Tuesday 30th September 2008....
I so need my mojo back :(
I don't know what's wrong with me these last few months. I was doing good...inching down to the mid 90's again and well on my way back to my lowest weight of 89.5kg when....I don't know??? I just got lost??
I start each day with the best of intentions. I waver at lunch time and by the evening I've completely blown the day's eating and then I get up and do it all over again the next day, and the next and .... well you get the point. And if all that isn't bad enough my exercise has gone from several hours a week to completely non-existant.
I so need this new challenge!!!!! It begins this week so anyone else out there needing some extra motivation - now is the time to join. You've got until Sunday if you want to participate so head on over to the challenge page here and you can find all the instructions on joining and participating written there.
I know I've had some bad challenges too but I'm really hoping I can use this one to really motivate me back on track before yet another fat, hot summer arrives!
Historically my challenges have gone like this:
13.7kg lost in 12 wks
4.9 kg lost in 12 wks
3.0 kg lost in 12 wks
6.1 kg lost in 12 wks
+1.6kg in 12 wks
+0.2kg in 6 wks
4.7 kg lost in 6 wks
2.5 kg lost in 6wks
2.7 kg lost in 6 wks
+0.7 kg in 6 wks
So out of the 10 challenges I've participated in (I was pregnant the other two)... I had an overall loss in 7/10 of them. This makes my overall challenge progress average a loss of 0.39kg per challenge week. Not too bad I guess??
So I REALLY want to knuckle down, track meticulously and exercise my heart out. Even if I trick myself into believing I only have to keep this up for 6wk's....it might just be enough to get things moving again.
I have set my challenge goal to 96.2kg as 96.3kg was the lowest I've been since Talyn's pregnancy. I desperately want to get back to my lowest of 89.5kg but for now I'll settle for this new 'virgin fat' marker of 96.2kg.
Unfortunately first, and with much shame I must admit that I will gain again this week first :( After losing 1.1kg last week I know I've put a chunk of that back on... but.... what's done is done. I need to weigh in and face it so that it can become my start weight for the challenge and all the work I do to undo the damage will be accurately reflected in my stats then at least :)
I'm using this challenge to turn things around after a short term slump (as I know many of my fellow challengers are also). I have some new strategies planned to tackle this challenge and things I'll be documenting here each day along the way to help me achieve those goals. I'll tell you more about that in detail tomorrow. I'm excited by the possibilities!!! :)
TFTD: "Persistence is behind every success!!!!"
Cheers P
Thursday 25th September 2008....
3 Months today until Xmas!!! Does that put a shopping shudder down everyone else's spine like it does mine?? Tee-he. Actually I am just waiting for my tax return cheque to arrive next week then I am going out and doing all my Christmas shopping straight away. Yes all of it!! I can't wait to have it done and then I can just sit back and watch all the Christmas Chaos hit the shops knowing that I'm all done and dusted already :)
Now....onto all things weight loss.
And yes it was a loss indeed!! 1.1kg down last night!! Hoorah! God knows I needed that after the last little while of going steadily up, up, up. Almost back under the 100kg mark now and hoping to hit that next week.
Whatever my result next week it will become my start weight for the new challenge and boy am I ready for that. Time to kick some scale ass I say!! *wink*
TFTD: "Success comes in cans - failure comes in can't's!!!!"
Cheers P
Wednesday 24th September 2008....
Well weigh-in day has arrived and I'm pretty sure I'll get that loss I'd hoped for - Hoorah!!! Which is partially why I am here writing this update now to keep my hands busy and away from the fridge.
I don't have much else to say for today. I spent the morning at the library with the boys and since we had to pop into the shops also I parked at the shops then we all walked to the library and back. Incidental exercise like that is always a good thing for me lately as I seem to be doing so little of the planned variety.
I intend to though....really I do *tee-he*
Don't forget the Spring Has Sprung Challenge begins next week so join up if you want some extra motivation to be looking f-i-n-e fine for Summer :) The week to submit your start weight begins on Monday so don't delay!
Now before I go I just wanted to share with you this email I got today. For a mom of two young boys it really hits home and it really hit my funny bone. Hope it puts a smile on all the mum's faces out there :) See below the guestbook link below.
TFTD: "You cannot be hoping without acting and wishing without doing!!!!"
Cheers P
FOLLOW THESE 14 SIMPLE TESTS BEFORE YOU DECIDE TO HAVE CHILDREN.
Test 1 - Preparation
Women: To prepare for pregnancy:-
1. Put on a dressing gown and stick a beanbag down the front.
2. Leave it there.
3. After 9 months remove 5% of the beans.
Men: To prepare for children:-
1. Go to a local chemist, tip the contents of your wallet onto the
counter and tell the pharmacist to help himself
2. Go to the supermarket. Arrange to have your salary paid directly to
their head office.
3. Go home. Pick up the newspaper and read it for the last time.
Test 2 - Knowledge
Find a couple who are already parents and berate them about their
methods of discipline, lack of patience, appallingly low tolerance
levels and how they have allowed their children to run wild. Suggest
ways in which they might improve their child's sleeping habits, toilet
training, table manners and overall behavior. Enjoy it. It will be the last time in your life that you will have all the answers.
Test 3 - Nights
To discover how the nights will feel:
1. Walk around the living room from 5pm to 10pm carrying a wet bag weighing approximately 4 - 6kg, with a radio turned to static (or some other obnoxious sound) playing loudly.
2. At 10pm, put the bag down, set the alarm for midnight and go to sleep.
3. Get up at 11pm and walk the bag around the living room until 1am.
4. Set the alarm for 3am.
5. As you can't get back to sleep, get up at 2am and make a cup of tea.
6. Go to bed at 2.45am.
7. Get up again at 3am when the alarm goes off.
8. Sing songs in the dark until 4am.
9. Put the alarm on for 5am. Get up when it goes off.
10. Make breakfast.
Keep this up for 5 years. LOOK CHEERFUL.
Test 4 - Dressing Small Children
1. Buy a live octopus and a string bag.
2. Attempt to put the octopus into the string bag so that no arms hang out.
Time Allowed: 5 minutes.
Test 5 - Cars
1. Forget the BMW. Buy a practical 5-door wagon.
2. Buy a chocolate ice cream cone and put it in the glove compartment.
Leave it there.
