Friday, 31st December 2004...
Well....as 2004 draws to a close I look forward to 2005 with great enthusiasm. :) There is nothing quite like the dawn of a new year to give your motivation a super-boost! I hate to start a new diet in the New Year because I always feel like a bit of a hypocrite to wait until then, but this year at least I have long ago begun this journey.
I have had the expected challenges over Christmas but I hope the damage will not be too bad?
This morning the scales were my friend. They registered 113.8kg which is 1.1kg less then they were on Boxing Day but still 2kg more than last weigh-in. However as the morning of my last weigh-in started well into the 112's yet still registered 111.8kg on the night I know I'm not too far from my goal. I know that overall my goal was to stay within 1kg of my last weigh-in before Christmas. While I expect I shall achieve that goal (I hope - perhaps as long as I don't drink my body weight in vodka tonight!)
I still would really love to loose on that first week back. Even a loss of 0.1kg would be a mega-success for me. Paulene loosing weight over Christmas....unheard of!!!!!
Yesterday went so well...up to a point. I had my low point lunch (the chicken still remains in tact in the fridge). I had a low point tea of BBQ marinated chicken breast and skewer with point free salad, point free dressing, a boiled egg and slice of low fat cheese. As usual though the late evening was my downfall. Simon was busy on the computer and PS2 so I settled in bed with a magazine....and some chicken sticks - dammit!!! I had bought them and many other temptations, for guests at tonight's party :( While there are many other such naughties for the skinnies tonight I have also got some rice crackers and sals, popcorn and fresh fruit for myself and my WW buddy who will also be at the party tonight. Having another WW'er there will really help to keep me in line I think :) (Thanks M!)
Tomorrow I will re-start Dr Phil's Ultimate Weight Solution. I read most of it earlier this year but did not give it the attention it deserved. Tomorrow I am making a fresh start on it. This will involve setting up my 'no-fail environment' and getting rid of any naughty party left overs that may be lingering in the house. If I can't see it I won't eat it! :)
But enough of that. I'm still glad the scales are returning to normal for now and I still have a childish glee that the new year...and the new beginnings it brings....is almost upon us.
Good luck to everyone in 2005. May we all achieve our wildest dreams!!!!! Have a safe New Year everyone....don't drink and drive.....and HAVE FUN!!
Cheers to 2004!
P
Thursday, 30th December 2004..
Just wanted to share a little self-victory I have had today thanks to many of you out there. It's 12.15pm and I haven't eaten yet so was starving when we went to Woolies to pick up goodies for tomorrow nights party. Ended up buying half a hot chook and thought I'd have a couple of my favorite toasted sanga's with cheese, chicken and sweet chili sauce. Then when lunch time rolled around I couldn't be bothered making the toasted sandwiches so just thought I'd pick at the chicken as it was (knowing I'd end up eating most of it).
But that was before reading all the other weight loss site's I visit. After reading how good everyone is doing and wants to do for the new year I just couldn't let myself slip again today. I really want that loss or maintenance at my next weigh in.
So....instead I have just finished heating a frozen WW meal (my fave one chicken chow mien) and I have defrosted a brown bread roll (no marg) and I know I'll feel much better for that decision!!
Thanks to you!!!!!!
Cheers P
Wednesday, 29th December 2004...
Geeze holidays do funny things to my mind and memory! As I prepared to start this entry I just spent several minutes going back over my last entries and trying to work out what day it was and how many I had neglected to leave entries for. With Simon home from work and the world gone silly season silly, each day blends into the next and weekends are no different to week days.
Anyhoo... moving on :)
Well yesterday was a good day for points....last night was not. Caleb spent the night with Granny and Simon and I went out to an Italian restaurant for tea then met a friend at the pub for drinks. It was a great atmosphere, great food, great lemon ruski's and ... well you get the picture. I had garlic bread for entree, veal seafood for main and profiteroles for dessert. Then add in 4 vodka cruisers, 4 lemon ruski's and.... well again.... you get the picture :) But boy was it a fun night. No regrets!
Ok maybe one...my head. This morning and in fact almost all day I have suffered the ill effects of my night on the town. But there is a small diamond hidden in this rough. I went to the gym this morning!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hung over, on it's first day open after Christmas, I make the still unfathomable decision to put my head - and body - through a gym workout!!!
It was so busy I had to wait for ages to get into the circuit and then when I did I contemplated leaving at every station change. My head throbbed, their air-con was out of order, the music was so loud it made my bones ache and all I could think of was "wasn't exercise meant to make me feel good???" I felt like crap. I felt like crap for ages after. But I also felt really proud...and hubby said he was really proud of me too....ahh shucks!
I had a great day of food today....only ten points in and 7.5 bonus points earned when disaster struck. Simon decided he didn't feel like the BBQ of marinated breast fillets I had planned for tea....he wanted KFC. I put up a fight...honest I did...but I caved in. Not to him in the end but me :( Dammit Dammit Dammit. It was Chinese that I had...nothing can be done about it now.
Tomorrow I will go to the gym again and I will do the same Friday. I will have a great point day tomorrow and move forward!!
On a totally unrelated note....my boy had a marvelous achievement today. He used the potty!!!!! We took his nappy off for a bath and thought he looked about to wee so we sat him on the potty and said to do wee-wee and he pushed and voila!!! We made such a fuss he was tickled pink!! I think he'll want to try out the potty more often now ;) Ahh....my baby boy is growing so fast.
Cheers P
Monday, 27th December 2004...
For anyone surfing in since last night please note the P.S additional note below.
Finished yesterday dead on points as I said with 2.5 bonus points unused. In one short day I was sorely tempted several times. I almost got take away lunch, I almost had a high point tea and I almost snacked on high point food in the evening....and that's on day 1 of motivation!!!! But the best part is I resisted the lot and woke up today feeling like I haven't in a long while. Feeling fat but feeling like I am doing something about it again. Just before Xmas when I was down to the 111's kg I felt like I was a size 12 almost! I was buying sleevleless tops, new pants in size 18 and generally feeling great about myself. I shall feel that way again!
So far I have eaten 10 points today and have a stir-fry planned for tea and stawberries and chocolate WW ice-cream for desert....Yummmy! We went out this morning and played a game of tenpin bowling (Caleb too!) but I will still try to get some more active exercise in this afternoon.
I have at last caught up on all the other journals I read and feel chocked up with motivation thanks to them all. See my links page for details of journals that I read.
I have just added some new info to my 'my story' page. I got a great idea from Angels journal of a list of several 3 things about me. Amanda's journal had a great list of interesting facts too which I have adapted to a list of 50 interesting (or not) trivial tidbits you may not have known about me. Have a read and let me know what you think???
Cheers P
P.S...
Have also added virtual model images of me on the photo's page at start weight and 5kg down mark so you can see my progress without me having to get near nekid on the net *wink* :)
PPS.. have finished today right on my allowed 24 points and have earned 2.5 bonus points from a bike ride that I'll be saving for another day :) Such success on Boxing Day is unheard of for me :)
Off to bed now to read Slimming magazine.
Goodnight all!
Cheers P
Sunday, 26th December 2004...
Ho Ho Ho....Christmas is over for another year!
Hope everyone reading this had a great Christmas because I know we
did :) As planned we had present opening and BBQ breakfast at Granny's house, then headed back here for lunch and a day of fun in the pool, playing ping-pong, using the new PS2 Santa got Simon *wink* and just generally lolling around with big fat tummy's!!
Caleb got so many great pressies I couldn't list them all. Some of his favorites included Tonka Dump Truck, Tonka Excavator, Multi function art easel (so far only using chalk board but we are going to do some painting this afternoon on it), Leapfrog Learning Pad, and so so many more! Simon loved his PS2 as I suspected he would although I found out that he knew he was getting it after stumbling on it in an email to a friend...doh!
And the eating....oy was there eating...but that's Christmas after all :) I ate whatever I wanted, and have done for the last few days too :) This morning though I am back on track with renewed enthusiasm, dedication and determination.
I haven't tracked a full day for many weeks now but I'm back at it now. I haven't exercised since Monday but this afternoon we are all going for a family bike ride.
I have jumped on the scales every day watching the numbers climb and climb and feeling totally unmotivated to do anything about it. My nasty little inner voice was telling me...."ah big surprise...she's fallen off the wagon as she always does and now she'll gain it all back plus some!" But not this time little voice :) Ok so the scales are up about 2-3kg but I'm not that concerned. For one I know that even one or two days of good eating will knock a kilo or more off that straight away just from fluid loss and avoiding the over full bloated feeling. Secondly I have 10 days until the first weight watchers weigh in of the new year and I can work bloody wonders in that time. Thirdly...It's Christmas!! I am certainly not the only dieter to have a little splurge over the silly season and I don't regret a minute of it. The important part is getting back into the saddle ASAP - as I have done today and make 2005 the year I achieve my weight loss goals and dreams!
So there you have it. My Christmas, my confessions and my hopes for the new year.
We had a lot of computer problems this last week or so and my access to the net has been sporadic and unreliable so on Christmas Eve we went out and splurged on a new computer!!! Totally impulse buy but totally needed so not so bad. We still have our original monitor but just updated the brain, mouse and keyboard (which many of our visitors will be thankful for as the letters on the old keyboard had long since worn off, which is fine for Simon and I who are competent touch typists but not so good for visitors who weren't...hehehehe). Of course now we are in the process of reloading all our programs and such onto this new one but I am glad that I at least have my site builder and email up and going (although not my address book yet). The new one is so much bigger, faster and better than the last one. I am especially pleased to have a DVD burner now to go with my CD burner. The new PC also has a multi card reader so I can slot my video camera and digital still camera memory sticks straight in for up-loading.......yeah!
It also means that when I put the boy down for his nap in a few minutes I can finally catch up on all the other journals I read. It's been at least 2 weeks since I have been able to make it to some of them so I have a lot of catching up to do.
Simon is home on holidays at the moment until after New Years which is lovely!!! Caleb loves having Daddy around every day and as we are taking it day about in turn to get up to Caleb in the mornings we are both having lots of lovely sleep-ins and family time together :)
Anyway enough for now. Barring any celebratory type interruptions I should be back to updating daily again from now on so stay tuned for the lead up to the New Year weigh in. Just think...I may even loose weight over Christmas for the first time ever!!!!! :)
Cheers P
Tuesday, 21st December 2004...
