the food in another. It's good fun that way :)
Speaking of Simon, we have a hot date tonight. With the Wii Fit ;) We don't have any babysitter EVER so we can never go out together or get much quality time alone so we have to make our own fun at home. And the good thing about Wii Fit is it's not only fun but great exercise :)
I've got my favourite crock-pot chicken dish in the slow cooker for tea tonight and I've done a mountain of fresh vegies to have with it - potato, pumpkin, fresh corn on the cob, carrot, zucchini and peas. The whole house smells so good!!!
Anyhoo...not much else to say for now really, just thought I'd pop in and say hi while I had a few minutes to spare. Hope you are all enjoying a fabulous weekend!!!
TFTD: "The race is not always to the swift... but to those who keep on running!!"
Cheers P
Friday 15th May, 2009...
Gee I'm getting good at this updating every day again :)
I just do it as soon as I think of it rather then always telling myself 'I'll do that later' and later never comes :)
Yesterday was a great day, diet wise. I worked last night which often makes it easier for me to avoid the dreaded fridge ;) I came in under points with three low point meals, once Lindor Lindt chocolate ball as a treat and a yoghurt and muesli at work last night when I was feeling peckish.
I didn't manage to get on the Wii Fit yesterday but will hopefully do so today. Still loving my Wii Fit!!!!
My new tattoo (pic below) is going good, some discomfort if I touch it but that's all. I'm applying cream several times a day and it looks to be healing up nicely so I'm thrilled with that. I still find myself forgetting about it, then when I remember it I spend ages looking at it every which way. *snicker.* ;)
Tonight I'm going out with people from work for dinner and drinks. I think I'll go very light on the dinner so I can have a few more extra drinks. I don't drink much these days, only once or twice a month, so I'm really looking forward to some vodka and redbulls this evening.
Yey for Friday!!!! :)
TFTD: "The road to success has few travellers, because so many get lost trying to find the shortcuts!!"
Cheers P
Thursday 14th May, 2009...
Well I did it!!!
I got my first tattoo last night :)
Just before I did it I made the mistake or contacting a friend who had one done in the exact same spot the night before to ask her how it felt. GULP. She likened it to razorblade's slicing her foot open. GULP
But it was NOTHING like that :)
I used a numbing patch before I went to numb the area as I had heard from several sources that the top of the foot is a particularly painful position to have a tattoo due to the lack of underlying flesh under the skin. But seriously....it was a breeze. I was so tense as he begun, having no idea what tattoo would feel like?? What it felt like for me could be best described as scratching. Sure it's not nice to be scratched over and over again in the same place but it was a LONG way from unbearable.
I do have a fairly high pain tolerance usually so maybe it was just me but seriously...it was fun :) I went alone and I was on SUCH a high when I walked out of there!!!! I can't begin to describe the feeling ;)
I chose the Chinese symbol for 'FAITH'. I researched it a gazillion times online to make sure I had the correct symbol so hopefully I'm not walking around with 'sweet and sour pork tattooed on my foot for the rest of my life ;)
Faith in what some may ask?? Faith in me! Faith in my decisions in life, my ability to make the right decisions and to stand by my decisions. Faith that life will work out as it's meant to and that some things are out of my control. Faith in a greater meaning/reason. Just faith :)
TFTD: "Keep your face to the sunshine and you cannot see the shadows!!"
Cheers P
Wednesday 13th May, 2009...
Well i sure did lose this week.
2.5kg to be precise!!!
Wahoo :)
And tonight I'm off to get my first tattoo. A chinese symbol for 'Faith' done on the top of my right foot. I'm only having it small...about the size of a 10c coin or so. It's something I've always wanted and I figure now is a great time in my life to do so and signify a new beginning. Faith in myself and in my future :)
TFTD: "Persistance prevails when all else fails!!"
Cheers P
Tuesday 12th May, 2009...
Well it's only 6am but I've been awake for hours, I have a headache, I can't sleep for worrying, and I'm keeping Simon awake too...so figured I may as well get up and make use of my time for an update.
I am at least SLOWLY beginning to feel more human. After 5 days of being so sick, suffering through nausea, vomiting, diarrhoea, stomach cramps and days on end in bed...I'm HOPING today may finally be a good day??? I had to miss work on Thursday and Monday so I'm a bit stressed about that too. I'll have to face that music on Thursday.