3. Get a coin. Insert it into the CD player.
4. Take a box of chocolate biscuits; mash them into the back seat.
5. Run a garden rake along both sides of the car.
Test 6 - Going For a Walk
Wait
Go out the front door
Come back in again
Go out
Come back in again
Go out again
Walk down the front path
Walk back up it
Walk down it again
Walk very slowly down the road for five minutes.
Stop, inspect minutely and ask at least 6 questions about every piece
of used chewing gum, dirty tissue and dead insect along the way.
Retrace your steps
Scream that you have had as much as you can stand until the neighbours
come out and stare at you.
Give up and go back into the house.
You are now just about ready to try taking a small child for a walk.
Test 7
Repeat everything you say at least 5 times.
Test 8 - Grocery Shopping
1. Go to the local supermarket. Take with you the nearest thing you
can find to a pre-school child - a fully grown goat is excellent. If
you intend to have more than one child, take more than one goat.
2. Buy your weekly groceries without letting the goat(s) out of your sight.
3. Pay for everything the goat eats or destroys.
Until you can easily accomplish this, do not even contemplate having children.
Test 9 - Feeding a 1 year-old
1. Hollow out a melon
2. Make a small hole in the side
3. Suspend the melon from the ceiling and swing it side to side
4. Now get a bowl of soggy cornflakes and attempt to spoon them into
the swaying melon while pretending to be an aeroplane.
5. Continue until half the cornflakes are gone.
6. Tip the rest into your lap, making sure that a lot of it falls on the floor.
Test 10 - TV
1. Learn the names of every character from the Wiggles, Barney,
Teletubbies and Disney.
2. Watch nothing else on television for at least 5 years.
Test 11 - Mess
Can you stand the mess children make? To find out:
1. Smear peanut butter onto the sofa and jam onto the curtains
2. Hide a fish behind the stereo and leave it there all summer.
3. Stick your fingers in the flowerbeds and then rub them on clean walls. Cover the stains with crayon. How does that look?
4. Empty every drawer/cupboard/storage box in your house onto the
floor & leave it there.
Test 12 - Long Trips with Toddlers
1. Make a recording of someone shouting 'Mummy' repeatedly. Important
Notes: No more than a 4 second delay between each Mummy. Include
occasional crescendo to the level of a supersonic jet.
2. Play this tape in your car, everywhere you go for the next 4 years.
You are now ready to take a long trip with a toddler.
Test 13 - Conversations
1. Start talking to an adult of your choice.
2. Have someone else continually tug on your shirt hem or shirt sleeve
while playing the Mummy tape listed above.
You are now ready to have a conversation with an adult while there is
a child in the room.
Test 14 - Getting ready for work
1. Pick a day on which you have an important meeting.
2. Put on your finest work attire.
3. Take a cup of cream and put 1 cup of lemon juice in it
4. Stir
5. Dump half of it on your nice silk shirt
6. Saturate a towel with the other half of the mixture
7. Attempt to clean your shirt with the same saturated towel
8. Do not change (you have no time).
9. Go directly to work
You are now ready to have children. ENJOY!!
Tuesday 23rd September 2008....
Well my letter 'n' works today - thank god!!! It's been doing that a lot lately. Some days it works, others it doesn't??? Weird. Still I'll take this opportunity to catch up while I can because bottom line is - we so need a new computer and it's only a matter of time before it gives up the ghost entirely!
School holidays have begun :) I have both the boys home with me each day and it's exhausting *wink* I am trying to make this a really active holiday though. Get plenty of bonus exercise in for me as well as set a good example for them, give them lots of fun memories and also ... wear them out each day :)
Yesterday I decided to take them both bike riding down the Esplanade. Talyn being pushed along by me on his trike and Caleb on his bike. Except Daddy had adjusted Caleb's training wheels and it scared the hell out of him and he wouldn't ride it. So he ended up walking while I pushed Talyn. We walked for about 30 minutes to a nearby park and had a play and morning tea there. Then we walked about 40min's back past the car and to another park in the other direction. Then when we'd had a play there we had to walk the 10min's or so back to the car in the middle. All up...lot's of walking and fun which was great for us all :)
Today I had some errands to run at the shop so again we parked central and walked. Only problem was after an hour or so of walking around the shops and between the two centre's, I got back to car only to find I'd left my keys clipped to the shopping trolley I'd left at the OTHER shopping centre so we had to walk there and back AGAIN!! Phew what a morning :)
So we came home, had a quick nap, read stories and now Talyn is having a nap while Caleb watches a movie and then this afternoon when bub's up we are off to the library for some holiday reading books and then we'll all hit the pool this arvo. Simon has been swimming with the boys every day but I've been too chicken of the cool water However every day is getting hotter and every time I feel the pool it feels more inviting. Plus the boys love it when we all get in together so I think today's the day :) Either that or I'll go for a walk/run on the beach while they swim....I'll have to see how I feel by the afternoon.
Tomorrow I am planning on a morning at the beach with the boys. They can be a bit of a handful there by myself but we manage and they just love it. It's so nice to see Caleb having his little brother to play with and Talyn growing up with a ready made playmate in all we do.
Am working at WW tomorrow night and weighing in then. It still looks like I've not really moved at all this week which is disappointing :( But given my gains of late I'll be happy with any loss I can get, or even a maintain. Fingers crossed those scales move at last by tomorrow. I am desperate to get back under that dreaded 100kg once more ASAP. Summer is just around the corner!!! Eeek! ;)
Don't forget...the new challenge is ready. Go here for all the details of how to join!!
TFTD: "When someone says they'll think it over and let you know - you already know!"
Cheers P
Monday 22nd September 2008....
My site is back up .... hoorah!!!
But the keyboard letter to the left of M refuses to work!!!!!
I can't write like this :( I have to paste it from somewhere else every time....Grrr!
I'll get it sorted then I'll be back!
Cheers P
Thursday 18th September 2008....
I can't believe my site is still down!!!!
Not happy at all :(
I'll be ringing them AGAIN today to try to sort this out. In the meantime I guess since no one can read any of this I may as well spend my time working on the new challenge page :)
If you are interested in joining....it's ready to go! Check it out here :)
For those of you who have already emailed me to join - I'll add you to the page in the next day and let you know when it's all done :)
TFTD: "The definition of insanity is doing this week what you did last week expecting different outcomes!!!"
Cheers P
Wednesday 17th September 2008....