Finally!!!
I was beginning to think I'd never make it back. I have been having some terrible computer problems thanks to bloody viruses and have been offline of late....but relived to be back (for now). If I disappear again you'll know why :)
I have had a terrible week this week!! So bad in fact that I will be going to my meeting this week but using my first 'no weigh pass'. Christmas time and all it entails is such a difficult time of year to loose weight in and I have nothing but admiration and respect for those who manage it!
I on the other hand have not managed it and rather then end my year on a bummer note I choose not to weight and that gives me two weeks to get things back on track for the first weigh in of the new year. I am a little upset that I let myself down in the 11th hour but I'm human :(
I am pleased that I will still attend the meeting and gather a support top up before Christmas is apon us at least :) Better than not going at all as I would have in the past.
Here's a "how-not-to-survive Christmas guide":
Holiday Eating Tips
1. Avoid carrot sticks. Anyone who puts carrots on a holiday buffet table knows nothing of the Christmas spirit. In fact, if you see carrots, leave immediately. Go next door, where they're serving rum balls.
2. Drink as much eggnog as you can. And quickly. Like fine single-malt scotch, it's rare. In fact, it's even rarer than single-malt scotch. You can't find it any other time of year but now. So drink up! Who cares that it has 10,000 calories in every sip? It's not as if you're going to turn into an eggnog-catholic or something. It's a treat. Enjoy it. Have one for me. Have two. It's later than you think. It's Christmas!
3. If something comes with gravy, use it. That's the whole point of gravy. Gravy does not stand alone. Pour it on. Make a volcano out of your mashed potatoes. Fill it with gravy. Eat the volcano. Repeat.
4. As for mashed potatoes, always ask if they're made with skim milk or whole milk. If it's skim, pass. Why bother? It's like buying a sports car with an automatic transmission.
5. Do not have a snack before going to a party in an effort to control your eating. The whole point of going to a Christmas party is to eat other people's food for free. Lots of it. Hello?
6. Under no circumstances should you exercise between now and New Year's. You can do that in January when you have nothing else to do. This is the time for long naps, which you'll need after circling the buffet table while carrying a 10-pound plate of food and that vat of eggnog.
7. If you come across something really good at a buffet table, like frosted Christmas cookies in the shape and size of Santa, position yourself near them and don't budge. Have as many as you can before becoming the centre of attention. They're like a beautiful pair of shoes. If you leave them behind, you're never going to see them again.
8. Same for pies. Apple. Pumpkin. Mincemeat. Have a slice of each. Or, if you don't like mincemeat, have two apples and one pumpkin. Always have three. When else do you get to have more than one dessert? Labor Day?
9. Did someone mention fruitcake? Granted, it's loaded with the mandatory celebratory calories, but avoid it at all cost. I mean, have some standards.
10. One final tip: If you don't feel terrible when you leave the party or get up from the table, you haven't been paying attention. Reread tips; start over, but hurry, January is just around the corner.
Remember this motto to live by:
"Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, chocolate in one hand, martini in the other, body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming "WOO HOO what a ride!"
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!
Cheers P
Friday, 17th December 2004...
Firstly I'd like to thank all those lovely souls who emailed, sms'd or tagged my guestbook this week...too many to name individually but you know who you are and how much your support means to me so...thanks a bunch!! :)
I didn't get to stay at my meeting this week as I had Caleb with me while Simon attended a funeral/ashes scattering. I was disappointed to miss my first one but it couldn't be avoided and at least I still made it to the weigh in. I've got Buckley's of making 110kg by next Wednesday but I don't mind. As long as the numbers keep creeping down I'm a happy girl!
I'm really pleased with my exercise of late. I have been mixing it up with gym workouts, walks around the neighborhood or down the Esplanade, beach walks and bike rides. I think the combination will give me the best odds of toning as I loose and avoiding too much loose skin at the end of this journey? I hope!
Had a most pleasurable shopping experience yesterday....I bought a pair of size 18 pants!! Granted they are snug but I'm wearing them now and feeling fab! Although I have other sz 18 shorts that are still too small it felt great to know that some are starting to fit and that I am moving away from my previous norm of about sz22...thank god! I am also having to stop wearing some of my old shorts and pants as they sag in the crotch and bum - not a nice look by any stretch of the imagination!!!!
I am absolutely loving my new Nike Air shoes and they feel amazing!! I'll never go back to cheap joggers now.
Well the weekend is apon us once more... I really want to pull off another loss for the last weigh in of the year so I'd best stay on track this weekend if I have any hope.
I have not had a chance to read any other journals for the last few days so must go catch up now while I can.
Cheers P
Wednesday, 15th December 2004...
I did it!!! Not only did I loose again this week but I reached another goal! The loss was only a small 0.3kg but that was enough to bring me 20kg down from my highest weight ever (when Pregnant)!
And now that's 7 losses in a row!!! Holy smoke that's amazing for me.
Granted things have slowed down the last two weeks since our house guests arrived and I have been eating naughty food with them but they move out this weekend so that should help too - except for that little thing ... called CHRISTMAS!!
Cheers P
Tuesday, 14th December 2004...
Well it's 7am but thanks to a dark overcast morning I think the boy may have a sleep in so I hope to get this entry out with a little more depth then the quickie I churned out yesterday.
Scales are still showing a small gain this morning but nothing like last week so I'm sure that by tomorrow evening all will be good (without any last minute starving this week). I am hoping to hit my next goal of 112kg tomorrow night...that will be 20kg less then my heaviest weight when pregnant....woo-hoo!
I still really hoped to reach 110kg by last weigh in of the year next week but that seems unlikely. I worry about the effects of Christmas day but I figure if I only let myself go two days in total (Christmas and New Year's Eve) I should be alright. I want to be able to eat and drink what I like both days without stress but don't want to let it run into a 7 day binge. As we have a 2 week break until first weigh in of next year I'm sure I can undo any damage done. And if not well who cares....who doesn't gain a little over Xmas after all?? Perspective Paulene!! My goal though is to maintain or at least gain less than 1kg and I hope I can achieve that?? As we are hosting a New Year's party this year I should be able to make point friendly snacks....though trying not to drink my body weight in Lemon Ruski's and Crown beer may be a challenge *wink*
I am so excited about my new shoes and gym clothes that I can't wait to go and work out today :) My mother in law is coming with me this afternoon so I look forward to putting those shoes through their paces!! I'm going to work back up to jogging very slowly so as to prevent another injury. I might try jogging at each alternative recovery station today and see how I go?? If I get any pain then I'll leave it for another week before trying again?
I was talking to a fellow journaller this morning about progress pics. I have only posted the most flattering one's (still unflattering but not so bad) and I want to get 'real' one's done. In my bather's front, back and side to really show any progress I can make. Admittedly I won't post any bather one's to this site until I can see quite a difference but eventually they will make it on. I really want to be able to watch my body shrink so that it all seems real to me and I can hopefully avoid the trap that so many seem to fall in of not updating their own self image as they shrink and still seeing the old 'fat' them.
Anyway that's enough for now.
Before I go then I just wanted to give a special thanks to Lady Misstree ... you are a regular in my guest book and always have such positive and helpful tips. Your journal is one of my favorites and it's flattering that you should take the time to read and share in my journey ..... so Thanks! :)
Cheers P
Monday, 13th December 2004...
Well another weekend has passed....not entirely successful but still better than the usual! If a 'normal' weekends eating and exercise was 5 on a scale of 1-10 (1 being worst and 10 best) I'd say I've just had a 7. Not enough exercise and a little too many evening munchies after drinkies but overall not too bad!
Had a bit of a working bee here over the weekend and demolished an old vege garden, built two new gardens and built a sandpit. The back yard is looking lovely now and Caleb loves his sandpit!! Will have to post some pics. Also got Caleb's santa photo's done over the weekend as as Simon and I are also in the pic will post that too when I collect it on Wednesday. :)
Went to the gym this morning. Really didn't want to as it is as hot as hell here today...literally I am guessing....thank god this place is air-con!! Thought it best I just get the gym over with then come home and cool down so glad I did :)
Made a few purchases for me this morning too! Got two pairs of 3/4 bike pants for the gym and a flash pair of Nike Air shoes for the gym. The shoes were $160 marked down to $89 which was a bargain. I made sure they had good arch support as the physio suggested and they are sooo comfy!!! Coming from a girl who's only ever worn cheap joggers I guess any Nike's would feel good :) I can't wait to wear them to the gym tomorrow....Nike 'Just Do It'!!!! I'll be back jogging on those recovery stations in no time once my tendonitis clears up :)
My other purchase was almost as exciting. I got this gorgeous sexy black, low-cut top and a black free flowing skirt with sexy hem split to wear to the New Year's Eve Party we are hosting....they were both size 18!!!!!!!! Now granted the top is tight and will be worn under another open shirt and the skirt is flowing....but sitll....18!!! Very Happy! :)
Have a yummy crock pot BBQ chicken bubbling away in kitchen for tonight's tea.....Mmmmm! Now going to have my usual salmon and multi-grain corn thins for lunch - which I just can't get enough of lately :)
Hoping for a comfortable loss this week!
Cheers P
Friday, 10th December 2004...
Yippee it's F-F-Friday! :)
I am feeling on top of the world today and do you wanna know why?
I have been naughty *snicker*
But not too naughty! I didn't pig out or something....I peeped at the scales....and they were kind...very kind!
As opposed to the 111.9kg reading I got Wednesday after my day of fast.....this morning I showed a 'real' weight of 111.9kg!!!! 111 point something!!!!! Halle-bloody-lujah!! I know it doesn't count until Wednesday night's official weigh in but still.....I can't wipe the grin off my face this morning! I even did a little jig around hubby chanting "111...111...111" ...... hehehe! :)
It's a great way to head into my weekend as I'm determined to beat the weekend curse for a change. I will not sabotage myself this weekend! On Sunday we are meeting some friends at a local park for lunch and a kiddie play date and I have already decided I will be having a 6" sub from Subway across the road and I'll take some other low point snacks along. One of the mom's there is my friend from WW anyway so I know she'll be supportive of low point snacks too!