Assuming I'm feeling up to it I'm also going to go to WW today, weigh-in and hopefully stay for the meeting also. While I know I've lost some weight due to illness I also gained some due to TTOM arriving today so overall I'm sitting a kilo or two down at this stage. Given the massive gain last week that's what I had expected anyway after finally getting back on track at long last. I do fear that when my eating comes back to normal once I feel normal again, that I could rebound gain next week but I'll just keep at it and hope for the best.
I'm fairly stressed right now. Trying not to let it sabotage me or to sabotage myself?? It's a constant battle :( I have a court case to attend tomorrow so hopefully that may close another chapter of stress?? Hopefully life will settle down again soon??
I do have some fun things to look forward to at least. The annual show is coming up in a couple of weeks and the boys are really excited about that! Also we have another family holiday planned for next month. A weekend away to the same tourist park we went to recently (the one with the jumping pillow that we absolutely loved) and another trip to Australia Zoo. Then the end of next month is my birthday so hopefully we'll get away again for that too?
I also made a decision yesterday that I've been thinking about for years. I'm getting a tattoo. My first one. It's going to be the Chinese symbol for 'Faith' and tomorrow night I'm having it tattooed on my foot. Will post pic's when I'm done. Now just feels like the right time for me to do it. God knows I need faith these days!
TFTD: "If it is to be, it is up to me!!"
Cheers P
Sunday 10th May, 2009...
Friday night I dared a risky project ....serving Simon stir-fry for dinner *tee-he* Now I must say I have the most supportive man you could imagine when it comes to my diet and exercises. Simon is built like a whippet and can eat anything he wants but he's always supported me making good choices and always given me opportunity to exercise alone without the boys to distract me, or he's happy to bring them along and do it as a family.
However...stir-fry's were where he drew the line :) He'd eat any diet recipe I threw at him but he just couldn't come at stir-fry's. However of late he's seen me struggle and he kept saying he'd do "ANYTHING to help me, even eat stir-fry's" ... so I decided to do just that.
I made a chicken and hokien noodle stir-fry with Chinese BBQ sauce for our tea Friday night (the boys had rissoles and baked beans which they loved. I can't see them being too keen on stir-fry veg just yet?) and the stir-fry .....well I think it was a hit?? Let's just say he ate his and some of mine so that's saying something. I personally did not like the new stir-fry sauce that I'd used AT ALL and I think it was far from an ideal sell on the stir-fry front for Simon - but he didn't seem to mind so .... go figure *wink*
We then spent the early part of the evening playing Wii Fit with Caleb. Any of the Wii games are so great for kids. It sure beats sitting on their butt pressing a button like with PS2's and Nintendo's etc. Caleb loved trying all the new Fit games and I now wonder if I did myself some damage on the hoola-hoop game due to the pain I now find myself in?? I know I was going hell for leather on it and working up a good sweat on that and the jogging so .... yes... I still love my Wii Fit!!! :)
Then when the boys were asleep Simon and I watched Marley and Me. But we never made it to the end. Just as the tear-jerker part began....so too did the most AWFUL cramps in my stomach. :(
Caleb had complained of feeling nauseous that morning and before too long I too realised my cramps were going to end up in a bit more then nausea. OMG!!! I threw up what seemed like everything I'd eaten in the last 20yrs and then some. I was absolutely wrenched by stomach cramps until finally managing to fall asleep on the floor beside the bathroom and woke to find Simon sleeping beside me holding my hand *awww!!!!*
The night passed in a daze of no sleep, killer cramps and back aches. I spent all day yesterday in bed being waited on hand and foot by my dear, dear man. He went out and bought me hot packs, researched the net and came back insisting I wear a cool washer over my forehead as that would help too. I did try to eat 6 grapes at lunch time but at least 3 of them came straight back up....Ugh!! The cramps continued all night but by tea time I did manage to keep some food down at least. With some verbal instructions Simon did a great job of cooking my favorite chicken soup for dinner for us all and it was DELISH!!!
Unfortunately the cramps have continued right on into today. I can eat now it seems but I'll get random attacks of the most painful cramps that make me stop what I'm doing and breath just to get through them. If I wasn't sure I wasn't I'd think I was in bloody labour!!!
Still....today is Mother's Day and I can't let a bit of pain and cramps get in the way of that!!!! :)
Simon has truly outdone himself today. I was ordered to stay in bed this morning while he cooked me the most fantastic breakfast. I had to pause several times to wait for cramps to pass but I was determined to enjoy every last bit of it!! Then I was told to have some facebook time while a lovely deep, hot, aromatherapy spa was run for me and I was given strict orders to soak for at least 30mins minimum! Snicker.