Aargh!!!! My website is down :(
I pay for my new domain name and then I pay for a forwarding service to forward anyone who uses the new name to my old webpage etc. Seems they got one payment but not the other! Dammit!!!
I'm trying to sort it out and I hope to be back on line tomorrow - I better be!!!
TFTD: "Murphy's Law: If something can go wrong - it will!!!"
Cheers P
Tuesday 16th September 2008....
Day two of my daily entry focus and I'm going good :)
I weighed in a day early this week. It saw me record a gain of 0.1kg this morning for my stats but given that I didn't weigh last week and I'm only two days into my new focus I feel ok about that. In fact I feel kinda great. I'm glad I went to weigh-in and I'm glad I didn't let it bother me. It's a teeny gain so I'm over it already *wink*
I'm hoping to have the next challenge page ready to go in the next day or two. I've already received a few emails from interested participants so if you are thinking about joining us this time around - DO IT!!! Just email me at slimming4health@dodo.com.au with NEW CHALLENGE in the subject line and I'll get back to you as soon as I have the page up and running.
I have a good feeling about this challenge!!!!! :)
TFTD: "If you want things to go your way - go after them!!!"
Cheers P
Monday 15th September 2008....
Well....I said I was going to make an effort to update on here each day this week so here I am on day one :)
Today is hot. Really hot!! That makes me anxious at the thought of the summer to come so it was a great reminder today of why I needed to hurry up and get those kilo's moving once more. It's only going to get hotter from here and god knows this summer I'd LOVE to be wearing all the size 16 summer clothes I have that don't fit right now. Time is ticking and I feel a real urgency to get moving.
So on that note I've made a start today. The longest journey begins with a single step after all *wink*
I've made a commitment to myself to eat breakfast each day this week. I usually never do in the midst of the boys breakfast rush and school preparations of each morning but that only makes me ravenous by lunch time. So today I started the day with 2 weet-bix with skim milk and 2 tsp of sugar. Good cereal, good for me to get dairy in which I almost NEVER do and just good to get the metabolism firing as early as I can each day.
The second thing I did this morning was to load up Talyn in the pram and take him for a 40min walk along the Esplanade. Yep it was hot. I'd much rather have relaxed in the cool but that will get me no-where! It was great to get moving again and Talyn quite likes kicking back in the pram watching the scenery (well on some days at least!! snicker)
The third thing I did was to buy a bottle of water for my walk. Most days I literally do not drink any water at all. Today I'm already half way through my 500ml bottle and I should have it finished off soon with lunch. Then my aim is to drink at least another 500ml of water today too. I'd like to slowly build on this until I am drinking about 2L a day or more.
Baby steps. They all add up :) And today for once, I feel like I am at last taking steps in the right direction - no matter how small those steps may be :)
TFTD: "You can't do everything at once - but you can do something at once!!!"
Cheers P
Sunday 14th September 2008....
Phew what a weekend! Talyn is finally back to good health and normal (what's that?) life has resumed. Thursday was Simon's 34th birthday - Happy Birthday Hot Hubby of Mine!!!!! He had to work that day sadly but in the evening we had a huge group of us go out for a birthday dinner at a local restaurant. We had a table of 16 and we all had a great time. Talyn was still quite sick for that which was not so good but he did so well! He made it until 8.15pm which is about 2.5hrs past his bedtime at the best of times let alone when he is sick. He'd had three days with basically no eating at all except for cereal for breakfast and a bottle of milk at bedtime yet he finally got his appetite back just in time for his dinner trip. He didn't eat much mind you - by his standards, but he did great. Caleb was super well behaved too and I couldn't have been happier with both of them.
After Granny took the boys home after dinner we kicked on to a pub for drinks then to a friends place for pool and more drinks. We dragged our drunk and sorry butts home about 1am the next morning.
Friday passed in a blur and then I had a big night out at the pub that night too and got home, again, at about 1am. Ugh! The things we do to ourselves. And is it any wonder my weight loss is so off track??? But more of that soon.
Saturday we had early morning swimming lessons for Talyn at 9am and then I took the boys shopping while Simon did a few hours work. In the evening we had a friend over for dinner and playstation and I think I fell into bed about 11pm last night.
Today we got busy around the house and yard in the morning and we've just now got home from 3hrs at a 2yr old's birthday party. She's the daughter of Talyn's godmother (Scotty sister Rebecca) and one of our best friends so we always have a great time around there. There was swimming, water fights a sausage sizzle and princess presents galore :)
So.....that pretty much sums up the day to day events of late.
Now before I go any further I must talk about the Race to 1000kg Challenge!!! The race is now complete. We made it!!!!!!!!!!! Over 1001kg we have now lost! Can you believe that? To think that from starting that very first challenge almost 3yrs ago we would all play our part in ridding the world of 1000kg of fat! Awesome :) :)
Which brings me to my own weight. It sucks!
Tee-he. I just don't' know what's gone on with me of late but I suck big time. I know things have been off track with me getting sick, then me working full time for a week then both boys getting really sick :( Every day I start with the best intentions and every day I end up going off track by mid afternoon. Or I get to after dinner then lose it?? And exercise - what's that? I'm doing practically nothing of late and it shows. And what's even worse is that I am now back over the 100kg mark again. No!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
After 4 weeks away from the scales I finally faced my fears and went back to WW last week to record a 3.3kg gain!! 3.3kg in 4wks!!! That will take me bloody 3 months to undo that sort of damage again :(
So tomorrow morning I must once more pick myself up and try to find my mojo. To get back into exercise. To get back into tracking. To get back into action post haste!
Summer is just around the corner and I so don't want to spend another one sitting in the shade watching everyone else have fun in the sun!
Get your finger out Paulene and get moving! Remember - Be Committed, Do what it takes...Have what I want!!! I'm coming back better then ever. I'm going to get back into updating here each day and I'm going to race back into the 90s ASAP. Hope you'll hang around for the ride - again *blush*
And what better way to get me motivated for Summer then another challenge! It was 3yrs ago at the end of September 2005 that I began my original WHO magazine 12wk challenge. We've made the 1000kg mark now but many of us are far from finished. So....time for another challenge. I'll finalise dates and details and get a challenge page up and running in the next day or so ready to begin at the end of this month. If you are interested drop me a line at slimming4health@dodo.com.au with "NEW CHALLENGE" in the subject heading and I'll join you up! :)
TFTD: "Unless you start doing something different you are in for more of the same!!!"