I had a little personal victory last night too. As I mentioned earlier my sister in law and her hubby are staying with us at the moment and they were kind enough to cook dinner for us last night. But it was a high point fiasco waiting to happen - but oh so yummy!!!! It was a lovely steak with salad....but not just an ordinary stead and salad. The steak was topped with brie cheese, avocado and bernaise sauce! So I scraped off the cheese and avocado and just had a little of the sauce. I only had about one tablespoon of the creamy potato salad that was on the side ....AND.... I passed on the piece of pan bread on the side (you know the Sizzler type thick bread with butter spread thick on one side?). I added a little WW free french dressing on my green salad and and enjoyed the boiled egg on the side. Not too bad I reckon....I think my little overhaul saved me at least 10-15 points!!! (The pan bread alone would have been 5 points!). So not only did I get to enjoy a meal that I didn't have to cook for a change but I finished it feeling very proud of the waist friendly alterations I had made to it....hopefully without offending the chef :)
So all up feeling great...as I said...and ready to tackle my weekend!
Cheers P
Thursday, 9th December 2004...
Holy Crap that was close!
I lost 100 grams last night....practically nothing but as I was totally expecting to gain I was super stoked to loose anything.
Not that the 100 gram loss came easy....I ate nothing but a cup of watermelon up until weigh in last night but still did a 10 min walk plus a 30 minute hard gym workout just to get that loss. I know that's not a responsible weight loss management strategy but it was really important for me not to gain and so I did what I had to do.
And do you know what's even scarier?? Before I left home I weighed 111.9kg naked....111.9kg!! It was surreal just to see any number starting with 111 so now I have had a brief taste I want to reach that number for real next week.
My next goal is only 100 grams away to reach 112kg - 20kg less than my highest weight when pregnant. However I want to get to 111 point anything instead....wow that would feel great! Of course I still have 2.9kg in two weeks to loose if I want to loose 10kg before Christmas...not likely so I'm keeping the 110kg mark in mind instead....even that is a high call but I'm gonna work at it :)
I know what my downfall was last week and the week before.... I didn't track! So back to it today....strictly tracking all that enters my mouth...every lick, sip and taste!
I did achieve one really great thing this week though....I exercised EVERY DAY! Every day! I have never exercised every day for 7 days straight ever in my life that I can remember so Yey me! I'm sure that's what made the difference between a teeny loss and a big gain :)
I've been given a second chance this week and I do not want to have to starve next Wednesday to record a loss so I want to have a great week this week....wish me luck :)
Cheers P
Wednesday, 8th December 2004...
Well in the words of Ms Britney Spears (or Mrs Federline if you want to be picky!)....."Oops I did it again!!"
Dammit! I have eaten myself into a corner that I don't know if I'll get out of in time.....Eeek!
With only 11hrs until weigh-in time my scales are still showing that I will gain anywhere up to one whole kilo!!!! Dammit!!!!
I know it's not just eating as by all respects it hasn't been a bad week and there have been no major blowouts that I recall now looking back. A few days that points were a little over but lots of great days too. And I exercised like a Trojan....EVERY DAY THIS WEEK!....now that's amazing for me. So why the gain?? I know why of course - that horrible time of month. But dammit it's so unfair....woe is me :(
Old me is screaming at the top of her lungs...DON'T WEIGH IN TONIGHT AT ALL COSTS! - think of an excuse not to go....use one of my two 'no-weigh passes' tonight, eat like a bird all day (if at all) and exercise like you're at a boot camp today......do anything just don't record a gain!
New me says "Don't be such a fool Paulene"! So I may gain....so what. I never expected to get through this whole journey without one gain after all...in fact in the time it will take I know I'll have many. Just take it on the chin and do better next week.
I feel like I have a giant clock over my head today going 'tick-tock, tick-tock' .. the scale police are coming! So I'll do my best to have an active and low point day (within reason) and just take it as it comes. If I gain I'll be bitterly disappointed but I'll live. Who know's... maybe it will be the impetus I need to have a GREAT week next week??
Then again I have expected a gain the last 2 weeks too and have recorded losses....who knows what this body of mine may do by 6PM....god forbid I could even stay the same or loose like 100 grams.
Still no use speculating....will just have to wait and see!
Tick-tock, tick-tock!
Cheers P
Tuesday, 7th December 2004...
Had a great day yesterday...finished under points too thanks to avoiding evening munchies!
I had to collect Caleb from daycare early yesterday when he had an allergic reaction. They suggested it could have been the wipes or coming into contact with another child's milk at afternoon tea. Hmm....I did a patch test with a wipe and was none too surprised to see that wasn't it. I am really angry about this and shall be making a formal complaint in writing this time. In Caleb's case it's hives, rashes and scratches but for a child with a nut allergy it could mean death and it's just not good enough!
On a happier note we had Caleb's friend Jordyn around for a play date this morning which was lovely for a change. Much better than battling the Christmas/tourist crowds out and about.
Anyway I have only had a bowl of watermelon today and I am starving so off to have my fave WW frozen meal for lunch...chicken chow mien...Yummy!! I'm also going to try a Nestle Diet yoghurt that's choc-banana with choc flakes and only 1.5 points...sounds great but I'll let you know how it tasted.
Got TTOM yesterday and scales have subsequently jumped up so hoping things settle before tomorrow's weigh in??
Cheers P
Monday, 6th December 2004...
Monday, glorious Monday! While most hate Monday's I quite like them as Monday is Caleb's daycare day and I can get to the gym early for a change, and the rest of the day is mine to do child free errands, housework and relax with my latest issue of NW :)
While I did go to the gym this morning I was unable to work at my usual intensity thanks to my damn ankle! I tried jogging on a few recovery stations but it was no use and I had to go back to walking. For my troubles it's now aching and is tender to walk on so it's time I stopped hoping it would fix itself and made myself an appointment to have it looked at. I guess a physio might be a good starting point??
I had really got to like the jogging and felt very disappointed that I couldn't do it today but better that then to do myself some permanent injury.
As usual my weekend was shocking! Great exercise but lousy eating. Why is it so hard on the weekends to stay on track?? At least the activity helps to counteract a little I guess? Friday morning we went to the beach with Granny and 3 dogs (note to self : no dogs next time!), then on Saturday arvo Hubby joined us for another beach jaunt. Then Sunday morning we packed up the bikes, met Granny and spent an hour riding along the Esplanade....much to Caleb's delight as he LVOES bike rides...and it's really important to us to lead by example to him an active healthy lifestyle. Great workout and surprisingly no pain in my ankle during that?? And counting today's gym that's 5 days out of 5 that I have exercise this WW week so far...yey!
Really have to reign in my eating over the next 3 days though if I have any chance of a loss on Wednesday night....dammit! This was exactly what I said I would avoid this week yet here I am again :( Bloody weekends....I think my resolve and determination goes away for the weekend!
Anyway lots to do today so best keep moving. We bought a wooden table and chairs set for Caleb at the markets last weekend and today I am painting it in vivid red, blue and yellow! It's a lot of fun although I'm sure hubby the painter will have something to say of my technique?? lol oh well too bad...I feel like quite the little renovator :)
Oh and I also achieved a great thing on Saturday....I have now officially finished my Christmas shopping for 2004....all wrapped, tagged and ready to go...woo-hoo! Now today I just have to make all my Christmas cards so I can get them out too...I usually have them out in November but it takes a little more time and effort to make them myself so I'm a bit behind schedule this year. Best go start now!
Cheers P
Friday, 3rd December 2004...
Thank god it's F-f-f-friday!!
I love the weekends as my darling hubby gets up to Caleb and I get to sleep in....yey for me!!! :)
Well boy did I kick ass yesterday! Early morning (like 7am) Caleb and I went to the beach so as to avoid the heat and need for sunscreen etc. This time we just went with no prams, bags etc and I just followed him wherever he wanted to go. He excitedly ran from one shell, to cuttlefish, to leaf...having an absolute blast. We wandered around for about 45mins but I only counted it as 2 bonus points as I was hardly working hard. It was so much fun that we are going again this morning when he wakes...with the dog this time.
My eating yesterday was also great! In fact the only negative was that I only ate 16.5 points and didn't make the 20 minimum...let alone 24 maximum. It wasn't through lack of trying though! I had some tin spaghetti for breakfast, a prawn roll for lunch and delish chili chicken burger for tea...followed up by mixed berries and WW ice-cream for dessert.....Yummo!!!! I should have tried to have some more fruit with lunch to boost the points but I didn't realise until this morning when I totalled up just how low the points were.
Still Friday and Saturday nights are traditionally troublesome for me so a few extra points up my sleeve will be handy. I got back into my tracking yesterday and really want to have a great week this week. If I just make each day a success I can eagerly anticipate my next weigh-in with no fear or guilt.
Yesterday I checked my stats and this page had 40 hits after it was updated.....40!! That's about twice as many as I thought read it so how cool is that. Obviously most are silent readers but I don't mind....it's great that so many people would even give a hoot about what I do or say anyway????
I am still eagerly awaiting the outcome of the WW assessment of my site to see if it is worthy of inclusion in their site. I am really hopeful that they consider me a worthy example and open my site up to an even wider audience.
Well that's enough for now I guess. After the beach today we have playgroup so that should make for a good active morning. I am so pumped right now that I feel like I could conquer the world!!! Yey me! *wink*
Cheers P
Thursday, 2nd December 2004...
I did it......5 meetings in a row......and 5 losses in a row!
This week my loss was 800 grams bringing my total now lost to 7kg in 5 weeks!!! Feeling super stoked about that! While I was expecting a loss I was thinking more like half a kilo so I was grinning like a fool when I read how much I had melted away this week.
The weigh in desk had one of those fake fat blobs that weighs 7kg so by picking that up I could equate with just how much I had lost. I also got to nurse my friends little bub during the meeting who weighs 7.2kg and I couldn't believe I was that much lighter!!
Yesterday afternoon I went for that 1hr beach walk and it was great. Despite going to the gym 3 days a week now it had been ages since I'd done a 1hr walk and boy did I feel it! It was quite windy down the beach and with the pram sinking into the sand all the time it must have made for quite a workout because by the time I got back to the car I was stuffed. In comparison Caleb had such a good time that this morning after breakfast he and I are heading back there just to let him roam on foot and play in the shallows this time. With no pram watching restrictions this time we can wander as far as he likes :) Hubby has also planned a jogging session on Friday afternoon so Caleb and I will ride the bike beside him. Beach visits, gym workouts and bike rides should make for a good varied exercise quota this week. While my ankle was sore after my walk yesterday and most of last night it feels much better this morning so I am hoping it is on the mend?