Then we took the boys out to the cemetery to leave some Mother's Day flowers for my mom and stopped in at a park for them to have a play before coming home for lunch and a rest. This afternoon we are all going grocery shopping (something I always used to do alone but now we enjoy as a family outing each week - Simon has the boys in one trolley, I have the food in another)...before I cook a yummy roast for dinner and we have reserved the new Jim Carrey movie for tonight for some laughs.
Ahh life is good....if only these damn killer cramps would go away :(
Happy Mother's day to all the mom's out there, all the expectant mom's and all those who have lost their mom's. Nothing, but NOTHING, beats the joy of motherhood :) :)
TFTD: "Never put off until tomorrow what you can do today!!"
Cheers P
Friday 8th May, 2009...
See...I bet you didn't believe I'd be back to update every day this week but I'm doing well. Four days out of four so far :) *wink*
Something very exciting happened for me last night. I got an early Mother's Day gift!! Not from the boys but from Simon for some reason - I think he just wanted an excuse to get me a present because it's not like he would normally get me a Mother's Day gift from himself, usually only the boys.
Anyhoo....then he begged me to let him give it to me early rather than wait until Sunday. I kept saying, no wait, but he insisted. Once I got it I was really glad he did.
I FINALLY got a Wii Fit!!!!!!!!
I got a great deal on a second hand Wii console a few months back (barely used with lots of extra games and attachments etc for $150) with the sole intention of one day getting the fit. We already have a PS2 and I don't play console games like that so it's been sitting there barely used ever since waiting for the fit - and now I have it!
And it's awesome!!! it took a while to get set up with all my weights, BMI's and fitness tests etc but I still managed to clock up 20min's of exercise on it last night once I got going and boy was it fun!
My favorite games were hoola-hooping, ski jump, downhill ski, stepping and jogging. The more you do the more programs that open up for you so I can't wait to see what else awaits me. :)
I'm also desperate to buy the Wii Fit program made my Jillian Michael's (the female trainer from USA Biggest Loser). It's not released here until July but when it is I'm getting it for sure. She'll be sure to make a program that REALLY does burn fat and build muscle if her name is on it so that will be great!! Some of the existing programs on the standard Wii Fit are a bit easy but any movement is better than sitting on the lounge watching TV and I did find the hoola-hoop and jogging pretty intensive so I'm excited to see what it can do.
Tonight...Friday night...but no pub for me!! It's Wii Fit night!!!!!!!! :)
TFTD: "One week of neglect could mean one month of repair!!"
Cheers P
Thursday 7th May, 2009...
Look at me go!! Three days in a row and all *wink*
Well I cooked my big double batch of points free vege soup up yesterday (see below entry for recipe) and it worked a treat. I had to do it in two lots to fit it all in the pot and I blended the first batch, left the second batch as it was and mixed the two together at the end to get a nice blend of soup with chunks :)
I've never been much of a breakfast person and so then usually find myself making a bad food choice for lunch or late morning because by then I'm starving. So I've decided the soup may be just the trick for me. I've frozen most of it in single serves so that I can take them to work but I left one large container of it in the fridge to be able to get a cupful each morning for my breakfast. I also got a bag of soy/linseed bread rolls and froze them in single bags so I just have to grab a frozen soup and roll and I'm good to go.
So this morning I had my soup for breakfast and it was actually my first taste of the soup. My memory of it was that it was fairly bland and boring but I was wrong!! It does have chili flakes and garlic in the recipe and I added a good splash of Worcestershire Relish sauce to each pot for added flavour and the end result was surprisingly tasty!!! It had a little bite too and and I didn't even have to add any further seasoning or sauce to the bowl which I usually would always do to just about anything I eat.
Having had a big bowl of soup and a roll for my breakfast today (only two points all up - bargain!)...I am SO full!!!!!! I can see that this soup is going to be my savior this week :)
I've also started my week by getting organised once more on my Online tracking with the WW Unlimited site. I've begun my tracking for the week, got all my weigh-in details up to date and my kitchen is stocked with yoghurts, rice crackers, fat free hot chocolate's, air popped popcorn and even frozen mini Milky Ways so that whatever I crave to snack on ...be it savoury or sweet... I've got it covered!!