Cheers P
Wednesday 10th September 2008....
I still have so much I want to say but so little time to say it.
Poor Talyn is very sick :( He has an ear infection and tonsillitis, as well as a nasty cough and ongoing high temperature. He's very very clingy to me while he is unwell, often I find nothing will settle him other then curling up on my lap, clinging to me and just staring into space. My poor little man :(
So....as I'm sure you can understand, many things must take a back seat while I care for him. Hence why I must leave it here again for today.
I just wanted to explain why I'm away and promise that once he is back to fighting fit I've made a commitment to myself, and to all of you, to update on here daily again like I used to.
Until then.....hope to talk more soon :)
TFTD: "What are you going to do, starting today, that will make a difference to your life??!!"
Cheers P
Monday 8th September 2008....
What happened to life as I knew it???
Tee-he....things have been crazy around here!! It all started when we went away to the Gympie Music Muster two weekends ago. We had a fantastic time but after we got back I had to go into a full week's training at work. Considering I usually only work one evening shift a week - being gone 8am-4pm every day that week was totally foreign to me. Simon had to take the week off work to stay home with the boys and I must say he did a FANTASTIC job of Daddy-day-care duties *wink*
Then during that week Caleb got really sick with some sort of flu/bug. He had really high temps and was just so miserable and suffering. He even missed two days of school and prior to that he'd only missed one day all year. But the working week came to an end as the weekend arrived.
As usual I had WAY too much to drink on the Friday night and was suffering big time on the Saturday when Simon then had to go to work all day. Then we had 3 friends around for dinner that night which was heaps of fun. Other then Scotty the other two were a couple we'd never had around for a meal before so I had a bit of anxiety about that but it turned out great. We all had a lovely BBQ for tea then played cards and drank until late in the evening.
Yesterday was of course Father's Day. Simon was most spoiled by Caleb who brought home a bag full of things he'd made for his Daddy at school including note books, pet rocks, decorated containers and cute cards. He chose a book from the Father's Day stall at school called 'I love you so much Daddy'. Talyn bought Simon some Lynx spray and shower gel (with a little help from Mummy) so that his Daddy smelt yummy all day long :) We then had my Dad and his wife around for lunch which was nice. Then in the afternoon Simon took the boys to the beach and for a big walk on the pier so that I could FINALLY complete my (LONG OVERDUE) B.A.S for the tax department.
But wait there's more.....now poor little Talyn is sick with the same bug Caleb had :( His started on the weekend and this morning he was absolutely burning up when I got him out of bed. I stripped him down to his nappy and dosed him up on Panadol and Nurofen but all he wanted to do was to be held by me. So amongst the morning chaos I just sat with him on the lounge for nearly an hour, curled up in my lap, clinging to me :( Poor little bubba. He brightened up a bit in time to take Caleb to school then he did at least have some breakfast when we got back but after a quick trip to the post office, chemist and butcher he had fallen asleep in the car - which he NEVER does. So he's been tucked up in bed - oh what timing he has as he's just woken now.
Bugger! Well I'll have to leave it here for now. I'll get back tomorrow to finalise the challenge and talk more weight wise. What ever happened to my ordered routine life??? Tee-he
TFTD: "Live by example!!!"
Cheers P
Tuesday 2nd September 2008....
Well we went to the Muster on the weekend and had a FANTASTIC time!!! We camped in our cars, walked up a down a gazillion hills, enjoyed live music, the crowds, the atmosphere and more then a few drinks *wink*
Now this week I am working full time doing a week's training. It has completely thrown out my entire schedule and I have no idea how so many mom's manage the full time job thing every week!
Needless to say I've been too busy to update, and while I may get back one evening this week for an update I may not. So for now let's just say I'll be back on Monday I'll catch you up on all the week's happenings and I have a few more serious things to discuss also.
Talk more on Monday :)
TFTD: "If you are going to talk the talk make damn sure you walk the walk!!!"
Cheers P
Tuesday 26th August 2008....
Aargh!! I can't believe how behind I've got on things around here. 5 days without my internet access completely threw me and I've only just now caught up on my emails, my Facebook and my challenge stats.
As for the challenge....it's exciting! At this stage we are sitting on 1001.2kg lost with only 3 more results yet to come in. I think it will be VERY close!! I REALLY hope we make it to our 1000kg goal - but even if we don't it won't matter :) It will just mean I'll have to run another challenge to get us over that finish line. After all...I did TERRIBLE on this last challenge with an overall gain *blush* so I'd really like the chance to redeem myself. I usually do work much harder on my weight during a challenge but this last time I just lost focus.
In fact I've really lost focus in general :( I haven't exercised since before I got sick (AGAIN!) and even now I still don't think my chest/lungs are up to running or anything too strenuous. No excuse not to walk at least though I know. This arvo I am going to do an hour of lawn mowing so that will be a good start in getting back on track.
I haven't weighed in for two weeks and I just feel like I'm barely keeping my head above water.
Today I was in Target and I noticed all the new swimwear out for the coming swimming season. Every year I'm so scared of summer arriving and the less clothes that it means. I hate to be overdressed for the heat, I hate to be sweaty and I hate to feel fat and frumpy in summer.
I have to keep it in focus at all times now - when I'm tempted to eat the wrong thing or slack off I have to tell myself "SUMMER IS COMING!!!" After all, what do I want more...some short term satisfaction or the thrill of feeling good all summer. As well as our own pool our close friends have just put in a pool this year and they really only know me as the one who sits around the pool, dressed, but never get's in. This year I HAVE to change that!
This morning I even made the first step towards that by putting some new swimmers on layby. I got a one piece and a halter top and board shorts. The togs are all 18's but the board shorts are 16 and are the short style of shorts - GULP! But I already have plenty of long board shorts and short shorts can't look any worse then swimmers alone so to hell with it. Bring on Summer this year - I WILL BE READY!! :)
TFTD: "Make the changes that will make the difference!!!"
Cheers P
Saturday 23rd August 2008....
I'm back!!!
At long bloody last. First I've been really sick and then (no) thanks to Dodo I was without internet access for 5 days. 5days!!!! It was torture *wink*
So now I have a heap of challenge stats to update which I'm going to do straight away now rather then leave you all wait any longer for that. Then tomorrow or Monday I'll come back for a BIG update with all the latest catch-up news as we head into a new week.