Found out in last nights meeting that they are holding a retention reward program over Xmas. This just means that if you attend 5 out of 6 meetings starting from next week you get a great free gift. It's a WW brand new DVD which is all about nutrition, fitness etc and is valued at over $30 so how cool is that? I definitely want to win one of those so I must keep up my great attendance. The group meets all over the silly season except for the one Wednesday between Xmas and new year...and let's face it...... who won't need an extra week to work off Christmas indulgences *wink*
Only 200 grams to go until my next goal now!! That is to reach 112kg which is 20kg less then my highest weight when 9 months pregnant. After that I think my next goal is 109.9 kg? I am still heading in the right direction for my Xmas goal of 10kg lost. 3 more kilo's in 3 weeks is unlikely but at least it's keeping me motivated in the meantime. And my 2nd goal is only 2.3kg away so I might make that instead?
Anyway I can hear my little darling stirring so I might go organize breakfast so we can get to the beach. Then it's off to the library later this morning to get him his next weeks worth of books (we go through about 18 a week!).
7kg less of me huh?? Holy smokes!
Cheers P
Wednesday, 1st December 2004...
Eeek is it December already!!! lol Despite earlier protestations (to you Janene) I have now finished all my Christmas shopping except a couple of layby's to collect so I feel a lot more relaxed about the rapidly approaching silly season!
Well it's weigh day today. Peaking at the scales today have led me to believe that I will have a loss but how much remains to be seen. I'll be happy with any loss so I don't mind. I'm feeling really good about having 4 losses in a row (soon to be 5 I hope) and I don't care how slow or how little. Day by day I am shrinking at last and it feels great! :) After so many half hearted efforts at this weight loss thing I really feel like I've turned a corner now. I want success so badly I can taste it (pardon the pun!).
Staying for 5 meetings in a row must be a record too?? I used to weigh and leave all the time but not this time around. I really am picking up so many tips from the leader and the group and the support is great. Like the other week when I used refried beans in a dip - that was suggested at a meeting to use in nacho's and I'd never even seen refried beans before that let alone used them myself in cooking. Like they say 'Those who weigh and stay loose weight - those who weigh and stray loose interest'...so very true based on my past efforts (or lack of).
Had a hard workout at the gym yesterday but don't think I'll be able to go today now. My left ankle has been hurting since Monday but I don't know what I did to it?? As my right one now feels a little tender also I am hoping it's not the jogging at the gym?? The pain in the right is so mild though that it may just be due to compensating when I walk on the left causing me to put weight on the right in an odd way?? I went to the gym yesterday intending to only walk on the recovery stations but I so love jogging on them now that I just couldn't go back to walking :( So I'm going to give the gym a rest for today and head off shortly with Caleb in his pram for a 1hr walk along the Esplanade....lovely! I am hoping that won't aggravate my ankle any further and that it's just a sprain or something that I don't remember doing?
I went to a local warehouse liquidation sale yesterday and picked up two great pairs of denim shorts (one brown, one orange) for $8 each (bargain!) in size 18. As you know I am now wearing two other pairs of denim shorts that are a size 18 but stretch. The new one's definitely don't fit so it's only the stretch factor getting me into the existing ones. Not that I mind...I figure I'll try them on every few weeks and when I do finally fit into them I'll know I am truly a size 18!!! - after years of being in the size 22-24 the mere possibility of a size 18 seems impossible. I just have to remind myself that nothing it impossible if I work hard enough. I am wearing my charm reward bracelet today to remind myself that I have already lost over 5kg and that with determination, focus and effort I can one day turn that 5 into 40!!!!!
So fingers crossed for a good result tonight :) I think it's time we took our walk now so I'd best go get organized.
Cheers P
Tuesday, 30th November 2004...
Well despite promising a more substantial entry today I really don't have a lot to say :)
Still slack on the tracking since Friday :( I intend to pick it up again strictly after weigh-in night on the new week. Despite this I have been keeping a mental tally and according to a peak at the scales this morning I should be good for a loss this week? At this stage I am the same as last weigh in and with 2 more days (and 2 gym workouts) to go that number should fall more. After last Thursdays blowout it actually went up by more than a kilo but I've worked hard to get that back down to normal now...phew! :)
The scary (exhilarating) thing about a loss this week is that it will bring me into the 112's!!!!!!! HOLY COW it's been a long time since I weighed anywhere near that :)
I have recently said to hell with pride and begun wearing sleeveless tops again. I am well aware that it shows my 'tuckshop' arms in a less than favorable light but you know what.....?.. I don't care. I am much cooler and way more comfortable then sweating it out in a sleeved T-shirt and who doesn't know my arms (and all of me) is fat anyway so who am I trying to kid. They are predicting scorching temps of around 35 degrees by mid week and I have always dreaded summer as I hate sweating - and thanks to my Dad's gene's I sweat a lot (even when I was thin!). I have tired of looking at women with sleeveless tops and feeling envious of how cool they must feel. Look out world....my arms are on show....and you can think what you like *wink*.
Anyway after a couple less then ideal weeks I am focused on being more dedicated next WW week (thurs-wed). I haven't deserved the last 2 losses and I want to end next week feeling confident of a good loss. Plus I still have 3.8kg to loose before Xmas weigh-in so I need to start chipping away at that total.
Besides all that if I loose this week that will be 5 losses in a row!!!! Never done that before! :) But as each week goes by it sort of dawns on me....it can be this easy! Little by little I am shrinking and soon it will be noticeable to the outside observer and how great will that feel when people start to notice! Also I have much less self loathing and negativity now because even when I do think 'Ugh - so fat!' at least I can now tell myself that at least I am doing something about it. And to my eye (and hubby's) when I am in underwear I can see the difference in my tummy....and as they say "Nothing tastes as good as being slim feels"
Cheers P
Monday, 29th November 2004...
Just a quick entry today. Just wanted to let you know I had not vanished *wink*
Our temporary house guests have arrived and we are loving having more family nearby. As houseguest's visiting often do - my eating has been a little hit and miss over the weekend. No big blowout or anything thankfully...just slipped on my tracking for a bit.
Went to the gym this morning and sweated my ass off :) I am really loving it now and while I currently tend to go Mon, Tues, Wed I would like to add another late week one in when I can...hopefully this week?
Anyway my lunch is ready (WW frozen lasagne and wholemeal dinner roll....yum!) so must dash.
Will try to write a more substantial entry tomorrow!
Cheers P
Friday, 26th November 2004...
Well yesterday was a write off and I'm none too surprised about it! But I shan't be moaning about it .... I've already built my bridge and got over it :) Let's just chalk that up as one of the two days I have allowed myself to go over in points this week and make sure that the next 5-6 days are bloody awesome!
Caleb and I went to the florist then out to the cemetery first thing yesterday to visit my mom. I laid a bunch of mixed flowers while Caleb placed a single red gerbra (?spell)...very sweet :( The memorial in the paper looked great - they put a fancy border around it that I was not expecting and it looked wonderful. I played my usual Elvis on the day (mum's fave) and helped Caleb to 'remember' the Nanny he never met.
Caleb heads out to his extra day of daycare today and I have an AMAZING amount of housework I want to achieve. My Crisco hampers come today so I need to clean out my pantry and freezers first before unpacking 8 giant boxes. I also want to get all my weekly housework out of the way before what looks like a busy weekend is on me. My sister in law and her husband move in from Townsville this weekend so I also need to clean out some cupboards and crap from the spare room so they can move into it. If that's not enough I also have a laundry monster (what we call our pile of clean washing waiting to be hung/folded) that could rival King Kong! And that's just some of what I hope to achieve today.
Most importantly though I want to come in under points AND drink water, water, water. Any improvement on recent water intake would be a start but for today I am aiming at 2 litre's.
We have to go to my Dad's place tomorrow for a BBQ so I need to make some careful decisions there to stay under points. I'll try to save some today if I can. He's talking seafood with the BBQ anyway so maybe I can stick to that.....low point and DELICIOUS!
But anyway this is not getting my work done so I'd best dash. The boy is sleeping in so far this morning (6.30 now and no peep so far) so I might catch up on my other journals before taking a stab at that monster *wink*
Cheers P
Thursday, 25th November 2004...
Well I made that by the proverbial fly fart! :)
A loss of only 200 grams was a good wake up call last night. Don't get me wrong...I'm stoked to loose anything so I don't mind how small the loss - the end result is that I am still lighter than I was this time last week.. no matter by how little.
Looking back over the last week I can see why my loss was so small. When I added up my stickers I only came in under points on 2/7 days and exercised 3/7 days. This is no where near good enough!! As my under points days decrease so too do my losses. So this week it's time to remember the 'super-sentence'...."Eat no more than allowed points each day and exercise at least 3 times a week".....It's THAT easy!
My water intake has become appalling and I'd be lucky to drink a glass of water a day on average. Thankfully my coke intake has been fairly easily maintained on one can a day but diet Pepsi is no healthy alternative to water.
This week I need to refocus my goals to ensure a more substantial loss next week.
-Drink a minimum of 1 litre of water a day....but aim for 2 litre's
-Exercise 5 days this week
-Come in under points at least 5 days out of 7
I am still working towards my goal of 10kg lost by Christmas....that leaves 3.8kg to loose in the remaining 4 weigh-ins before then. A steep call but I like to aim high :) I won't beat myself up if I don't make it but there's no harm in trying.
I worked out super hard at the gym yesterday. I think I sweated at least a kilo off then and there*wink*. Then when I got home we headed out to deliver the monthly neighborhood watch pamphlets but on the way home I did something I would usually NEVER do.....I jogged in public...hehehe. I just wanted to see if I could do it??? I only jogged like 100m then walked a bit then jogged a bit then did the same again. All up I probably jogged for less than 200m easily but still it was a big achievement for me :) I'd love to build up to be able to jog for a decent stretch and I think I can do that if I keep working at my fitness as I have been.