And I'll tell you something else I did last night. I weighed in. For the first time in about 7wk's and after the last few months being some of the most difficult of my life for personal reasons....well let's just say it wasn't pretty. In fact it was SO NOT pretty I still can't believe I actually faced it and stood on those scales knowing it would be my biggest gain in the history of my WW experience. I even got teary when I faced my leader and she gave me a big hug (and a lovely follow up phone call this morning to make sure I was ok)....and you know what....it's done now. I'm not going to actually say how much it was just yet but I will next week once I've removed some of it again. It was bad...VERY BAD...but man do I feel good for having faced that now and got it behind me!!!
Next week I'm going to go to the Tuesday morning meeting and I'm going to actually stay at the meeting for the first time in many months. I feel really good about my new focus and new start and I'm REALLY hoping to kick ass on the scales next week. Bring it on!!!! :)
TFTD: "All problems become smaller if you don't dodge them, but confront them!!"
Cheers P
Wednesday 6th May, 2009...
Today I'm moving forward with my plan to get my ass back on track *wink*
So I've dug out my week one book from WW and I'm cooking up a big double batch of the Points Free Classic Vegetable Soup today. Filling, tasty and points free - I think it will become my best friend this week :)
Points Free Classic Vegetable Soup
-2 x 400g cans of chopped tomatoes
-1 onion, chopped
-2 garlic cloves, finely crushed
-pinch dried chili flakes
-2 carrots, chopped
-2 sticks celery, finely chopped
-2 zucchini, chopped
-4 cups vegetable stock
-1/2 cup peas or chopped green beans (optional)
Method:
1. Combine all ingredients except peas or beans in a large pot over medium heat. Season with salt and black pepper. Cook for about 20mins or until vegetables soften.
2. Transfer the soup to a food processor and blend until smooth. If you prefer a chunky soup, just blend half the mixture at this stage. Return the soup to the pot.
Add peas or beans if using, and stir over low heat until hot. Serve.
-Serves 4. Point value per serve: 0 points-
As I said though I'm doing a double batch up today so I can freeze some too. I like mine with a dash of relish/Worcestershire sauce. I'm hoping it will be just the trick to drop some big numbers this week :) Keep you posted!
TFTD: "We are what we repeatedly do!!"
Cheers P
Tuesday 5th May, 2009...
I'm alive :)
I know I've been sadly absent for FAR FAR too long around here.
There is a very complicated reason for that but one I'm afraid I cannot discuss on this page due to the people who may view it. If you want to know more just email me :)
The bottom line is .... I'm back!!
The last month or two has been a total nightmare and not only has my weight loss efforts taken a back seat but the stress involved has seen my weight go up -up -up!! Why can't I be one of these people who lose weight under stress??? *snicker*
Still....the only way to move now is forwards. That means getting back to WW next week...facing the catastrophic gain that will await me ...and just get back to it.
So rather then whinge and moan.... or avoid confessing my sins here....or continue to use all my online time on bloody facebook (I am SUCH a facebook addict!!!) I am making this commitment to you....
I will update here daily if I can but at least second daily if not every day. For that I commit to you :) Slowly but surely my weight will come back into line and at least I will be able to share each success here with you along the way :)
For today though I have to dash. Caleb is in school and Talyn is in daycare today and my gorgeous husband is taking me out on a date for lunch. Child free bliss :) Just the two of us, able to eat in peace, talk and just enjoy each other's company. So I've got to get moving and get myself glammed up for him :)
Talk more tomorrow - I promise! :)
TFTD: "The hardest thing in life to learn is which bridges to cross and which one's to burn!!"
Cheers P
Thursday 2nd April, 2009...
FINALLY!!!!!
I have been working on my website's for the last three hours getting everything up to date and when I thought I only had an entry here to do then I was done... I realised it was time for another new page to begin so had to create all that first...Phew!!!
Still it feels great to be on top of everything at long last.
We have decided on an impromptu family weekend away this weekend so after all the time I've already spent online I don't have much more to say for now as I have far, far too much to still get done before the boys get home. We went on wotif.com and got a great last minute bargain on a two story townhouse in Noosa for the weekend for just $115 a night (usually $180) and we can't wait!!!!
So I'll come back next week with more of an update on all things weight wise.
For now here's all the latest new stuff :)
Caleb's new site update here
Caleb's new photo's to view here
Talyn's new site update here
Talyn's new photo's to view here.
And last but not least - Photo's of our March holiday to Forest Glenn as promised to view here.
Enjoy!!!!
TFTD: "Whether you think you can or whether you think you can't, either way you are right!!"
Cheers P