Sorry for the absence guys :)
TFTD: "No success is ever final!!!"
Cheers P
Wednesday 13th August 2008....
I'm sick. Really sick. Again!!!!
Will be back with more chat when I'm feeling better but for now had to say just one thing....
WE MADE IT!!!!!!!!
Finally. After the dozen challenges I have run on this site. As a group - we have now lost over 1000kg!!!!!!!!!!!! Congrats to you all!!!!
TFTD: "With a little bit of effort and a will to succeed - we can do anything!!!"
Cheers P
Monday 11th August 2008....
Well Monday rolls around again....ho-hum :)
We had a very big weekend this week and I think I now need another weekend to get over it :)
Friday night I went out to the pub and Simon and Caleb had a boys night camping in the backyard - Brrrr! They had a ball sleeping in the tent and toasting marshmallows over the small fire they lit :)
Saturday morning we were up early for Talyn's swimming lessons then that evening we set ourselves up down the Esplanade on a blanket with the boys to watch the illuminated street float parade which was heaps of fun. Talyn was a bit of a terror while we waited but was immediately mesmerized as soon as the floats, trucks and bands etc started going past.
Then Sunday morning we were up early to take the boys to the annual Teddy Bear's Picnic in the Park which is a great family outing and we all had a great time. Then I was off grocery shopping in the afternoon while Simon and my Dad began work on the mammoth cubby house they are building in the back yard for the boys. It's meant to be a Xmas surprise so for now Caleb just think's it's a storage shed of sorts but I think he'll soon work out what's going on.
Exercise wise....well, as planned I did get up at 5am Friday morning (after not getting to bed after Thursday night work until midnight) and I was down in the dark, FREEZING cold Esplanade ready to start the class at 5.30am. It was so bloody cold but we soon warmed up. It was pretty intense too! Lot's of running, jumping ricochet's, lunges, squats, abs, skipping in the sand, relay sprints on the beach etc etc. Heaps of variety and a really, really good workout. It only cost $7 - bargain! The only downside is the time but I'm hoping to get to at least one a week which would be good.
I tell you what though! EVERY SINGLE INCH of my body hurt the next day. OH MY GOD!! Even my ribs hurt to breath from all the ab work, and trying to walk or sit down gracefully - forget it!!! Still I do like that next day (ok next 3 day) pain as it really helps you to remember just how hard you've worked!
This morning I'm only just now starting to come good but I was so tired by last night there was no way I could make it up at 5am today for another one. That leaves me only Thursday morning (before working all night) or Friday morning (after working all night) to chose from now to get my one session in this week. Hmmm??? I think I'll try the Thursday this week.
This morning I headed out to the beach with Talyn in his pram hoping for a big walk. He had other plans though and his screaming/wailing had me turning for home earlier then I'd hoped. Still I had done 45min's walking by that stage and this afternoon I'll be doing an hour of lawn mowing so not too bad for the day. It is Monday after all and I have a dreadful case of Monday-itis!!! *wink*
TFTD: "Progress is not without it's price!"
Cheers P
Thursday 7th August 2008....
I could write a post today about how frustrated I am that I gained again last night at WW. 0.6kg gain in fact! I could point out that I am now below my half way mark again. I could point out that my BMI is now back into the 32's. I could talk about the fact that after 4 weeks of the Race to 1000kg challenge I'm still sitting at an overall gain! I could say that I feel like a total loser in the loser stakes of late.
But I won't say any of that *wink*
I'd only sound like a whinging cow and let's face it, as one of my favourite sayings goes - Only I can make the difference!! I hate reading whiny posts almost as much as I hate writing them! :) So let's try to see the positives instead.
I weighed in at least. I could have avoided it like I (kind of) did last week. Actually speaking of that. I may as well get honest! I kind of did weigh in last week. I was working there that night and although I didn't weigh-in officially, I did take a quick step on the scales when no-one was looking. I almost died on the spot to see a 3kg gain! 3kg!!!! So if you look at it that way, the fact I gained 0.6kg this week - means I actually lost 2.4kg! :) However the fact that I was still going to register a gain meant that I REALLY REALLY didn't want to go last night. But I have learnt the hard way that is a slippery slope to ruin for me so I had to face it. To be honest I'm glad I did actually. Now any loss I do get this week will show :)
Another thing I feel happy about this week was exercise. Not only did I FINALLY tackle the challenging week 4 of the c25k running program but I made it through it just fine! And not only did I do session one on Monday but I also did session two on Tuesday. Now I only have one more to go this week and I will have achieved another goal by completing wk 4!! I plan to do the last session on the weekend.
I also plan to do a lot more exercise this week. Last week, in addition to the 2 x c25k sessions I did I also did a 50min pram walk with Talyn. But...as usual....all this exercise occurred between Mon-Wed. I get so worked up in the lead up to weigh-in that I try to eat less and less (though I usually blow it and break out then feel awful about it), I try to exercise every day and to be honest I think I'm a pretty awful person to live with during this time of the week.
So this week....I must make a change! I must exercise all through the week. I must eat well all through the week instead of going crazy until the weekend is over then desperately trying to undo the damage.
In that vein I have a plan! I work until midnight tonight which makes me VERY tired and irritable on Friday. But so what. I'm going to be tired anyway so I may as well just get up early as well and do a good job of it *wink* I heard about an exercise class that starts at 5.45am tomorrow morning (Thanks Karan! - hope to see you there) and at first I thought "Oh I can't do that on a Friday - too early/too tired". But why can't I? I go to the pub most Friday nights and stay out till well after midnight so why can't I get up early too and try to do something good for myself? So that's my plan :) Exercise class down the beach tomorrow morning. A c25k run on the weekend. Two more c25k runs from week 5 (GASP! - am VERY scared of week 5!) on Monday and Tuesday and a pram walk or bike ride on Wednesday with Talyn.
I'm also getting straight into the good eating choices. I've planned and tracked for today and I think this is the only way to achieve my goals! I've set myself a goal to finish the challenge on an overall loss and I have a weekend getaway coming up at the end of this month that I'd really like to be in the 95's for by then.
It's time to stop dilly-dallying! Time to put in the effort that is required if I want to achieve what I set out to achieve many years ago. I'm about half way - it's time to move on towards the finish line at LONG last!!!