I have also been informed by Weight Watchers Aus. that my journal is being considered for inclusion in their list of members journals on their website. I submitted the request thinking it would be ignored as all my past requests had but instead I got a lovely email back saying it would be perused for suitability and if found suitable could be listed in January. This would really increase the number of visitors to my site...hence increasing my already frequent guestbook entries.....which as you all know I love and find so motivating! I'll let you know what they decide.
Today is a sad day for me. Today, 9 years ago I lost my beautiful Mom to complications from chronic renal failure :( She was only 47 yrs old (I was 20). I have placed the memorial ad in the paper as I do every year and this morning Caleb and I will visit Nanny at the cemetery. This year he will be old enough to carry and place some flowers himself which I think will be very sweet. Of course my mom never met him, or the babies each of my sisters were carrying at the time of her death, or another boy since born....but I know she see's them all regardless. I tell Caleb that he has 3 guardian angels (Nanny, Aunty Muriel and Uncle Bill) who helped Mummy and Daddy to conceive him and who watches over him and keeps him safe always. Barely a day goes by that I don't miss my Mom like crazy and anniversaries are always the hardest :( But if she's watching me I know she would be proud of me and that's the best I can do.
So until next time....
Cheers P
Wednesday, 24th November 2004...
Gee Wednesday's come around fast when you are not looking forward to a weigh-in :)
According to my scales this morning I am heading for a small gain tonight...aarrggh!!!!
But they said that last week and by evening I had pulled off a 400g loss so never say never.
Will have to wait and see the verdict tonight??
At least yesterday was a great day :) Under points and a good gym workout to boot.
Probably a case of too little too late :(
Cheers P
Tuesday, 23rd November 2004...
Another day closer to weigh in and thankfully the scales are showing some improvement....still not a loss but they are again moving in the right direction :)
I am off to the gym again this afternoon to help things along further.
I was laying in bed last night feeling frustrated with my recent less then ideal eating. After much pondering, reflecting and self accusations it all boiled down to one simple sentence......
"Eat no more than allowed points each day and exercise at least 3 times a week".
That's It!
No secrets, no miracle solutions, no complicated rules and formula's.
Just that!
Stick to my points every day and exercise. How hard can that be??? When I though of it that way it seemed so easy.
"Just do it Paulene"
So do it I shall try, I have been blessed with a few good weeks....no gains yet... but if I were to continue on my current path of eating much less overall but still a few points over every day I would not be able to enjoy the same success in future.
This week and last I have spent each day bemoaning the scale results and panicking about whether things will improve in time for weigh-in. The first two weeks I didn't need to do this as they were going down, down, down. If I can just stick to the Super-Sentence above then I need worry no more??
It can be that easy right???
Cheers P
Monday, 22nd November 2004...
Another weekend down and Monday morning already......err well afternoon actually. Have had a super busy weekend - hence the lack of updates so let me just recap.
Friday we had people around for dinner and drinks as we usually do on a Friday night. I had a small serving of spaghetti bolognaise, one garlic bread stick and then just a mini ice-cream (1 point) late in the evening so yeah for me!!! :)
Saturday night we went out for a big night on the town while Caleb stayed with his Granny. Had a seafood basket for tea (yeah bad I know), 3 lemon ruski's, 3 vodka cruisers, and 4 Midori slush puppies.....gulp! But at least ate nothing after tea which was a big achievement for me :) Got home and into bed by about 2am so wasn't feeling too flash yesterday that's for sure :(
Yesterday's eating was good but again no exercise. Had planned on a bike ride in the afternoon but another trip to the hospital with Caleb put an end to that!! Nothing too bad....just a all over body rash which was apparently the end result of a viral infection. The temps of 40+ that we thought was due to teething were actually due to the virus. No temps now since Saturday morning so that's a relief after many sleepless nights.
Which brings us to today. I finally got back to the gym and did a good hard workout. I continue to jog on every recovery station now and it feel's great!!! I'd love to have a go on one of those electronic treadmills now just to see how long I could jog continuously (not brave to try it in public yet) *snicker*
Had my weigh and measure at the gym today too. If you remember I skipped last month when my weight jumped up with the last of the medication treatments so the following results are compared to my initial joining assessment. In total I have lost 4kg (on gym scales...as my starting weight was lower than my starting WW weight) and 23.5cm. I have lost 4cm off my bust, 4cm off my waist, 9cm off my abdomen, 4.5cm off my hips, 4cm off my arms and 1.4% off my body fat percentage. Not too shabby!!!! :)
I still cannot find a huge difference in most of my clothing but hubby dear says he can definitely see the difference around my tummy (god bless him!) so I'm hoping to feel more improvement soon. You'd think the scales and tape measure would be concrete enough evidence for me but it's not??
I am overdue for my period at the moment and I think I am carrying some extra fluid because of it???? I am up almost 1kg on scales today so I really hope that settles by Wednesday nights weigh in??? If not than at least I can take solace in my good cm loss anyway?
In the meantime I am tracking diligently, going to the gym for the next 2 days as well as crossing fingers and toes that the scales right themselves in time?
I have just added pics of my bracelet, charm and bookmark to the photo's page too if you want to see those :)
Cheers P
Thursday, 18th November 2004...
All together now 1...2...3....."ahhhhh" (collective sigh!) :)
I made another loss.......PHEW!! I didn't think I would and I probably didn't deserve it but I was blessed all the same.
I lost 400g which brings my total now lost to 6kg in 3 weeks....very happy with that :)
My exercise was great last week and I'm sure that's the only thing that saved me in the end. For the week my stickers were only 3/7 days for staying in points but thankfully 6/7 days for exercise....that's what made the difference I believe??
I just made a series of poor food choices and let my tracking slip a little. so this week must carefully track, track, track!
The best part is I get to fill up anther box in my kitchen star chart for each kg lost....I love that part! I currently keep it inside my pantry door but maybe when I am a little further through the boxes I might move it to my fridge door...not quite that brave yet....hehehe.
I would like to reach 10kg lost by Christmas?? That's another 4kg to loose in 5 weeks. A pretty steep call but not entirely impossible??? I won't make it a formal goal.......just a "I wish" kinda one *wink* Something to aim high for.
As Xmas is approaching I am a little apprehensive about the festive season and all the diet traps it contains. But hey it's Christmas right?? No use sweating about it now...I'll do the best when it comes and that's the best I can do. :)
Cheers P
Wednesday, 17th November 2004...
Well it's D-day...or weigh day....gulp!
I am feeling no where near as confident as I was the last few weeks that's for sure. I'm packing it that the bloody mudcake will be my downfall. My home scales show a slight gain at this point in time. However after a day of eating - minus a gym workout this afternoon anything could happen between now and 6PM. Either way if it's a loss it'll be a small one I'm betting....which don't get me wrong....that would be great!
If it's a gain......well so be it. Build a bridge and get over it! I can only move on from my mistakes and make more of an effort this week.
Eeek I just want to know already ..... lol
Came in under points yesterday...finally! It's funny how one slip can lead to an overall slide. Each day prior to yesterday I went over points...not a lot - just one food item usually but over all the same.
I have put in super gym efforts both Monday and yesterday and will again today. I am still jogging every recovery station now at gym and I really notice the difference in my fatigue levels etc. Hope it helps tonight's weigh-in too.......hehehe can you taste my desperation??
On a brighter note, today, Simon and I celebrate our 12yr anniversary as a couple. For those of you doing the math....yes we met young. In fact we have been together since the end of year 12......high school sweethearts if you like? Hope my meeting tonight gives me something else to celebrate as well as the anniversary.
Will keep you posted
Cheers P
Monday, 15th November 2004...
Ok well after a lack of weekend updates I thought I had better get on and give you a rundown before today was out.
I hate weekends!! Well actually I love weekends because hubby is home but my healthy eating plan (note absence of word 'diet' hehehe) hates weekends!! Friday and Saturday evenings are always bad for me?? I can eat well during the days but night time hits and it's poor food choices and a healthy intake of vodka ruski's!
My usual hosting of a Friday night BBQ and drinks for friends and family went pretty good except for maybe a little too much Mexican dip with my vege chips at the end of the evening? I found a great recipe for it in my 'Simply too good to be true' recipe books - for anyone not familiar there are 4 issues all up, available from newsagents for about $13 each, that are jam packed with low fat recipes, nutritional panels and drool worthy color pics included for each recipe. Anyway this dip had refried beans (which I can't believe are so low in points!!), salsa, natural low fat yoghurt, avocado, taco seasoning, tomato, shallots and capsicum and just a light sprinkle of low fat grated cheese......very very yummy!!! Other than the dip and lemon ruski's I think Friday ended well :)
We were expecting visitors for Saturday evening so I went and bought a half of a cheesecake shop mudcake (I know!!! -what the hell was I thinking!?). Anyway the visitors never eventuated and Simon and I had this wicked 1/2 mudcake in the fridge calling my name. Admittedly I had a fairly healthy slice that first night (with cream - I know!) and last night had a much smaller piece...about finger width. But you know mudcake......evil, evil, evil! So now my scales have crept up a bit and I am on a desperate recovery mission to achieve another loss on Wednesday nights weigh in?? Maybe no chance but I'll give it my best shot.
I have been doing really well and dammed if I'll let two pieces of mudcake and a little dip steal my glory :) Having said that though if I have a little gain I guess I'll know why and have no-one to blame but myself! Still it's still 2 days until weigh in so you never know??? I'll be really disappointed if I do gain after my last 2 great weeks but knowing where I went wrong is half the battle I guess???
The good thing was that my exercise at least continued over the weekend. Nothing strenuous, just a bike ride with Simon and Caleb both evenings after dinner. Only 15 and 20 mins each but at least I'm getting more active over all and that's what will make the long term difference. Also after Simon raised my seat yesterday it is sooo much more comfortable to ride! I had it low enough for my feet to touch the ground because I was so scared of falling off with Caleb. But it's true what they say about riding a bike - you never forget! With the seat higher my legs can now almost straighten with each peddle so my knee's don't ache after only a few minutes any more....yey!!