I feel really good about this week! I CAN DO THIS!! As my home page says - BE COMMITTED - DO WHAT IT TAKES- HAVE WHAT I WANT!!!!!!!!!
TFTD: "Become the kind of person you are proud of!!"
Cheers P
Tuesday 5th August 2008....
Oooh!!! It's getting close now! Only 0.5kg to go to make our 1000kg lost goal at the challenge!!!!! Wow! :)
I'm not sure I'm going to be the one to contribute that loss though :( I just don't know what's going on lately but no matter how hard I try the scales just won't move!! It's so hard not to get discouraged and just say "F*ck it all!!"...which I do think on a daily basis. But logic prevails and I know that won't help anything. So I just keep slogging it out hoping for a break in the scales soon. I guess I'm just on some sort of plateau at the moment....but then that would be ok....but going UP - not so ok.
In the spirit of success though I went out for a c25k run yesterday. It was my first go at week 4 and I was really nervous as to whether or not I'd be able to get through it as it was a significant increase in running time to last week.
But I did it - and I made it!! I was red faced and dripping with sweat by the end but I was grinning :) It just goes to show that you can do a program like this, you can run and you can achieve your goals (well some of them at least *tee-he*) no matter what your size.
Don't tell me you are too unfit or too fat to run in public either! Hello! Imagine my almost 100kg body jiggling and wobbling as I ran along beside all the sunbathing beauties on the beach in their bikini's. Sure I hate to be looked at - HATE it! But at the end of the day I'd rather someone look at me out running and trying to do something about my weight/fitness/health then see me in some cafe chowing down on a donut! Don't you think?
One other thing I did yesterday - I drank water! Now it was only about 500ml so hardly earth shattering stuff...but since in reality - I'd probably be lucky to drink that much straight water in an entire week (I kid you not!!!) ...well let's just say it was a good start :) I'll aim to do the same if not better today also.
Ok....well on that note. I'm out of here! Tomorrow night is weigh-in for me and to be honest I'm dreading it. I'm expecting a gain. However I'm continuing to hope that by some slim chance I may wake to find a miracle on my scales in the morning. Finger's crossed :)
TFTD: "We teach best what we once needed most!!"
Cheers P
Monday 4th August 2008....
Yikes!!!
I know I'm way behind updates and I'm still too flat out today to say much but I just wanted to let you know I was around and I'll be back tomorrow with a better update. For now I've just updated all the challenge stats (more on that soon) and I also created a new guestbook (link below this entry) as the other had been filled up by all you lovely people who take the time and effort to sign it for me - a BIG thanks to you
all!!!! :)
Now as you know this challenge is hoping to finally tip us over the 1000kg lost mark. And right now we are only 1.3kg away from that magic number. 1000kg!!!!!!! Can you believe that!!! Keep at it girls!!
Talk more tomorrow :)
TFTD: "Never let a cookie tell you what to do!!"
Cheers P
Tuesday 29th July 2008....
What a day!
I've been so busy today and I have 15min's to spare until tea is cooked now so I thought I'd better come on and do a quick update :)
We had a lovely weekend here. We went to Fraser Island on Friday evening for our nephews (non)-Naming Ceremony and then I went out to the pub after that. Crawled into bed about 3am and back up at 8am. Saturday night we had a friend over and he and I consumed a bottle of vodka between us and once again I was crawling into bed about 2am - though this time at least I did get to sleep in until 9am so that was lovely. We spent the day visiting friends and I tackled the grocery shopping and that was about it. Another weekend gone :)
Yesterday I finally got day 3 of my c25k Week 3 program done - Again! Now onto week 4 this week - Eeek! The wet weather all day had meant I didn't get to do it until late afternoon yesterday and then the tide was in so I had to do it on the Esplanade instead of the beach *blush* but it went fine. If anyone was looking at me good luck to them I say!!! *wink*
Today I was at a loose end of what to do for exercise. It was finally a fine day but oh oh oh so cold and I felt like doing something different. So I set up Talyn on the baby seat on my bike and off we went for a ride. It was my first ride with him but he went great (I used to ride heaps with Caleb in the baby seat). We visited my Dad's house and lapped around the neighborhood and by the end I'd spent 35min's of actual riding - and against a mean wind most of the way. I'm sure my butt is going to be sore tomorrow as it's been a while but I need to get back into that routine of varying my exercise and getting good full body workouts.
On that note - this afternoon I had planned to run on the beach or do a 1hr walk on the Esplanade. Then I got to looking at the lawns that had been neglected on the weekend and chose to stay home and mow them for exercise instead. It takes me a full hour to do and thanks to all the rain we've had it was pretty heavy going so bound to have been a good exercise choice for me :)
Exercise this week is now:
-1 x 30min c25k running session
-35min bike ride
-1hr lawn mowing
Tomorrow I'm planning another bike ride and a toning session. Keep you posted :)
TFTD: "The only limits we have are those we impose upon ourselves!!"
Cheers P
Thursday 24th July 2008....
Well I made a loss this week. Only 0.4kg but I'm happy with that :)
I noticed when I was updating my ticker above just now that I am exactly at my half way point once more. I HOPE this is the last time I am and that I can now move on towards my challenge goal of 95kg and finally put that 100+kg past well behind me for good!
Oh how I can't wait to be back in the 80s once more!!!!
TFTD: "You are as happy as you make up your mind to be!!"
Cheers P
Tuesday 22nd July 2008....
Ho-hum. I'm struggling a bit of late :(
I do a little good then I do a little bad...and so it goes on. I'm sure many of you out there can relate to that! :)
As I explained in Thursday's entry (below) I have recently given up smoking again and because I really only smoked of an evening I really only struggle with it of an evening...and then I just want to EAT EAT EAT!!!! *tee-he*
Yesterday I did great all day food wise. I did 30 min's beach run/walk in the afternoon (more on that soon) and had a good tea. Then I could literally think of nothing else but chocolate and cigarette's!! I was determined not to give in to the cigarette's. I suspect that the chocolate craving had more to do with TTOM which had arrived yesterday as that's really the only time each month that I really feel like I could eat my whole body weight in chocolate! And yet I gave in to it :(
And not just gave in to it....I had to actually go out and buy some since I don't ever keep those sorts of foods in the house for that very reason. I went out and bought ice-cream and chocolate topping which Simon and I both enjoyed while watching the finale of Big Brother. D'oh!!
I woke up this morning very disappointed in myself and even more so after looking at the scales :( But nothing can be done about it now but to work hard today and tomorrow and just hope for the best for weigh-in tomorrow night. I may still gain but I can't change that so no use sooking about it *wink* Golly my challenge stats are not going to look good though if I gain the first two weeks in a row!!!!
I did at least FINALLY get back to a c25k session yesterday at long last! At this rate I'm never going to finish the program!!! It had been so long since I last finished week 3 I started that week over again. I'll be doing the 2nd session of it this afternoon and session 3 tomorrow morning. It felt good to be back at it and it was lovely to do it on the beach for a change :)
Today I have to eat carefully. Rather then fill up on the stodgy carbs I am craving today I have just made myself a big tuna salad - Yummy!! In fact, enough chat here...I'm going to go eat my salad now.
Later!!! :)
TFTD: "Begin as you intend to continue!!"
Cheers P
Sunday 20th July 2008....
Has been a busy busy day today.
In the spirit of my house/life de-cluttering/cleaning bug that I have going on we have finally done a job today that we have talked of doing for a long time.
We have always had lot's of pets....for most of the past we've had at least one or two dogs, 1 cat, 1 bird and 3 big 4-foot fish tanks with various inhabitants...ranging from saltwater fish, to fresh and everything in between as far as breeds go. As you know we re-homed our pooch after Talyn was born (to Granny so we still get to see him all the time) and our cat died of a snake bite last year and the bird too passed on to the great birdcage in the sky *wink*....that left us with our 3 big fish tanks.
Today we have got rid of two of them and kept just the one 4-foot tank and I am thrilled!!! It's something I've wanted to do for so long as I just wasn't keeping up with the maintenance and stocking of all three of them....but now we have just one big beautiful community tropical tank and as a bonus I now have HEAPS of room to spare in the dining room where the other two previously lived. It's great!!! We found new homes for all our old fish at my Dad's house in his big tanks and ponds so that worked out really well :) And of course in the process of moving them the tank is now all sparkly clean and the previously unreachable area's under them have also had a nice spring clean :) Lovely.
Our bed got a make-over last night too when Simon's mom gave us a feather doona for our bed. We have always only ever had a very thin cheap doona so to snuggle up under feathers (50% goose down, 50% goose feather)....ooh it was so divine!!! It will take a little bit of getting used to the crinkly noise of it moving but oh the warmth was pure heaven!!! And now our previously flat, thin doona on our bed is now so thick and lush looking that I have to resist the urge to lie on it each time I pass it! Tee-he.
So tomorrow I get to move around some furniture and experiment with my new found space in the dining room. I know I am at least going to bring back out Caleb's little painted wooden table and chairs set for both the boys to use now that I have more space as it never is more then a glorified toy storage area in Caleb's room at the moment. I know Caleb loved it at the age the Talyn is now....it made him feel very independent and grown up with his own little table. I can just see the two of them on it now... :) :)
Hope you are all having a wonderful weekend!!!!
TFTD: "The best way to escape from a problem is to solve it!!"
Cheers P
Saturday 19th July 2008....
Nothing really to say today :)
Simon is working all day today. I'm entertaining the boys.....will probably take them to feed the ducks later today and for a walk on the beach just for something to do?
I went out last night....had WAY many too many vodka/redbulls....must be careful for the rest of the week now :)
I've just updated all the latest stats for the challenge page....I'm REALLY hoping we can smash that 1000kg mark this time!!!
Have a great weekend everyone :)
TFTD: "What you leave in your children is more important than what you leave to them!!"
Cheers P
Thursday 17th July 2008....
I did it!
I faced those scales even though I didn't want to as I knew I would gain. As is usual....it turned out it wasn't half as bad as I'd expected :)
I gained 0.5kg. Given that I'd been away on holidays and am due TTOM next week - well let's just say I can live with that! Not a great start to my challenge but it's honest and I know I won't be the only challenger to have a bad week :)
There's another factor that I had until now kept to myself that is no doubt influencing my weight this week. I wasn't going to share it with you all but I may as well be completely honest.
No I'm not pregnant!! *tee-he* But I am trying to quit smoking!
Yes!! I expect the fact that I even smoke shocks a lot of you as many of you know that I am usually an avid anti-smoker. Let me explain it more.....
I began smoking full time in grade 12 (1992) and smoked up until 2002 when I began the advanced fertility treatment and so quit the cigs 2wk's before falling pregnant with Caleb. Being pregnant for 9months and then breastfeeding for 9months made it easy for me to quit because there is no way on god's green earth that I would EVER smoke while pregnant or nursing (something I am VERY VERY passionate about!). Sometime in the year or so after this I began to have the occasional ciggy when drinking alcohol...that then became more often until I was actually buying a small pack everytime I went to the pub. Then...surprise!...I fell pregnant with Talyn and so easily ended my smoking once more. Then, like before, a few months after I stopped breastfeeding, I began to have the occasional smoke with a drink and Simon (who pretty much has a similar smoking history to me) did also. Then it grew until we both began full time smoking again a few months ago.
I say full time but in my case I have always been very much a social smoker. I don't smoke during the day when I'm home alone or with the kids and I don't smoke at night unless I am with other's or in a social situation. But put an alcoholic drink in front of me and you may as well call me smokey-smokerson!! (Bit of a FRIENDS in-joke there)
The one saving grace, in my view, is that we never smoked in front of Caleb or around Talyn. I do not want Caleb to see us smoking and lately it's just got harder and harder to do that. Hence our decision that we simply must quit - not just for our health and the passive smoking health of our children (even though we ALWAYS smoked outside and stay well away I don't even like to be smoking anywhere near them)...but mainly to set the best example we can for our boys. Hence we are now quitting.
We had our last cig's 10am Sunday morning before we left Brisbane to come home. We had no more Sunday or all day Monday. We had a minor slip up on Monday night, in a social situation, when we had a few each. Once again on Tuesday morning we stopped and have not had any since then. So we count Tuesday as our stopped day and today is day 3. Slowly but surely we are making it through!!