Anyway I am hoping that the bike rides may help to counteract a little of the mudcake??? (tell her she's dreamin'!) lol lol lol
Oh well at least I am being truthful about it all :)
I've been to the gym already this morning and achieved a little personal challenge there. I jogged the entire 2.5 laps today on all the recovery stations! I am a little self conscious of it but it felt great to achieve and who gives a hoot how red-faced and sweaty I look. So many of the women only walk, and some barely manage a sway, so I feel really proud of building my previous march up to a jog. Especially since one of the loud songs they play is the rocky theme......go rocky!!! Excellent beat to jog to......now all I need is the sneer and muscle bulk and I'll take on Mr Balboa any day *wink* In all seriousness though the jogging really makes a difference to my stamina and by the end of the circuit today I was stuffed......now that's gotta be good :)
I picked up my charm bracelet from the jeweler's Friday afternoon but only got to enjoy it for one day before taking it back in yesterday to have another solder done on it. I want the ring holding the baby to the stork soldered shut as it looks like the baby could just slip out and be lost at any time.....and that would be horrible! This time it will take a week to be ready (don't ask me why as soldering the whole charm on only took over night!?). So anyway I shall have it back by next Friday and hope by then that I am feeling more deserving of it.
I know I have only had a small stumble but my little inner voice is saying "See this is what happens.....this is the beginning of the end for your unlikely success!"
Oh how I'd love to shut that voice up on weigh in night!!
Will have to work extra hard between now and then if I have any chance of achieving that.....Grrrrr!
cheers P
P.S...
Ok well I wrapped up this morning's entry in a hurry when the boy woke up so I thought I'd pop back in and add a bit more now...of course he is due to wake from arvo nap now so I probably won't get through it again....we'll see :)
Firstly I forgot to mention my charm bracelet! Of course now that I have lost my first 5kg it's charm time!! hehehe I got my first charm (the stork with baby) in the mail today which was perfect timing so it's now in the jewellers' waiting to be soldered on and I can pick it up tomorrow afternoon. I can hardly wait to wear it as a constant reminder of how far I've already come and what more I hope to achieve.
I also barely mentioned my WW 5kg reward bookmark. For those non-ww readers it's a bookmark with stars on it that says 'I've lost 5kg'. I have pinned it to my fridge were I can see it every time I'm in the kitchen and I can be proud of what I have already achieved.
When I get my bracelet back from the jewellers tomorrow I will post a pic of both it and my bookmark ok?
Actually a funny thing happened to me when I was at the shops this morning putting my bracelet into the jewellers. A women that I know (a relative of a friend) saw me and said "Wow you look like you've really been loosing some weight"!! Now if it had been anyone else I would have been stoked...and I still was pretty chuffed. It's just that the little voice inside me said....'oh she just said that because she had obviously heard about you joining WW from your friend'. Isn't it funny how negative our little inner voices can be?? I thanked her and told her how much I had lost but I couldn't, and still can't, believe she could actually *see* the difference?? But all insecurities aside I am going to still list that as my first 'brag' item....a list I will compile of all the positive reinforcement I get from others or experiences etc about loosing weight. This list will join my challenges and photo's page (below the photo's). Now of course this list cannot include all the many email and guestbook compliments I receive from readers out there or it would already be a mile long :) I do keep all weight loss related emails in a special folder so I can read it for a moral boost any time I need it....and I love reading back over my guestbook too! This list however will be from more external sources...eg the comment of a rarely seen friend or family member....or a new clothes sizing experience etc. Anything that gives external validation to that annoying little negative inner voice who will probably always view the outside me as the fat person I am currently no matter how much I may loose?
Another thing I forgot to mention was my gym workout yesterday. I went in the afternoon as planned and tried to improve on my other days achievement on jogging for 1/2 round on recovery stations. Well...yesterday I jogged on each recovery station (instead of the usual brisk walk that 80% people do) for an entire round!! That's huge for non-jogging me! And it wasn't even that hard really........so next time I'm going to try to beat that and keep going like that until I can jog on every recovery station all the way around......phew!! Don't care what it looks like as long as it shifts those kilo's!
As for my goals!! well the next one is 112kg....20kg lighter than my highest ever weight (when pregnant). I never expected to break 3 in one week and last night couldn't even remember what my next one would now be because I never thought I'd be aiming for it any time soon.
This morning when I woke up I had to stand on the scales again just to see that 113 point something just to believe it was really real *wink* It was a huge thing for me to break that 114kg barrier that I have been skirting around for years and now I can ever let my mind envisage what it would be like to break the 100kg barrier.....now that would be AMAZING!!!!!
Ok well I said I had more to say but I think I could go on forever so I'd best stop now while I can :) I am still riding the high from last night and feel able to accomplish anything!!!
I have had a low point day so far.....WW baked beans on dry toast for brekky, WW frozen dinner with bread roll for lunch and tonight I'm trying a new recipe from the new WW recipe book I bought last night called 'secret recipes'. It's for sweet chili beef burgers and looks delish. Only 6 points too. I've already made diet jelly and fruit for our desserts so today should end below points....another sticker for me!!!! Gee I am rewarding myself left right and centre!!
Cheers P
Thursday, 11th November 2004...
Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god!!!!
Had my weigh-in last night and not only made my next goal but in fact smashed 3 (count them 1 - 2 - 3!) goals last night in one foul swoop!!
No.1.....Lost 5kg in total....check!
No.2.....Reached 114kg, my lowest weight in years....check!
No.3.....Reached 113.9kg and beat my invisible floor........check!
How did I do all that in one night????
I lost 1.4kg this week - bringing my total loss to 5.6kg in two weeks!!!
Holy snapping duckpoop! I was so happy I was floating back to my seat I'm sure :)
I couldn't wipe the silly grin off my face when I had to stand up in front of everyone to accept my 5kg loss bookmark at the meeting :)
So there you have it guys and gals.....I think I really can do this! The 5kg loss I've got once before...actually my last go at WW I lost 5kg immediately before conceiving Caleb. 114kg....very excited. But the real icing on the cake for me was the 113.6kg!! I tried to work out last night when I had been in the 113's last and the closest I could come up with was at least 3-4yrs ago...maybe more!! I have yo-yoed between 114.5 and 120 for almost 4yrs now (not counting pregnancy of course) and now I have made it....I kicked 114's arse!!!!!
Can you feel my excitement?? I jumped out of bed at 5.30 this morning as soon as my eyes opened just to come and update this site. I want to scream it from the rooftops - I CAN DO THIS!
I do not want to ever see 114kg again!
Yesterday I made up a bright chart for my kitchen with a box for each kg I want to loose and another box for reaching goal. I already had 4 boxes full of stickers but this morning I can add another one...yey for me!
Speaking of stickers my total of reward stickers for the week was 5/7 days for eating below points, and 4/7 days for exercise :)
Look out this week....here I come!!!!!!!!!
Cheers P
Wednesday, 10th November 2004...
I'm back....sorry that I missed an update yesterday :)
Didn't miss much though......I finished under points (again!) and though I did not exercise yesterday I am hitting the gym again this afternoon.
Tonight is of course weigh-in night and I am relieved to see that the scales did finally move down this morning....phew!! Perhaps not enough to reach my 5kg mark this week but 5kg in two weeks was always a steep call anyway??? I was becoming concerned about the pause on the scales as I have put in another great week and had assumed on at least a small loss. As Ladymisstree mentioned in my guestbook such a big week 1 loss could mean a dramatic slowing down of things this week. The most important thing was that I didn't let it sabotage me! Before I would have thought...ahh to hell with this - I'm working so hard for nothing! This time however I told myself that they would move sooner or later as I knew I hadn't cheated at all and one alcohol infused Chinese blowout was unlikely to override a whole weeks worth of hard work. After all I have come in under points everyday except one (the Chinese day) and I have exercised 3 or 4 times this week already (lost count). I will post my weekly sticker tally tomorrow after the week is complete....however it's already a blitzer on last weeks efforts....yey for me :)
Will let you know the weigh-in results next update!
Cheers P
Monday, 8th November 2004...
Monday has been a busy day for me so far....but it's going to get a whole lot easier from here on in.
I have been super busy this morning getting Caleb ready for daycare, doing washing and hanging it out, making Simon's lunch for tomorrow, making Caleb's food for daycare, getting tea ready and into the crockpot, doing the daycare drop off, a gym workout, fully cleaning my car inside and out, bringing washing in and doing general housework...and it's only 11am!............but now.........I am finished!! The rest of the day is my own and it will start soon with a luxuriously long shower, lunch and Dr Phil and a brand new copy of NW (my favorite weekly gossip fix)....Heaven :) I have until 3.30PM before I collect Caleb and it's my only chance each week to take time out 110% just for me :)
Caleb is great today with no sign of a temp....although the poor little mite has 2 feint black eyes - I guess from yesterdays fevers? So he'll be fine at daycare and if not - they'll call me.
I feel great having finished yesterday with a point and a half still to spare and for having done my gym workout first thing this morning so it's out of the way. Not to mention the fact I get to see my tea (beef and vege casserole) slowly cooking in the crockpot and knowing all I'll have to do later is serve it up for all 3 of us...easy!
I was a little disappointed to see my scales today say that I am the same now as I was last weigh in...with only 3 more days until the next one....but it's early days yet I guess. Even though I know, and tell others, how bad it is to peak at scales all the time it truly does have it's advantages. For me seeing the numbers pause...or worse still go up...keeps me focused on my goals on a daily basis. The thrill of a drop makes me hungry for more and anything else brings out my stubborn determination. At least that is the case now because I know I'm working hard, not cheating it and giving it my best so I know.....that however slow it make take....those numbers will continue to decline.
But enough of that! I'm off to enjoy my day........hope you are enjoying yours!
Cheers P
Sunday, 7th November 2004...
Had a wonderful night on the town last night and somehow managed to not eat my body weight in Chinese food for dinner *wink*. As you know we went to the all you can eat Chinese restaurant and while I did go back for seconds they were two moderate plates...not piled high with the worst of the dishes on offer. I did drink 9 or 10 vodka lemon ruski's over the night though....which I'm sure had something to do with the 3 slices of thin pizza I ate at the end of the night when the other boys had a huge chow fest. I must add that the pizza I ate was chosen for me as I don't like deep pan crust that the boys wanted on their pizza. But I was plenty full after 3 slices (not surprisingly) so stopped then and there rather than continuing to graze gradually in my vodka fueled blur :)
So yes......went way over points yesterday (not that I have added them up to see just how much)........but feel ok about it. It was a planned splurge and one - thankfully - that we do not do very often.