It is hard though...and in my case...it's VERY hard not to nibble to take my mind off the cig's. Very hard! It's like quitting two vices at once. But I will make it. It may make weight loss a little haywire for a while but I'll get through this :)
So there you go! The ugly truth is out *wink*
Ok.....I think I've raved enough for one day. Oh before I go I wanted to say a very special hello and hugs to Rebecca!!! This wonderful women has been a long term reader of my site and we've emailed a lot over the years. She is always leaving messages of encouragement on my guestbook (see link below this entry) and her support means a lot to me. But this week she shocked the hell out of me! She told me that she has set this page as her home page on her computer! My page as her home page!!!! *blush* I don't know that I deserve that but wow it sure made me feel nice and since then it's really helped me to be more regular with my updates...can't let Bex's home page get stale now can I? *tee-he*
I've got to work to midnight tonight....ho-hum. At least tomorrow is Friday!!! :)
Thanks for reading everyone!
TFTD: "A misty morning does not signify a cloudy day!!"
Cheers P
Wednesday 16th July 2008....
Well....I finally woke up to the reason of my sudden gain on the scales....D'oh! I'd forgotten to factor in TTOM which is due on Monday. It always lead me to gain in the week before. I don't know why I hadn't thought of that earlier???
Another peak at my scales today leads me to expect a gain of about 1-1.5kg I think. Not at all the way I'd like to start my new challenge but at the same time I'm grateful that it is challenge time or I know I would avoid the scales this week and god know's I've learnt the hard way were that get's me!
So stay tuned tomorrow for the official damage *wink*
And in case you missed it, see yesterday's entry for links to the boys latest updates and also lot's of new photo's of us all :)
TFTD: "You are as successful as you make up your mind to be!!!"
Cheers P
Tuesday 15th July 2008....
Aaargh!
I peaked at my home scales today and almost DIED to see a gain of up to 2kg!!??
2kg?? How is that even possible?? I'm hoping to god it's some weird fluid trick my body is playing on me and that it will be settled down by tomorrow??
I know I went a bit off track while away on the weekend but no where NEAR that off track!!!!!
A gain like that is bad enough on any week but as my wk 1 result for the new Challenge....No!!!!!! Talk about letting down the team! Tee-he
But...sadly....it is what it is :) I'm still going to weigh-in tomorrow night, I'm still going to record whatever it says and most importantly....I'll still keep on keeping on. All I can do is use this as a good example of how to show others not to let one bad week get you down
I've dithered around for a few weeks now and while this may not be the best start I am determined to FINALLY break into those 95kg's by the end of this challenge if it kills me *wink*
I've updated Caleb's page as promised with all the details of our museum holiday and his latest happenings. See Caleb's Page.
There is also a new update for Talyn's latest drama (long story so see update on page) at Talyn's Travels and new pic's of him also at Talyn's Pics
Phew....all up to date at last!
TFTD: "Well begun is half done!!!"
Cheers P
Monday 14th July 2008....
Man alive!!!
I have been so busy these last few days my head is spinning!!
What with a trip to Brisbane on the weekend to take the boys to the museum and art gallery....then unpacking and washing/vacuuming and cleaning the car today, getting shopping done, getting Talyn to a Dr's appointment for immunisations this morning as well as tackling a MOUNTAIN of washing and getting everything ready for Caleb to start school again tomorrow....well let's just say I've been BUSY AS!!!
So tomorrow, when the boy is back at school and Talyn is down for his nap, I'll come back here and fill you all in. I'll also be updating both the boys pages and adding photo's from our weekend away for you to see.
In the meantime I'm off to update the latest challenge stats!
So for now.....I'll see you all tomorrow :)
TFTD: "Failure is success if we learn from it!!!"
Cheers P
Thursday 10th July 2008....
Ugh! Another work day rolls around....blah!
The best thing about Thursday work nights...is that they are followed by Friday's *wink* Then this Saturday we are leaving about 5am to travel to Brisbane and take the boys to the museum and art gallery for the day then spend the night at my sisters before returning home on Sunday. Should be fun! :)
Slowly I have been getting new members for the latest challenge. For those who may not know, the Race to 1000kg Challenge starts next week and this is the week to sign up and submit your start weights. (see challenge page on above link for details)
I was just looking at the numbers and to break through the 1000kg total lost for all my online challenges we need only to lose another 15.9kg. With our current list of participants sitting at 8 that's less then 2kg each...we can do that!!! But sometimes some people do gain...and usually at least one person drops out without notice etc....I really really want to crack that 1000kg mark so if you are thinking about it...now's the time to join us :)
I found out a funny secret about my husband this week - he's been secretly exercising!!! Tee-he. Now Simon is by no means in need of weight loss. He has always been self conscious of the fact he's so slim but in recent years he has gained a few kg's - probably up to 10kg or so. This has only made him look "normal" as he says rather then "skinny". However it turns out that he was missing his tight abs of before and defined arms that he had when he was training heavily for TaeKwonDo. So while I've been working, at WW or exercising myself - he's been doing push-ups, crunches and other toning exercises.
And already it shows! Which makes me hate him just a little bit (Joking of course!!) How great would it be to do just 3wk's work and be able to see the difference like that? As I said to him last night, I have to work hard for more like 2 months to actually SEE any difference in my body. But good for him and good for me too as I reap the benefits of a yummier then usual hubby *wink*
However it did get me thinking. Why don't I do this?? I'm home alone with the boys day in and day out. I do prefer to do my hour walks etc alone as a way of combining my exercise with some time out from the kids....but toning I could do during the day. I could do crunches, dips, push-ups, lunges etc every day. I know I can easily do 25,50,even 100 of some of those so imagine how that could add up?? I could do 700 crunches a week, 175 dips, 175 push ups and 350 lunges a week. Just imagine what that could achieve over time!!!! So what better time then now.
I'm going to sign off here and go do some work. Besides it is absolutely FREEZING today so I could do with some more body warmth :)
TFTD: "Tomorrow is not promised to us, so take today and make the most of it!!!"
Cheers P
Tuesday 8th July 2008....
Went to update as usual this morning then realised that already it was time to create a new page for the new quarter! Yikes!! Where is this year going??
Anyhoo...now I've spent so long doing this I'm clean out of time so I'll have to come back tomorrow to update more.
Until then....don't forget.....NEW CHALLENGE starts next week! This is the 'start weight week' this week. Check out the challenge page for all the details :)
TFTD: "No matter how far you have gone on the wrong track, turn back!!!"
Cheers P