The most important thing for me was that I didn't let it run into overeating today....which traditionally would be the norm for me. As it turned out today went nothing like we had planned but despite this I made the best of the situation. I missed breakfast entirely in the rush to go and collect Caleb from his granny's house when I heard he had spiked a fever and was most upset and needing his mommy. The poor little darling was sicker then I've ever seen him and stupid me didn't send any panadol with him overnight. I dosed him up with it immediately and in no time the fever was subsiding. After running around to chemists etc it was lunch time before I knew it and I decided to grab something while I was out getting a DVD. Take-away would have been easy but instead I got some hot chicken and fresh bread from Woolies and ate chicken sandwiches with low fat cheese...no butter, no mayo and no chicken skin. Yummy and guilt free :)
It was on for young and old though when Caleb woke from his arvo nap with a temp spiking 40 degrees plus!!! We spent the afternoon up at the hospital emergency room and my precious little babe was so unwell. He just wanted to be held and stroked by mommy and no one else would do. He was so hot and miserable and admittedly I was teary myself on several occasions while he was prodded and tested. They found some small ulcers on his tonsils so started anti-biotic's for that but also did a chest X-ray (his first) to make sure there was nothing else going on. Despite being given panadol on arrival his temp refused to drop until he had a second dose and we were finally able to head home just before tea time. I might add that today I had more tight, snuggly cuddles than I've ever had from Caleb and while that was lovely I was more than a little emotionally fragile from the days events. :(
The subject of take away came up for tea but I had quite the little mini victory over myself when I declared that I would again head to Woolies for a better alternative. I had a frozen WW meal and a multi-grain roll (no butter) instead and it was divine. Not only in taste but also in the satisfaction that I felt for my choice. I have even made a fresh fruit platter to nibble on while watching Idol on TV tonight. The old me would have not thought twice about soothing my soul with a greasy take away feast tonight but the new me took immense pride in my responsible decision not to medication feelings with food.....yey me! :)
So now the boy is dosed up with anti-biotic's, panadol and nurofen and god only knows what kind of night I have in store for me. I do at least have a feeling of contentment rather than guilt and shame over my eating today and I feel more than ready to tackle tomorrow with the same enthusiasm :)
Cheers P
Saturday, 6th November 2004...
Thanks you so much. The compliments and encouragements have just kept on rolling in since I posted my big loss on Thursday. It seems every time I check the computer there is yet another email there to say my guest book has been signed. Even since yesterday JustJo, Janene, Angel and Marion have all been so kind and encouraging that it's like popping a little happy pill ever time I read a new comment *wink*
Today is day 3 into a new week and I am proud to say that both days preceding this one I have given myself a little smiley sticker and ladybug sticker for sticking to points both days and exercising both days :) Yey for me!
When I went to the gym yesterday arvo I really gave it heaps too. I was so pumped up to go but as I have to wait for Simon to get home to watch Caleb I had lost a little enthusiasm for the task. Also friends arrived and it would have been much easier just to stay home and chat to them. But no way - I thought 'just do it' and you know what??......I did! I am setting a little challenge for myself at gym. At present I walk briskly on the spot on each recovery station (between every machine). All but a few do this but I always find myself looking at those who jog or do start jumps etc on recovery stations and think.....wow they must be fit. But why watch and wish when I can just do it myself? So that's just what I did. For now I only jogged for the last 1/2 lap of the circuit but next time I will try to extend that to maybe the whole last lap or every second station etc. Straight away I noticed my heart rate jumped from the ideal 60-70% exertion rate to the next one up so it's obviously going to work me harder. Of course I don't want to overdo it so I have to build up slowly but it's great to have a little challenge like this with myself. I also worked really hard on the machines and while a little sore this morning it will all be worth it next time I jump on those WW scales on Wednesday night!
Speaking of which I had a little peak at mine and am pleased to say they continue on their downward spiral.....yey!!!!!!! I am really hoping to achieve my first 5kg lost goal next week and then nothing will stop me!
I have found my first charm too. I bought it off Ebay and it should arrive late next week.....although I wont be adding it to my bracelet until I have earned it. It's a gold stork holding a swaddled baby in it's beak. This will symbolize to me what I am working so hard to achieve....another baby of my own but also to make a better life for the baby I already have :) To lead by example of what a healthy diet and exercise lifestyle is like and to ensure he does not grow up inheriting any of my bad eating habits and hang ups. I want so much better for my boy!!
And speaking of boy....he's having a sleep over at Granny's tonight so we are going to paint the town red! I went out today and got a new shirt and new pair of shoes for the occasion and will be wearing my new bracelet also (must post a pic of it next time I update). We and a friend are going to a Chinese smorgasbord restaurant first (gulp!) then onto some pubs for a blinder *wink*. I am hoping to make wise choices at Chinese and not overdo it but at the same time I am enjoying my night out and not being too fanatical. I have eaten very low points today prior to going out and I shall be right back on track with low point eating again in the morning. No exercise today but we are planning a family bike ride tomorrow so that will help burn off some Chinese and more than a few lemon ruski's *wink*
So that's it for now........thanks again for all the encouragement I have received and I'll let you know how I held up tonight.
Cheers P
Friday, 5th November 2004...
Well it seems one good week can lead to another after all. Yesterday I finished on only 18 points (not even counting 4 bonus points!!). I never finish much below points let alone 6-10 below!! It wasn't like I starved either. I had baked beans on toast for breakfast, English muffin home made mini Hawaiian pizza for lunch with watermelon, honey mustard glazed lamb cutlets, new potatoes and steamed beans for tea and a delish WW chocolate drumstick ice-cream for dessert....yummy! And to top all that off I had no coke (shock horror) and managed to fit in a 20min bike ride with Simon and Caleb in the afternoon. :)
I think I was so encouraged by all the lovely guestbook,email and even phone messages that I received yesterday that I was just super motivated to keep working 110% at this journey. LadyMissTree, Kate, Kelli, Amanda, Jacki, Karen and Donna.....Thanks!!!!
I took Caleb to watch Simon at TaeKwon Do training last night and not surprisingly spent the last half of it entertaining him on an outside verandah when he tired of sitting quietly in his stroller inside. I had 30mins just to think and all I could think about was 4.2kg!!!!
I got to thinking about how my atrocious eating and exercise habits had landed me in this position. About how I had let my entire 20's slip by making excuses for things I really wanted to do just because I was fat. About how, I had let things get so bad that I couldn't even make the womanly decision to have children when I wanted to because I had let the PCOS and subsequent weight get to such as stage that I was basically infertile.
Then I got to thinking about the 4.2kg. About how if I could do that I could do anything! Sure I will probably loose 0.5 - 1kg a week from now on but that the massive week 1 loss was too good of a jump start to be wasted. In one week I lost almost 10% of my total weight to loose and if I kept taking it one day at a time I could actually do this. I actually let myself believe that I just may do this!! I got to thinking about how great it would be to take away the greatest obstacle to my life....my family life, my social life, my health life, my fashion life.....the list is endless. My whole life has been in some holding pattern for over 10 years now and I am fed up with it!!!
A little voice inside says but what if I loose enough weight that I fall pregnant naturally before reaching goal (highly likely). Well then I'll have the miracle I dreamed for....I'll try not to gain too much in pregnancy...then get right back at it after the baby were born. That's what I told that little voice!
So that's a preview of my 30min self-talk. *wink* I've got to keep my goals in sight....keep them frequent and achievable and as ladymisstree said I will be able to smash through them left right and centre!!!
Today I am buying a bright sheet of electric orange cardboard which I am going to mark with 44 boxes......one for every kilo to goal and one more for achieving goal. I'm going to fill each square with a bright bold sticker (4 to do already!) and watch as the kilo's melt off.
Oh and speaking of melting....I was amazed to think that loosing 4.2kg is equivalent to loosing over 8 margarine containers of fat!!!!! Now that's amazing! :)
Cheers P
Thursday, 4th November 2004....
Hold onto your seats ladies and gents because I have the results of last nights weigh in........and they ROCK! In my first week as a Weight Watchers member I have lost.....4.2kg!!!!!!! Yes you read that right :) 4.2kg.....4200gm....four point two kilos.......can you feel my joy!!
I was expecting 3-4kg but was stoked with....did I mention...4.2kg :)
So now I hope to reach my first 5kg lost goal and achieve my first gold charm for my bracelet next week!!!! Much sooner than I had dared hope for.
Simon was stoked for me....but not nearly as much as I was for myself. I feel great and the week's efforts have certainly been rewarded ten fold. Now the hard part. To keep going.
In the past I have often gone really well in the first week. Although not usually this well, I did once loose 5kg in my first week the second time I joined WW back in 1994. The hard part is to keep my dedication, focus and determination going week after week. I have noticed a lot of other journal girls counting the number of loosing weeks in a row and I can totally understand this as I doubt I have ever lost more than 2 or 3 weeks in a row ever. This is made extra hard by the current weight of 115kg. I seem to have this invisible floor at 114kg that I just can't get below......but not this time. I want to finally see a 113 point something on the scales in the next two weeks. I feel that once I break that invisible...yet long lasting... barrier I will truly be on my way.
I couldn't have made such a great week without the support of you all and I wanted to take this opportunity to thank you :) I still have a very, very long way to go but if looking at 5kg blocks....I'm only 800gm away from my next goal success. I can do this :)
Cheers P
Wednesday, 3rd November 2004...
Finally.......weigh in day has arrived :) 12hrs to go.....lol........not that I am obsessing over the old scales demon......no! hehehe
Borrowed a great idea from Kelli's Journal (hope that was ok Kel?) about star reward points. For each day that I stick to my points total I give myself a cute little rainbow smiley face (ok not quite a star right) in my tracker. For each day I exercise I have a cute little ladybug sticker for my tracker.
Then at the end of each week I will give you totals of each and try to improve on them the following week. So for this week we have...drumroll please......3 smiley faces (for days on points) & 4 ladybugs (for exercise days)! Great for the exercise but not so flash on points. Some of the other 4 days were only like 0.5 points over but that's over all the same. Definitely want to improve that next week.
Had a pretty high point dinner last night that pushed me over by 1 point yesterday. I had planned snags and vege's but at the last minute that changed to BBQ snags, eggs and chips. I have found the great reduced fat sausages are such a point saver!! 2 of them cost only 5.5 points instead of the usual 6.5 points EACH that regular sausages cost....and they taste just the same :) I also had only one egg instead of my usual 2 eggs which was an achievement. And the chips were oven baked so as not to be too damaging either. We hardly ever eat chips (except take away type) so it was quite a treat last night. Not to mention the fact Caleb though snags and chips (that he could self feed) was the best tea ever! :) Sure beat the usual meat and veg for him.
We have a 'wet and wild' day at playgroup today...outside wet play...then meeting tonight but Simon and I have planned for us all to go bike riding this afternoon. So that will bump up my exercise/ladybird days to 5 out of 7 which I think is awesome for me :)
Hope everyone went well on the Melbourne Cup yesterday? I backed first and second which made me $9.60 (original outlay was $14) and I still have 4 sweep tickets I'm yet to check so hoping I drew a winner in those too :)
My darling boy is sleeping in again today.....6.45am now and counting so I'm off to read some other journals while I can.
Let you know tomorrow how weigh in went ... am expecting great things :)
Cheers P
Tuesday, 2nd November 2004...
1 more sleep until weigh-in! Isn't it funny what motivation will do for you? If I had made poor food choices this last week and expected a gain I would be hoping time slowed down before weigh-in, enough for me to achieve some miraculous reversal of fortunes. But on a week like I have had, when I KNOW I will be having a loss I am just so eager for it to arrive already :) I want to revel in my success and be even more motivated to continue my drive next week. Not to mention the fact I want another meeting so I can buy up on some WW recipe books. I already have about 6 from pervious memberships but do you think I can find even one of them???...No!
Yesterday finished well.....26 points in total but 10 bonus points earned! Went to gym yesterday morning and plan on going again this afternoon..either that or a bike ride - haven't quite decided yet....maybe I'll do both (yeah right!) *wink*
Going to have a little flutter on the Melbourne Cup today (like $10)...I never win big but I often get my investment back with a little extra so that's not too bad :)
My darling boy has had a bit of a sleep in this morning (It's 7.30am now and he sounds to be just stirring) so my day is off to a great start.
Good luck to all you punters out there......
Cheers P
Monday, 1st November 2004...
Well another weekend has passed and now it's only 2 more sleeps until weigh in night :)
I am fairly happy with how my weekend went food wise...although I didn't get any additional exercise on Saturday and I worked all day yesterday. Both days I went over points but not catastrophically so. I made healthy snack choices such as the fruit salad (although our dinner guest on the Saturday night brought cheesecake!!!!!! - which I had a tiny slice of), vege chips and rice crackers. I made sure that during the day I ate very low point so that it would counteract the night time eating and entertaining.
I have just discovered a few low point crunchy snacks that are just delish. First is mini packets of rice snacks (like puffy rice chips) called Healtheries Kids Care Rice Wheels that are in the health food section of Woolies and only 1 point a packet - yummy! I have only tried BBQ but I saw they also had multi packs in cheese also.
And I have been eating those 'Ajita Vege chips' which are sort of like BBQ prawn crackers without all the fat. They are 2.5points for a qtr of a big bag but today I also found them in multi packs of BBQ, French Onion, Sweet and Sour and Orginal at only 2 points each pack. These are also in the health food section if you are looking. Definitely worth the effort!
Have earned 10 bonus points already today with a 30min gym workout and a 30 session of heavy vacuuming.
Found out that a friend joined my WW class the week before me so I am very excited to know that I now have someone to sit with and stay motivated with :) Bring on Wednesday night weigh in as I can't wait!!!!
Cheers P
P.S
Just wanted to thank Amanda, Melissa, Krystal, Ladymisstree and Karen for their lovely messages and encouragement in my guest book. I know I was nervous about the weekend but I'm off to a good start. Despite having friends over tonight for dinner and after dinner drinks I have not lapsed into a high point food fest :) We are having marinated pork steaks and baked veg for tea and I have already made a plate of fresh fruit skewers for dessert......yummmmmmm! And low point too :)
I can do this...
Cheers P
Friday, 29th October 2004...
Yesterday was a great day again :)
Finished on spot on 24 points without using any of the bonus points earned at my gym workout yesterday....yippee. So that's 2 gym visits and one bike ride so far this week and plenty more to come I hope.
The scales continue to be my friend...although I know I should stay off them but it's so motivating to see them going down, and down, and down. *wink*
Spoke to my specialist at last yesterday and told him that I will not be having any more treatments for now and he was very supportive of my decision and encouraging of me loosing weight first.
Feel on top of the world at the moment.......now to just make it through the weekend unscathed - a traditionally difficult time for me.
Cheers P
Thursday, 28th October 2004...
Another great day behind me and already I am hanging out for my first weigh in! That's the difference between a half hearted effort and giving this 110%....before I hated to weigh in now I can't wait until the next meeting arrives :)
I made up that half a point yesterday that I owed and also managed to save another half a point for later in the week if I need it.
We had the maiden voyage of the bikes yesterday arvo and it was great. We strapped Caleb into the baby seat on my bike then we both headed off to ride to my Dad's place nearby. Only 10mins each way but it was a good start and an easy 4 bonus points.
The only thing that worries me is the heat!!! Not only am I paranoid about sunburn (for Caleb and us) but I hate the heat.....which in part is a big factor in why I want to loose weight. I hate exercising if it leaves me all sweaty and stinky but let's face it - what worthwhile exercise does not?? Except water based one's I guess. Caleb and I did have a swim in the pool before lunch today but there was no actual 'swimming' while I was watching/holding Caleb. The gym is a little better in that it is air-con (although not a very functional one) and there are fans all round. I don't mind if I can come home and shower but during the day with Caleb that is not always possible. Hmm. I guess I'll just have to put up with the sweat and use it as a good reminder of yet another reason to loose weight. One last thing on the heat....this morning I came very close to using the air-con in the main house...it's about 30 degrees today but so humid it was horrible. I am trying to delay it due to the costs involved but I'm sure I'll be cranking it up before the week is out. We already use the bedroom air-con of an evening but change to fan after lights out. But enough of that......I'm sure you are not here to read about me complain about the weather :)
I have found some yummy low point lunches in the last few days which I am enjoying. Corn thins with John West smoked salmon and low fat mayo is delish!! Today I swapped the smoked salmon slices (in oil) for plain salmon slices (in springwater) and saved 2 points straight away. Yesterday I had delish little mini pizza's using english muffins, tomato paste, point free tomato and red onion, some low fat ham and a slice of low fat cheese. Very yummy and from memory only about 5 or 6 points for two. Yummo!
I have had only 7.5 points today with lunch and breakfast combined and will earn 7.5 bonus points at the gym this afternoon so things are looking great for today!
I have had a little peak at the scales this morning....my first since Tuesday and I can tell you.....VERY HAPPY!!
Well I am off now to read up on everyone else's journals and visit the WW site for some more inspiration. :)
Cheers P
Wednesday, 27th October 2004...
Well the week is off to a pretty good start :)
I thought it was perfect and that I had right on 24 points yesterday but when I checked over it today I had miscalculated and it was actually 24.5 points. So just got to keep at least half a point aside today - easy!
We got the baby bike seat yesterday and after a quick spin around the back yard yesterday we are all set to head out biking this evening before tea when it's a little cooler....because holy crap summer is here!!
Also bought myself a little something yesterday :) Well actually a fairly pricey something.....a gold charm bracelet. Marked down to $75 so quite a bargain. Now I have decided to add a charm for each 5kg lost and one more for reaching goal. I want the charms to have significance to my journey so I have decided my first one after loosing 5kg will be a baby related charm eg baby, booties, cradle etc. This will remind me of what I am working for .... a better life for my baby boy and hopefully a new little bub in the future :) Although the charms are more pricey than I had imagined at least I will have a permanent and stylish reminder of my journey......after all what women doesn't love some gold jewelry *wink*
Well that's it for now. We're off to playgroup soon but just wanted to keep you posted of how the first day went. I also hope to get to the gym this afternoon so with that and a bike ride I should be going great guns for the start of the week.
Cheers P
Tuesday, 26th October 2004....
The first day of the 'new me'!
Firstly I need to thank all the many kind hearted souls who offered me support and comfort via email and my guestbook since I found out last week that our last go at the fertility treatments were a failure. You all touched me with your concern and encouragement....THANK YOU!
I have sulked and moped for a few days.....ate like a pig....and this morning....I JOINED WEIGHT WATCHERS!
The new leg of my journey has begun :)
I have updated each and every one of the pages on this site (including the photo's page) to reflect my new focus. I have also altered my goals and wiped my stats page clean for a fresh start.
At weight watchers I had to weigh fully dressed (of course!) but also with shoes on!!! Some rubbish about hygiene preventing bare foot weighs....honestly what is this world coming to????
It didn't feel even the tiniest bit embarrassed being back there.....in fact I felt on top of the world!!! My regular meeting will be on Wednesday nights but I just couldn't wait another day to get started so I asked Granny to watch Caleb and I went and joined at today's meeting......I just wanted to take that first step post haste! And I did it!!!!!!
So the WW scales said 119.2kg with shoes etc so their's is the weigh-in I shall go by. My own scales said the same when I got home and checked so I will be able to monitor my progress between meetings at home.
My kitchen and fridge are fully stocked with lots of point friendly fare and my shiny new bicycle is sitting in the garage just waiting for the baby seat to be added this afternoon (for new readers this bike was the long awaited alternative reward to pregnancy). No more drugs messing with my weight and no more fears of pregnancy preventing exercise......I am free to pursue this 110% and I hope that everyone can bare with me for once again saying that :) I've said it before I know but now nothing is holding me back!!!!
My ultimate goal is a baby......but my alternate goal is to be at goal weight by my 30th birthday next June 29th......that's just over 43kg to loose in approx 35wk's......a steep call but not impossible.
Just one step at a time.......
Watch this space for more tomorrow :)
Cheers P
Thursday, 21st October 2004...
Results are in........no baby :(
Did test at 4.30am when I got up to pee but needn't have bothered as when I got up again later period had arrived.:(
Can't say much else for now....just thought I should let everyone know ...especially those who left guestbook wishes...thank you!
Will talk more next week :(
P
